>be me

Be the yellow giraffe!

What's a way for me to kill myself without me pussying out?

how did all your childhood friends die within one year..

drugs, suicide, gang shootings, illness, car wrecks

wait is this a JosephCalgary blog/

why do you put a 'greater than' sign before all your lines of text

it's a meme arrow

no this is a real blog. ive been put into psych wards before and shit. ive got a lot of issues. crying helps me a lot because it makes me very tired, which is what im doing right now.

idk what a meme arrow is

why do you want a girlfriend so bad? just enjoy being single for a while and try to get your shit together

Ignorance is a bliss

http://www.reddit.com/r/suicidewatch has helped a lot of people.

I've been single for years. I've fucked around a lot, but they were always in a relationship already. It's not that I want a girlfriend so bad, it's that I'm scared of opening up to people because I don't want to get hurt again. I opened up, let her know some things about myself that she never knew, and while what I told her shouldn't make her think of me differently, it just seems that I can't open up to people without them not wanting me in their lives. How am I supposed to connect with people without opening up to them? It's not like I'm always a downer, if anything, I'm always making her laugh. I used to have a lot of friends, and now I don't. I don't want to live a life where I'm always alone, doing everything alone, and going to die alone. I've been doing everything by myself for the past couple of years. It's fucking boring, and it's fucking lonely. I feel that my life is wasting away.

"get my shit together" is funny, because every time I tried that, I get more shit. Just last week, my mother and sister were getting drunk right next to my sister's child. Over thirty bottles in his crib. My sister was fired, found to be on drugs again, CPS ain't doing shit except sending her and her child to some apartments where she can live and look for work. I'm stressing the fuck out because they can easily kill my nephew, and this makes it harder for me to look for work. It's very, very, very hard to act as if nothing is happening, especially when most things are setting me off.

When I actually had a job, I wasn't going to be getting paid all of my hours worked, which would end up putting me in debt. I got another job, then was fired because there was a miscommunication between the owners. I tried to start my own lawn thing, and after putting a couple hundred down buying the equipment, I'm not able to use the vehicle that can tow a trailer around for months. I even tried getting a job where my parents work, but my dad didn't give me a good word like he did my sister. I've been trying and trying to find something stable.

I'm reading into this thing that I'm starting to suspect that I have, and there's a "symptom" that I haven't read about, and welp... it's there, among the others. Only reason I suspect I have it is because of the numerous observations about me done by other people. It would explain everything, though, I fear how my parents would react. (the symptoms are quite unique, so it's not one of those things that you can easily "self diagnose" like ADD, nor is it something that is tested by a shrink, but by an actual doctor. probably say there's at least a 75% I have it.)

On June 13 2014 07:36 bigredhoss wrote: idk what a meme arrow is why do you want a girlfriend so bad? just enjoy being single for a while and try to get your shit together

there isn't really such a thing as a meme arrow

it's common punctuation used for quoting/indirect speech

you may have encountered it before if you ever replied to an email for instance

On June 13 2014 09:15 Santafairy wrote: Show nested quote + On June 13 2014 07:36 bigredhoss wrote: idk what a meme arrow is why do you want a girlfriend so bad? just enjoy being single for a while and try to get your shit together there isn't really such a thing as a meme arrow it's common punctuation used for quoting/indirect speech you may have encountered it before if you ever replied to an email for instance

it is a 4chan thing. i though was trollish at first, but damn..

what the kek

So what do u have? Chronical itch for attention? Thats not rare at all.

If your going to kill yourself, you might as well let go of all your irrational fears and try to make something of your life first. Approach a new girl everyday, you will almost certainly have several new relationships in under 1-2 months. This is literally a case of the only thing holding you back is you. Fuck that girl that doesn't want to talk to you anymore, shit happens, every person you meet isn't going to like you, just like your not going to win everytime you get AA. You win at life by rolling the dice repeatedly, not trying to hold on to something that isn't within your grasp. The sooner you let go, the sooner you can hold something else.


Everyones story ends with

>die

Just keep trying and eventually you will succeed, it's almost impossible not to.

What do you have?

And about opening up to people, most women don't actually want to know every little detail and secret. And they often react poorly to it and illogically. Yes it sucks to not be more open, but there are some things when said that have no positive outcome. This things often have quite negative outcomes, especially dealing with irrational, illogical, and childish adults. And example would be trying to explain male sexual instincts to a woman whose ideal man is some rich prince who wants to get married and live happily ever after. It rarely goes well.

Most people believe in some magical guy in the sky that will answer their prayers, as if their lives have some great meaning and purpose. Its a joke. These type of people don't want to hear the truth, period.

Dude. Ever considered moving? Do you live in a big city? How about trying any dating websites? Like tinder - or something similar?

About 3 years ago I moved to Chicago with work. My girlfriend at the time had cheated on me and broke up with me. I was forced to move to the US. My first weekend in the US I flew to NYC to celebrate my birthday, and had a great time with old friends.

When I got back to Chicago, I realized, that I didn't know anybody at all. I knew 0 people. I decided to say fuck it, and went out by myself and forced myself to get to know people. Had a really fun night out the first night. The 2nd night out I became friends with a few people and started hanging out with all of their friends.
Later I found out that I had an old (girl) friend living in Chicago so I got to hang out with her as well.

If I can give any advice - not knowing your entire situation. Put yourself in "uncomfortable" situations. It well help you grow and develop as a person. Go on a lot of first dates - and if you have the possibility to move. Don't hesitate. A change of scenario is always good for a new chapter of your life.

I fucking hate your 'meme arrow'. It makes you look like a douchebag.

I like iop's advice btw.