I emailed FTP like 7 hours ago and they still havnt answered. So I have no account to play at for the moment and my money is somewhere in FTPs system. guess I´ll get them when support please themselves to read my mail but ANSWER SOON!!!
Hate this! I want to play now.. I was on such a nice heater! gahhhhhh
Nothing to do in sweden if I cant play pokerzz.. just booked the first available flight to america, its the middle of the night now but I dont care about sleep or anything else. Just want to leave this rainy shit.. will be landing in Los Angeles sometime tomorrow. Guess I will be visiting Las Vegas too if I get my money from FTP so I can transfer some to my bank account.. TILT!
I couldnt make a withdrawal from my FTP account so I emailed support to get help.
When I woke up I saw this nice letter from nice support guy saying that my account had been closed because I had two accounts and I could continue using my primary account. It turned out it was some kind of an old account (from several years ago) that I had registered but not played at. TIIIILT!!
edit: at the end of the letter he said he could transfer the balance to my primary account. At first I thought they took my money since the letter just refered to their terms and conditions and there it says that those players may "account suspensions or revocations, and forfeiture of their accumulated Full Tilt Points and real money balances".. phewww..
The feeling I had yesterday continued today. I just feel I have an edge over most players at NL400! Today however was exceptional. No of the players I feel is better then me sat at the tables so I could do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted.
Not to brag but I pawned the tables today. It was like I saw everyones cards and I think I made the right decision in (almost) every pot. I VB really good, raised, bluffed, and made some nice folds too. The only pot I was behind AI in the session I managed to draw out (KKvAA in a big pot, the last bump up on the graph.) which is so typical when you are running really good. Ofc I was a bit lucky in some pots, and its lucky not to be outdrawned, and I know this cannot continue but I like the feeling while it lasts
I was about to post I felt so good about my whole journey so far at NL400. But the games are just so swingy at NL400
I have been staying at Dustylove for a couple of days now and we managed to put in a lot of grind to say the least. I beat a new record by playing over 6k hands in one day! So so far have I played more then 10k hands this month! I guess I will beat all my records for hands played this month.
However as far as results goes I am not very happy. I have played NL400 the whole month and it really feels that the games are tougher. I started of very quickly and won 5BI. Then the variance decided to go nuts (plus I played bad in some pots) so I lost 10BI in like 1k hands.
When I came back to the tables I felt I really had an edge over most of the players (not the toughest regulars but a lot of them) and I think I played well. I went up the 10BI I lost and there I was 15 min ago. But instead of quiting (as I planned to) I played a couple of more hands and lost like 7BI in no time (some coolers, some bad beats and some flips - most against really really bad fish which hurts even more).
So excluded RB etc I guess I´m down a bit more then 2BI which is a pretty bad result for so much grind.
What have I learned?
A lot of small stuff that will improve my game a lot. Most important though is that before, I saw most of the players as "good", playing a bit too careful against them as a saw them as better then me. After some input from Dusty however I see a lot of faults in most of them so now I view a lot of players as "bad". I just need to improve my game so I can take advantage of those errors!
Can I beat NL400?
I have tried once or twice before and failed, and variance is tuff, but I actually think I can beat NL400! If I can run good/not bad for a day or two, so I can get a role that can handle the swings, I am pretty shure I can pretty soon become a NL400 reg.
My main goal for june was to make 10BI during the first couple of days to prove I was in shape and then go to Vegas for some pawnage. It started out well, I was at my goal at one point but then stuff happened, I started to tilt/play bad and I was somehow down 10BI instead for the month.
After a few days off I went back to the basics, thought about what I did in certain spots and decided not to do any autopiloting in any spots. It resulted in some interesting spots, especially when I flat a couple of big pairs IP pre. And most important, it gave results. It felt like I was sooo much better then my opponents and I ended the month at a peak with a bit more than a 10BI profit.
Due to some travelling etc I didn’t put in too many hands (Swedish summer is just sooo great at this time) but I managed to play 20k hands atleast. Including RB I won $3k in June. Not too bad but I will try to improve that tremendously in July.
Right now I’m at Dusty's to stay there for a couple of days, grinding, fishing etc.. Think it will be really fun
I played a long session this morning and it was really really crazy. I think it had everything a session should and more beyond.
It started as usual with me loosing a BI on a cooler. I decided that I could loose 10BI on coolers and still not quit or tilt. So the pokergods decided not to test that theory for a while and let me run normal. So I grinded for a few hours, winning a few BI but nothing remarkable happened.
So it was almost as a session should be.. Soft and winning small all the time. Well, that cant happen at FTP!
In a 3BI pot I lost against a oneouter on the river and the next 5 minutes I lost a few BI more on coolers. Then it changed back and I won 3 flips in 10 hands and the table went like crazy and a reg started to curse like crazy for me being so lucky... didnt think regs had feelings
So I might have given up some value in not VB like 30% pot on the river but instead tried to get his whole stack again: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/708866
I only wish I was like dusty and could talk him into a call (guess there wasnt time since he folded very quickly).
after this it felt like his head kinda exploded.. we had a long nice and very very calm discussion in the chat.. he actually thought I had a set
10 minutes later a guy sits down to my left at another table. One of the first hands this happens: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/708858
I cursed a bit and decided to fold since I had no reads at all on him and we were pretty deep.
