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You could literally be what you are doing right now while being paid for it as a video game tester, so really, what is there to break through? When my ex was doing it she was not working 99% of the time -- there are people who slack off an enormous amount. You basically get too choose because you're always part of a team and some people overwork and some underwork. And since you are living with your parents you would probably be able to work from home so they can't monitor what you're doing. So really, there is no excuse. Just give it a try and stop overthinking and bringing in concepts of input output that rich capitalists try to brainwash the masses with. Input output wouldn't work if everyone was a venture capitalist. Some people actually need to do the work for the others to exploit with their "passive income" schemes. You are not in a position to be a capitalist, accept your lot, get to work making some moves.

You might have a small chance still at that regular life where you can get a place and a girlfriend, but the longer you hesitate and overthink and make repetitive posts on here, the thinner that chance gets. Once you get some income and some structure to your life you'll be able to think more clearly. At this point you might be addicted to your suffering and self-sabotaging any chance of making your life better which is what happens to a lot of NEETs. Creatures of habit.

I don't have any problems with video game tester but Idk I just didn't think it was a heartbeat type of job that they gave to anyone.

I knew this kid andrew in highschool that was really into games growing up that ended up being in a QA role at a video game company and I was under the impression it was a serious job. Maybe there are different levels to this video game tester thing kind of like a CNA, LPN, and RN lol idk.

I still think if you can teach English online and you decide to live in some place like Mexico that is a decent way to get an apartment/gf especially if your parents subsidize you a few k a year or something like that.

It's a job you can get out of high school, but lots of middle-aged guys end up working there because it's easy and there is no barrier to entry. When I did my training not a single person in my group of like 25-30 failed to become an employee. My ex was video games-retarded and didn't know how to setup a PC (plug things in) and still got the job.

It's a serious job but there is a lot of sitting around waiting for devs to get their shit together and actually fix the stuff you report. If they don't fix it there's only so much you can do the next day, especially if they are not uploading new builds or the builds are broken. And when there is actual work to be done there's always overworking people in every group that make it easy for others to have little to nothing to do. It's not anywhere near as serious as making pizzas in a big branch store or any job that requires you to be on top of your game because you have students. The pressure is never on you as a tester unless you are fucking up writing shitty reports. This kind of low pressure environment is ideal for people who have lost confidence in themselves or those who probably have some degree of trauma from having been put under pressure they couldn't handle in past environments.

On October 07 2021 11:57 Loco wrote: It's a job you can get out of high school, but lots of middle-aged guys end up working there because it's easy and there is no barrier to entry. When I did my training not a single person in my group of like 25-30 failed to become an employee. My ex was video games-retarded and didn't know how to setup a PC (plug things in) and still got the job. It's a serious job but there is a lot of sitting around waiting for devs to get their shit together and actually fix the stuff you report. If they don't fix it there's only so much you can do the next day, especially if they are not uploading new builds or the builds are broken. And when there is actual work to be done there's always overworking people in every group that make it easy for others to have little to nothing to do. It's not anywhere near as serious as making pizzas in a big branch store or any job that requires you to be on top of your game because you have students. The pressure is never on you as a tester unless you are fucking up writing shitty reports.

Like I said idk the job my buddy got seemed a bit more serious than that but I am just speculating.

QA in restaurants is the last look and QAs need to understand every recipe versus someone just putting mozzarella cheese on a pizza.

From looking at indeed there are currently no game tester jobs near me which is a bummer. There are a lot of remote jobs but most of those are looking for people with experience. I can only look at so many disappointments at a time so I'll just have to put on more magic finding gear and go at it again.

Another thing working remotely is that my macbook pro from 2009 might be in the running for being able to run the least amount of games on the planet.

I do appreciate the spitballing though. I am not going to give up.

re: NEET life

I don't think I would have ever painted as much, picked up the guitar as much, actually created songs in garageband, read so many good books, etc. I mean the list is long on what bonafide leisure can offer. But there is a darkside to NEET-life as well. The proximity is a bit off to make friends. The internet becomes more comfortable than leaving the house. If I start having less than ~$2,000 to live off of even if I had Medicaire also. It's kind of a trap. I have to slowly and adeptly work my way out of the trap.

The main problem though is...you at the moment.

I looked you up on LinkedIn once and you honestly had the LinkedIn profile of a crazy person, psycho, mass shooter, etc.

First of all you had some retarded thing talking about "ending existential suffering " on there and a pic of yourself looking like some crazy unibomber type are murderer. Honestly do you think these are good ideas?

If you keep needing other people to tell you these things this is the problem. I don't know why I do this for free honestly.

Delete your LinkedIn you will never need it again...

Anyway I'm waiting for a flight right now and my words seem harsh and negative.

But I think this was a unique perspective and hope that helps in some way.

On October 07 2021 16:38 RiKD wrote: QA in restaurants is the last look and QAs need to understand every recipe versus someone just putting mozzarella cheese on a pizza. From looking at indeed there are currently no game tester jobs near me which is a bummer. There are a lot of remote jobs but most of those are looking for people with experience. I can only look at so many disappointments at a time so I'll just have to put on more magic finding gear and go at it again. Another thing working remotely is that my macbook pro from 2009 might be in the running for being able to run the least amount of games on the planet. I do appreciate the spitballing though. I am not going to give up.

You have experience. The experience needed is playing video games and being used to staring at a screen often in a state of dissatisfaction. If we count poker, you have more experience in this than anything else you've worked in, in terms of total hours. The rest they will teach you and it's stupid simple: how to categorize bugs and how to write bug reports according to their standards. Do the ads not say they offer training? Even if, let's say, they asked for specific QA experience (I highly doubt this is all that's available) you could easily just lie and get a minimal amount of information about Jira or whatever else they use and say you have experience with it.

