Attachment

When you say "I am attached" that's not true, you seem to think you're doing everything (as in your identity) while in reality your true self does nothing and is beyond attachment or anything your mind conjures, life would still happen, just your sense of self would expand beyond that personal prison you mentioned.

Moving up limits there is always going to be a bit of insecurity. It's not a problem if you are secure enough to move back down limits if needed. Yeah, you might not have the extra cash or vacations but such is life. Don't get greedy. I remember thinking well if I can make $100k/month at 10/20 plo I could make $2million/year at 25/50. That was my downfall. You want to talk about expectations, attachment, and suffering that was it.

On May 17 2018 16:19 RiKD wrote: Moving up limits there is always going to be a bit of insecurity. It's not a problem if you are secure enough to move back down limits if needed. Yeah, you might not have the extra cash or vacations but such is life. Don't get greedy. I remember thinking well if I can make $100k/month at 10/20 plo I could make $2million/year at 25/50. That was my downfall. You want to talk about expectations, attachment, and suffering that was it.

were you making $100k/month at plo?

No. I had a $100k month at plo and thought I could rule the world. I mean that's not entirely true. I had respect for the 10/20 killers and the 25/50 killers I just thought I could learn from them without losing much or even winning some because plo back then was crazy. I don't know why I just held this goal of $2 million in a year at 25/50. After months of tilt and poor bankroll management I was broke. I got rakeback monies so I decided to give it another shot. I was the biggest winner at 2/4 that month then through tilt and poor bankroll management lost it all at 5/10 and 10/20 and I basically never played online again. I think that was 2010. I basically just couchsurfed for a year and told everyone I was still playing poker but besides using VPPs on a Sunday Million Ticket and some live play there was no poker. Then Black Friday happened and I could start a new lie that that is the reason I wasn't playing any poker. Bad faith will always eventually kill in poker. Well, tilt and poor bankroll management too. Mathematics of poker has some excellent chapters on bankroll management. It revolutionized my game. Many times playing a fish heads up at 3/6 is much, much better than playing in even a soft'ish game at 25/50 even if your bankroll is $1 million. That and variance calculators. I was kind of screwed. I was always a guy who had pretty good winrates but didn't put in a lot of volume but had kind of a high variance style game. Over a year the variance graphs were not pretty in plo even with say a 5ptbb/100 winrate, over let's say 300k hands with a standard deviation of 100 ptbbs over whatever length of time that was.... I don't remember. I had to make a choice if I wanted to not change anything and brave the variance, be a full time plo hu bumhunter or go the supernova elite route. It was all depressing. That's kind of a long answer to a simple question but I'm full of caffeine, creatine, and post workout endorphins so yeah. I was never consistently making $100k/month at plo but back then the 10/20 and 25/50 killers certainly were.