It was my 7th year in Scotland, first after I broke up with my ex-gf of 4years. She was kinda the reason why I stayed in Edinburgh in the first place - our common language was English.
Job I rly liked stop paying us, wasn't enough work and the entire office is now gone.
I was burnt out, felt rly bad because of that, was eating rly badly and fell completely out of shape.
It was even worse than this
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October year before I decided I'm gonna grind some poker on the side for funzies from $50 and now I had to pay bills with it. So when my manager/flatmate decided to move to London I knew I'd move on from Edinburgh. I had some job offers for 26keur/y+comission from Ireland, and with a good degree and 2+y experience in sales/finance I'd get easily get a decently paying job and could continue the grind in the UK.
But I knew if I do that I'd stick at it and would hardly get the chance to do something that was originally planned to happen after 2 semesters in Scotland - move back to Czech Republic, at least for a few months.
So in August I just threw all my stuff had away (my russian neighbours took all my stuff like 5 minutes after I put it next to garbage outside xD), bought an airplane ticket and without savings moved to Czech Republic and stayed with my sister for a few months. I made enough to cover expenses with part time pokering while catching up with friends, starting floorball again at a local team and after looking at the local job market and rents decided - what the hell I can actually do it and it;s pretty much the only option that allows me to try playing sports on a high level again and stay in mu home town - Ima play poker fulltime :D
It took me October to get set up in my new $200/mo flat and since November I've been playing poker fulltime. Since them I dropped some 10kg, got under 90kg for the first time in some 4years
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Things I have improved poker wise
- Started thinking in ranges again when playing A game
- I still tilt, but my C game is WAY better than it used to be. I used to have 10-15BI money spew sessions, and now even in drawn out full retard sessions the mistakes I make are so much less frequent than when I played nearly fulltime as a student. The job in sales helped heaps in that aspect, its was pretty much the same -hard way to make an easy living as some 80people would reject you every day and you sign up 2-4 for good moneyz.
- started my strategy thread where I write down what I learned including hand reviews. I think working too much on theory is harmful and I tried to avoid that and work on my own game instead, and record only quality resources that I can review afterwards.
- improved mindset. I listened to this:
this and it rly helped in terms of being okay with what I am. I'm comfortable with myself as a person and I must say compared to other people I'm like Jesus Christ :D. I simply decided that I take enough negatives at work in terms of lost pots (read my blog on attitude) that I'm not gonna be negative outside poker. Normal people don't get this but but I got closer to the mindset of "if you don't like something in your life, change it and if you can't or unwilling to do so, just learn to accept it"
- and probably the greatest and hardest accomplishment ever - Deleted dota and didn't touch it in over 2 months. This probably mad the biggest difference in my life as it freed up so much time it's incredible.
2012 graphs:
pre-purge hobby play next to work etc, from $50:
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Since new flat and grinding FT in November.
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+ made 40 bucks at NL100 (have PT4 small stakes only ;p)
+ got some $200 from $90 at microgaming. Sunk way too much time into 10Euro blaze poker I must say :D
+ rakeback, and around $1200 profit from tourneys.
Arbitrary things I want to work on in 2014. I am looking into proper goal setting in scholarly research but it's not finalized yet and it might take a couple months.
1) Thought process - plan range based not 2 card based. This is entirely in my sub-concious and my mind evaluates every spot in terms of their range and my range then uses my 2 cards.
I can play both pure exploitative or pure near gto in any spot.
2) Time management. I only spend time productively, when not playing or studying or talking about poker I read/hang with friends/excercise/walk/spend time with family and when I play poker, I only focus on poker.
3) I eat regularly and have strong healthy eating habits
4) I am fit enough to match or better any other goalkeeper in the highest Czech floorball division physically.
5) I have friends or coaches in the poker community with which I set goals and challenges every month, and I push myself to my maximum every day.
6) I know I work harder than any regular who I sit with at the tables.
7) My game is strong from the top bottom but also from the bottom up.
I continue to keep record of my C game and every month I summarize previosu month and take actions improve my c game as shown in my spew thread
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