I guess i regret that later. He did this time after time after time. CO raises, fish calls in the SB, flopp 985, fish donkbets 87 in 13, CO folds. Noone calls in like 15 minutes. He just continues doing that and I just sit and hope to get a hand and get it in!
Finally fish donkbets as usual on a 632r flop (115$ in 25$ pot or so), reg goes AI (deep) with KK and fish instacalls with 62. Fish hand holds up and leaves the table with a few BI profit. FAIL at getting money!
Guess I was happy when it all calmed down after a while. If I ever believed in a rigged site I would post the HHs of that hour. Never seen so many coolers and 2-outers hitting all the time. It was almost an AI every 5 hands everytime I got some sort of a hand pre I knew we would come AI, the question, would I be the lucky one winning it?
Well, the session ended well after about 6h, winning like 5BI. If I had been somewhat lucky I guess that would easily have been doubled or tripled.
i think I played ok today. might have made some spewy plays, and paid of a few times but nothing seriously bad. The results however was pretty bad, I guess I have to blame the rig I started loosing 2BI the first minute of play (flush over flush both times) and it didnt get better during the night. At one point I was down like 8BI. Didnt tilt or anything so I decided to find some fish.
The only fish available (big ones) was at NL400 so I pumped up 4 tables of NL400 to get it back. The bad thing during the night is that I might be down against the fish. (I might have slightly tilted when fish 3b for the 112th time in a row and ofc he has the nuts). Good thing is, I played great against the regs and cut the total losses in half.
Best hand of the night: http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/707002
I have noticed I have played some hands pretty weird the past few days. This is one of them.. I would appreciate comments if its bad or anything.
Soon its of to my parents and celebrate midsummer. Typically its a lot of booze, alot of food and dancing around a maypole.
Swedens most famous song:
Guess it will be nice to just meet my family and enjoy the day!
the past 2 days I have played great poker again! There is something about my room, when its all calm around me and I can focus 100% on the poker - then I play so good! Today I was in the zone, I read my opponents well and I ran pretty well. I played for 6h straight, kinda lost a little in the end when the hunger kicked in, but before that I am more then pleased with my play.
The result reflected the play, 6+BI, and now I´m a couple of BI up again for the month. In the future I think I will try to stay home when I am grinding so external elements cant effect my results in a negative way... I love this feeling I have right now about my play
Yesterday I might have played the worst poker in my life. I dont know whats wrong with me. A few days ago I played really great and was almost in the zone. Then I got tilted from irl stuff and since then I cant get my game together.
As a desperation messure I saw a fish at NL400 and started playing at the table. Guess I shouldnt have done that. In like 50 hands I bumped into 4 sets/full houses when I had strong holdings so I kinda ended in the red yesterday
This failure got me started thinking what I wanted to do this summer and what I wanted with my pokerplay. I think I need to be brutally honoust with myself and not try to live up to my own expectations or w/e by making excuses etc.
The sad truth is that I havnt had a big winning month since november last year and I havnt been playing really good poker (except for a few sessions here and there) since then either. I kinda know in my heart I dont belong at NL400 right now (I felt it soo obvious yesterday) and if I dont play my A or B game I dont have a very solid winrate at NL200 either. The regulars has improved a lot and I have gotten rusty. Bad combo.
I had a goal of making 10BI at NL200 and as a treat I would go to Vegas. This hasnt had the impact is should have. I was up that at one point but then I got coolered a few times and then I started to give away money. The result became that I began feeling a bit stressed in my game - trying to win it back instead of just playing solid poker and rake in the money. As a result I started to play worse and here I am.
I have now decided that Vegas is a bad choice, even if I manage to win my 10BI. That amount wasnt about the money but an amount as a proof that my game was working and I was ready to go across the world to play cashgame and just have fun. Right now I dont feel like that at all. My game isnt working and I dont want to go there and just loose a bunch of money. I kinda feel the trip would be a failure and if nothing drasticly change that I will stay home.
This summer will instead be about taking back my game, improve it and giving myself the possibility to get higher. If I dont get better and drasticly improve my game I will quit poker in like 6 months from now. To go +-0 or as a slight winner at small/midstakes is not my dream and to waist time at something I dont want to do is just stupid. I still love the game but then I also want to pawn those sorry asses of regs and not just win over the fish. If I cant reach this I will just go on with my life and make a carrer in another area.
Since this is pretty much my last attempt at getting better and be a pokerplayer I think I will do pretty much everything to give myself this possibility. Even if its a big discussion if its +EV or not I think I will buy CTS book "Let there be range" for 1k$. I also might buy his omaha book and start playing omaha but I dont know if thats such a good idea. Better start getting good at holdem first!
I also will take up watching CR videos and analyse a lot more hands then I am doing now from my PT3 DB.
To everyone in Vegas: I wish you best luck! Hopefully I join you next year!
Now its time for me to begin my last attempt at poker! Wish me luck!
I know I dont tilt a lot but today I couldnt resist it.. The whole atmosphere here was tiiiiltmode so it took control over my body and made me do things I normally wouldnt do at all.
After my morning grind I was up about 5BI but since I was hijacked by some tiltforce I made that drop considerable. So totally I ended down 2 BI for the day. Gahhh..
dont think I will play more tonight.. maybe after a good movie or w/e.. new update tomorrow!
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