Aimless wandering

Haven't gotten to play much at all the last week to 10 days, real life has basically taken all of it and sapped a lot of my will to play. I'm still swonging like nuts when I do get some hands in.

I'm still planning on making a crazy ass late push. The stated goal was 20k br by Sept 1, well I hit that tonight but I'm going to have to cash out at least 1500 to pay for Septembers expenses. Buuut theres still 3 days to go and with a little rungood I can be right there. After all the stupid, STUPID stuff I had to deal with, being optimistic about poker is pretty refreshing.

Also, I'm buying an XBOX 360 Elite tonight after I post this . Price drop to $299, Dell gives $30 off so $269 and I'm paying for $150 of it in American Express points before I cancel the card so ship the Elite for $120.

BR: $20,221
VPPs: 323,931

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Had a weird day today, started off with a session and played the $27 wcoop sat to a $215 event, the 500 fpp sat to whatever, and a $23 HUSNG. Broke mostly even, eventually shut off the tables as I sort of got near the bubble of the $27 sat, and busted that. Shortly after busted the 500 fpp, and actually kinda said fuck it and played the HUSNG weird and kinda poorly. I started to fire up another set of 20 tables and I caught myself, I was in a mood. A mood where I didn't care, a fuck it kind of mood, and that's not conducive to winning poker. Caught myself and stopped, cleaned out the car, took care of some finance stuff, played with the dog. I probably avoided a losing session.

Anyway, all told only got in 6k hands today, made $500. Ran not good, nobody folded ever, but this time I practiced a lot of avoidance and ate my liver a lot. Just gameflow stuff but this was probably better than trying to play normally given my lack of hitting hands and it being Sunday. Ran below EV again, every move I made failed so I adjusted to it and stopped making moves, lol. If I can not say "fuck this", I'm going to be a lot better off I think.

Tomorrow I'm going to be busy till like 6 in the PM but I'll try to get a morning session in. Right now it's all about making $ and less about hands/VPPs. I've gotta have that 20k by September. And I will. I hope.

BR: $16,343
VPPs: 303,404

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Woke up this morning, played 3k hands of 100NL and promptly dropped 4 BI to more of the same from last night. It was only after that point that the gravity of losing ~30% of my bankroll in under 24 hours hit. Gotta admit I was pretty crushed for a few hours. Had a pretty great dinner though and it was back to the grind.



Still about ~350 in mistakes which at this point is really intolerable but it's a start. Nice to run good (nice to have reload donks too), but pretty hard to have most of my losses be at 200NL and make it back at half the stakes. Regardless, I also hit my 3k milestone during one of the sessions, so I'm basically back where I started.

This whole plan was contingent upon being at 200NL full time by Sept. 1 or this is just impossible. If yesterday hadn't happened I could have cruised to 20k in the next 2 weeks and all that coulda stopped me from there on was lack of work ethic and/or my eyes falling out. I'm not out of it, there's still 2 weeks left, but I've got a pretty steep climb ahead of me. Still, I'm not giving up. Worse comes to worse this will end up being a push to the 800k milestone instead of Elite itself. Not what I want, but not too shabby either. Anyway, bed.

BR: $15,886
VPPs: 301,201

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Well, while there's no GOOD time to have your worst poker day ever, this would be especially bad at the start of this undertaking. Not much to say on this, I bricked more than I thought possible, no one ever folded to cbets (or double barrels), it seemed I was OOP all day, 3 oversets, a flush < flush, 3 KK < AA, when I made the pure nuts it never got paid, when I made a hand they pretty much always had better, and when they didn't they sucked out. Also, was experimenting with table ninja and scripts and misclicked for stacks 3 times to start the session, that didn't really help. Got creamed by fish. Really pretty embarassing.



Didn't tilt too badly though, still pretty calm. Got the 300k milestone coming up which will take care of this, but it's pretty bad because I was counting on that to pay for RL stuff. Still probably will but will try to put it off as long as possible. Might put in another 100NL session later tonight, but that might be pushing my luck.

BR: $12,410
VPPs: 297,403

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Had to spend like 4 hours of today helping someone out, then another 6 hours helping my mom do crap, not helped by the 20 minute drive home taking 70 minutes because of pretty much no reason on the Merritt Parkway. All that said, I got some hands in so the day at least wasn't a total loss.



Didn't play well at all, probably 500 in mistakes over the 6 hours. Yay for reloads, but once these fish dry up I better get my act together or I'm gonna be in a lot of trouble. Gotta get up soon, DMV crap I need to do as early as possible, then sleep + poker all day tomorrow.

BR: $15,345
VPPs: 293,673

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So this is the beginning of my poker blog. As of now I'm not telling anyone about it, whether I publicize it later is to be decided. If someone manages to find it, well, good for them. This, unlike a lot of vanity blogs, is not meant public consumption and verbal fellation.

So here goes: It's August 13th. I have 290k VPPs. I'm going for Supernova Elite.

I realize this is marginally insane and probably impossible.

But from here on out, its 5k vpps/day. I have a mere 14k bankroll. On the surface, this is stupid. But, here's my case (to myself):

- I am not good enough to play and "get better". I firmly do not believe it. At least not now. Therefore, volume is the only way to make my goal of lots of manies.
- I am under enormous strain put on myself by the weight of the student loans and credit card debt I owe which I feel is usury. The debt load atm is $46k. This affects not only my real world interactions, but my poker play as well -- I care too much about the money, fold too much, don't make plays I want to, then spazz out eventually from the nittiness and stack stupidly. This is, clearly, bad. It is also a cycle I have not been able to break.
- The value from here on out is $88,000 in rakeback/milestones/whatever alone, plus whatever I make (or lose) on the tables.
- If I do 5 (five) 2 hour sessions per day, I will make out around 10k hands. For someone playing 1/2NL, this is not enough. This will be made even more difficult by the fact I'm going to grind out a mix of 0.50/1.00NL and 1/2NL for probably the end of the month. I will play 1/2NL full time at 20k br (hopefully starting September), dropping back to a mix at 18k. From there, I will play 1/2NL exclusively (barring horrendously bad tables) until $35k br (sometime in early November) at which point I will start mixing in 2/4NL tables, moving up to 2/4NL full time at $40k br (hopefully end of November).
- I anticipate this to be possible just be sheer attrition and zombie grinding. I NEED to have 800k VPP by the beginning of December or this is all for naught and I'm just going to cherry pick holiday games and cruise to whatever milestone I'm closest to.
- We be lookin at 1.4 (best case) to 2.0 (worst) million hands in 4.5 months. Adjust vomit bags appropriately.

This will be a daily log, good or bad, of what and how I do. Hopefully I can be a pokerstars success story and ball out at the PCA come January. GL me.

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