Nothing like going down three buyins, coming back, going down three and a half buyins, and coming back four and ending up running only 10 bb away from EV in under 450 hands.
Was on a FT of a $2 180man (I won btw) and some guy kept saying "SC1PIO BROTHER NEED $3". Felt like I was doing him a service by not giving it to him to support what I assume to be a gambling addiction.
Gonna try to finish out January strong, gonna grind some NL10 short while it still exists and smash some fish.
I'm pretty bad at poker but I'm trying to learn, and it's difficult when you don't have the capital to start a serious bankroll. This causes me to play scared, which makes the situation even worse. This is what my month of january looks like:
In both graphs I start running pretty good but then start to do worse. It's not tilt, I'm not actually angry at being sucked out, its just the stress of the game weighing down on me.
I know poker is about swings but I don't know if I can withstand much more of this thrill of running $25 up to $100 in two days followed by a complete bust within 20 hours. Maybe I'm just not cut out for this is all.
So I actually decide to put in volume for once in my life two tabling NL5 rush, and get knocked down. I came back eventually, and patted myself on the back and took a shower. When I came back, I decided to go at it again, only to get knocked down again.
Contact Users: 959 Active, 0 Logged in - Time: 12:56
