Ever since coming off the Trazadone I have been sleeping pretty terribly. I think it was Cioran that called a bed a torture chamber. Writing may be the only thing that can get me through it until I get a sleep test and they are probably going to want to sell me a cpap machine. I really never wanted to go on a cpap machine but I am overfed and obese so that is what happens to fatties like me. The frustrating part being that my meds are mostly to blame for the weight gain. I just can't win.
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So, there are at least 2 things that bring Byung-Chul Han some semblance of happiness. The first is fresh cooked rice in Japan. I've never been to Japan but I love the smell of fresh cooked rice. The second is learning to sing Winterreise by Schubert (in German) with a piano accompaniment. My mom is going to learn the piano part. The piece is over an hour long and I kind of want to be a baller and learn the whole thing but maybe I just pick a certain section that I really like.
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If you like deadmau5 or a more techno'y take from him that hits pretty hard try:
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Schön de Berlin
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I can communicate and appreciate beauty better than most people I know. Especially when I am the right amount manic. The right amount grandiose and my synesthesia and sensitivity are not going haywire. I know I am least a little bit manic because I can't get enough damn quality sleep and I am crying listening to deadmau5, apparat, and massive attack. The sensitivity is dialed up. I've also had multiple near-death experiences. Nothing crazy where I was pronounced dead. I knew one woman who overdosed on heroin and woke up in a body bag... That is like super power near death experience. She is a super hero.
Has anyone here had a near-death experience and has it enhanced your abilities in life in any way?
My near-death experiences were mostly avoiding fatal car crashes by like 1 meter or 1 second. Those usually really jazzed me up for like a month but I still think they hold weight. The time I had like 40 glasses of wine in me and had a knife in my stomach but instead heated the knife up with a lighter and branded myself on my arm and hand was pretty fucking intense.
I think this is partly why Dostoevsky wrote so well, Shostakovich composed so well, I am thinking mostly Russians here because they have such great art and most of them went through so much shit.
I don't know. It is just a hypothesis I have based on the show The OA. I base everything on the show The OA. Brit Marling better be an angel from another dimension or my life plan might be screwed. Some Tik Tok dances are actually inter-dimensional rituals. Only someone with a trained eye can tell.
I don't care what anyone says. I saw the blue fairy in the blue lights. I think she is a bit of a trickster but has a lot of wisdom to share.
I am unsure if I follow Eros to untrodden paths or I come across untrodden paths and find Eros there. It could be both. Eros is not some static entity.
I suppose I continue to seek knowledge. I cannot think my way into untrodden paths or perhaps I can. I think that it is more of finding oneself on an untrodden path and not being too loud about it. No need to be coy but don't scare the birds. You never know when it will disappear below your feet and Eros will be gone until next time.
Until next time.
Schluss Tschüss
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hiems United States. Sep 17 2021 14:35. Posts 2979
Curious what your views per year/month are since you post so much. Im just posting those as a reference.
I beat Loco!!! [img]https://i.imgur.com/wkwWj2d.png[/img]
The original game director from Blizz North? He has nothing to do with the lawsuits and he basically hates Blizzard. I don't think the studio they hired to do D2R had anything to do with it either. But as usual it's a personal decision with these things because money goes to current Blizz and indirectly supports everyone at the top etc so whatever. One thing that is for sure is that boycotts in this day and age are ineffective-- especially the ones targeting tech giants who serve masses of people who depend on them for their daily dopamine hits -- so it's a matter of your personal philosophy on things whether or not you want to support something even if the consequences are meaningless.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
I read an article (Yahoo News) that it was the game director for D2R but they outsourced it to another small dev company in NYC. As you said Blizzard brass still get the money. I will actually have no skin in the game as Blizzard is not releasing the game for Mac users and I will not be buying it for the Switch. So, I can say whatever reason I want for not getting it and no one will know the truth. The truth is I probably would have ended up getting it if they released it for Mac OS and my laptop could cover requirements and I didn't enjoy D3 on console.
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Stroggoz New Zealand. Sep 18 2021 23:08. Posts 5329
On September 18 2021 16:36 RiKD wrote:
Btw,
Do we play Diablo II: Remastered in 5 days even though the game director was allegedly a monster?
Pretty much every top 100 corporation has done things worse than what blizzard was accused of, so if your gonna boycott blizzard, why not boycott everything else?
One of 3 non decent human beings on a site of 5 people with between 2-3 decent human beings
On September 18 2021 20:43 RiKD wrote:
I read an article (Yahoo News) that it was the game director for D2R but they outsourced it to another small dev company in NYC. As you said Blizzard brass still get the money. I will actually have no skin in the game as Blizzard is not releasing the game for Mac users and I will not be buying it for the Switch. So, I can say whatever reason I want for not getting it and no one will know the truth. The truth is I probably would have ended up getting it if they released it for Mac OS and my laptop could cover requirements and I didn't enjoy D3 on console.
Game director for Diablo 4.
fuck I should just sell some of my Pokemon cards, if no one stakes that is what I will have to do - lostaccount
I refuse to pay 40 euros for a 20 year old game that will most likely have the same issues that D2 has until this day with a swarm of bots that are going to take over
They're just doing a huge money grab before the exit scheme. Blizzard's games are all in a huge downfall and there is no light in the tunnel atm
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