They obviously provide you with all the computer material needed for the job. You think they would let people run unreleased games/builds on some random computers? Do you realize how costly it would be to them if their employees leaked game info from running on some poorly secured computers? Even if they wanted to, they can't do the "you are your own business so invest in your own stuff" model.

Fuck it. I'll just start applying to places tomorrow and see what happens.

On October 07 2021 17:24 hiems wrote: The main problem though is...you at the moment. I looked you up on LinkedIn once and you honestly had the LinkedIn profile of a crazy person, psycho, mass shooter, etc. First of all you had some retarded thing talking about "ending existential suffering " on there and a pic of yourself looking like some crazy unibomber type are murderer. Honestly do you think these are good ideas? If you keep needing other people to tell you these things this is the problem. I don't know why I do this for free honestly. Delete your LinkedIn you will never need it again...

I don't think I would ever say "end existential suffering" versus "reduce existential suffering." I looked into the pic. That was taken the morning after I was let out of the psych ward. I woke up, felt great, looked like shit and thought this was the perfect time to update my LinkedIn profile to make it the ugliest picture on LinkedIn. I am pretty sure my work history was some rant on the myth of Sisyphus and gay dolphins. My resume was the 2 of clubs through 6 of clubs scribbled over in permanent marker. But yeah, my mania is the equivalent of someone getting excited about New Year's Resolutions.

My resume:

https://ibb.co/wrBSn4Q

hiems:

Bipolar I is like someone getting excited for New Year's Resolutions:

Carole: My ass does not look exactly like the Instagram models that I like. I am elated to do 40 extra donkey kicks a day and lose 10 lbs. this year!!!

I'd be willing to make a small prop bet on whether rikd can land a job as a video game tester.

Can do with either Loco or rikd

On October 08 2021 01:18 RiKD wrote: My resume: https://ibb.co/wrBSn4Q hiems: Bipolar I is like someone getting excited for New Year's Resolutions: Carole: My ass does not look exactly like the Instagram models that I like. I am elated to do 40 extra donkey kicks a day and lose 10 lbs. this year!!!

Bipolar is like that yes but it becomes a problem when you combine it with being a dumbass. Not sure why u left that part out I explained it to you before.

Bipolar is like getting excited about New Year's Resolutions or it's like going to the psych ward and blowing up my LinkedIn on a morning whim?

I have a mental illness that affects ~45 million people in the world you dolt. It's not a matter of being a dumbass. You think I get sent to psych wards for being a dumbass?

You are such a primordial piece of shit thorn in everyone's side that you are banned from this blog and you still come around to bother me.

If I was such a dumbass why did I delete my LinkedIn soon after making those changes to it?

And why are you constantly stalking everyone on this site?

LinkedIn has no value to me. I am not a professional. Yet, obviously, it is not wise to just broadcast my mental illness across the internet in that fashion. Honestly, I blew up my chances at being a professional in 2014 when I blew up that corporate job with drinking and a trip to rehab and the psych ward and then took long-term disability and basically told them to fuck off when they offered me another job(s). I went out and got tattoos and grew my hair out and grew my beard out and refuse to wear ties or chic leather belts and shoes or khakis.

I do not want your life hiems. I want no part of what you have done or are doing. Leave me alone.

On October 08 2021 15:53 RiKD wrote: Bipolar is like getting excited about New Year's Resolutions or it's like going to the psych ward and blowing up my LinkedIn on a morning whim? I have a mental illness that affects ~45 million people in the world you dolt. It's not a matter of being a dumbass. You think I get sent to psych wards for being a dumbass? You are such a primordial piece of shit thorn in everyone's side that you are banned from this blog and you still come around to bother me. If I was such a dumbass why did I delete my LinkedIn soon after making those changes to it? And why are you constantly stalking everyone on this site? LinkedIn has no value to me. I am not a professional. Yet, obviously, it is not wise to just broadcast my mental illness across the internet in that fashion. Honestly, I blew up my chances at being a professional in 2014 when I blew up that corporate job with drinking and a trip to rehab and the psych ward and then took long-term disability and basically told them to fuck off when they offered me another job(s). I went out and got tattoos and grew my hair out and grew my beard out and refuse to wear ties or chic leather belts and shoes or khakis. I do not want your life hiems. I want no part of what you have done or are doing. Leave me alone.

I wouldn't call it stalking, I consider it my eye of Saucon power which I feel like is one of my strengths. For example if I went to high-school with some kid looking at various places life takes him or her allows me to gain insight on life. This is especially a good strength to have if you are partially taking a break from life and are turtling a bit from people because as it allows you to partially recover those things you lose by losing touch with people and it allows you to take advantage of the strengths of turtling.

As far as the bipolar thing goes we can go back and forth all day.

I don't know if your LinkedIn thing was a mental breakdown. Maybe the axe murderer picture thing but I'm referring mostly to your "reduce existential suffering thing".

Social observation live is a very important skill.

Stalking people is just being a freak and a very weird dude.

LinkedIn does not matter. I haven't used it seriously since 2013 besides some guy wanting me to go sell stuff to foundries in Wisconsin this year which is legitimate since that company tried to recruit me in the past. It's the only reason I remembered I even had a LinkedIn.

I wish I had the balls to turn my LinkedIn account into performance art with out being manic but I just do not think that is the case.

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