Boxer briefs + t-shirts

Unless none of you savages wear boxer briefs or t-shirts or all of you savages shop at Walmart or something.

I think Chads would swipe right on chicas they sort of know. I am not a Chad though. Virgin me pours through their profile to find out more about them and then sheepishly swipe left even though I want to swipe right so bad. I am kind of embarrassed of my profile though. It's just 1 pic of me which is a good pic and then a picture of one of my paintings and that's it. The rest of it is fairly detailed though. I started it to quell boredom and get inspiration. It is somewhat inspiring sometimes to see what is available. It will only hurt my self-confidence if good dates don't materialize.

What film should I watch tonight?

I feel like abdicating most of my decisions tonight. My best thoughts are staring at the wall or maybe playing my guitar again. At least I got a lift in.

I shop at farmers, not walmart.

Farmers looks like better quality than Walmart at least.

you can probably get artist pussy if you move to your own place. it's the easiest pussy but has most personality disorders.

I recently switched from boxers to boxer briefs. The compression boxer briefs are legit, it's like wearing an Under Armour shirt as underwear, in terms of texture/feel.

On March 08 2023 05:48 CurbStomp2 wrote: you can probably get artist pussy if you move to your own place. it's the easiest pussy but has most personality disorders.

I would never date a woman who had Borderline Personality Disorder. It may feel like a double standard since I have Bipolar 1 but I don't think so. I would be interested in dating artists though. What are other personality disorders? Narcissism? Psychopathy?

No thank you.

Where would I find these artists?

I think I am building up to have a go at Hinge. I just need to pick the right time because if I fail there my confidence will take a hit that I may not recover from.

On March 09 2023 03:02 PuertoRican wrote: I recently switched from boxers to boxer briefs. The compression boxer briefs are legit, it's like wearing an Under Armour shirt as underwear, in terms of texture/feel.

Preaching to the choir. Glad you are happy with the switch. Although I like a boxer brief that is mostly a nice cotton. A little pricier but worth it for me.

On March 09 2023 04:02 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On March 08 2023 05:48 CurbStomp2 wrote: you can probably get artist pussy if you move to your own place. it's the easiest pussy but has most personality disorders. I would never date a woman who had Borderline Personality Disorder. It may feel like a double standard since I have Bipolar 1 but I don't think so. I would be interested in dating artists though. What are other personality disorders? Narcissism? Psychopathy? No thank you. Where would I find these artists? I think I am building up to have a go at Hinge. I just need to pick the right time because if I fail there my confidence will take a hit that I may not recover from.

dive bars but you are an alcoholic so I don't know how to meet artists when they are sober. personality disorders are not fun. this hot girl my brother was fucking stabbed her boyfriend in the back with a kitchen knife because they had an argument. she was miss helsinki contestant or something.

I love dive bars but I'm not going to hang out there drinking cranberry / club sodas with a lime trawling for artist tramps. I also have a rule that I won't have sex with a woman for the first time if she is too drunk. There is a grey area there but it's probably like 4-5+ drinks for most. I had a girl in my lap (literally and figuratively - she was not a stripper) but she had probably 8-10 drinks and I didn't feel comfortable taking her home. She was really fucking hot too and a doctor. I know I have it in me. It's just bizarro anxiety stuff holding me back and like you said I don't know where to meet people that aren't getting too drunk.

On March 10 2023 01:27 RiKD wrote: I love dive bars but I'm not going to hang out there drinking cranberry / club sodas with a lime trawling for artist tramps. I also have a rule that I won't have sex with a woman for the first time if she is too drunk. There is a grey area there but it's probably like 4-5+ drinks for most. I had a girl in my lap (literally and figuratively - she was not a stripper) but she had probably 8-10 drinks and I didn't feel comfortable taking her home. She was really fucking hot too and a doctor. I know I have it in me. It's just bizarro anxiety stuff holding me back and like you said I don't know where to meet people that aren't getting too drunk.

That's pretty good.

My blog finally has some content.

Ok. Beyond boxer briefs, t-shirts, and film there are some things I am taking an honest look at. The most important being my motives. It seems what drives me today is money. I want to be able to pay my bills. I want to be able to get out of debt. I want to be able to take a young lady on a date to get some omakase. Getting my own place is quite daunting but I figure I have to do it at some point if I want more autonomy and a girlfriend. I don't know if I make enough money to do all of that. What happened to this strive for the spiritual? Enriching the soul. I get it. Viktor Frankl realized the meaning of life was not giving up and dying in concentration camps. That's great. I still don't know what my purpose is. I get more out of listening to The Downward Spiral by NIN than embracing Covey's idea of The Upward Spiral. I vibe with Hurt by NIN not Open The Door To Your Heart by Van Morrison. This doesn't mean I want to kill myself or do heroine. It is not that I don't experience positive emotions. I just can never fit in that purpose bullshit denial box. I never have been able to do that which is why I walk around with resting miserable face and people tell me to smile. People tell me I have a lovely smile but that does not mean I want to just smile on command like some clown.

Motives. I don't have some God-related purpose. My paintings may outlast me but that doesn't mean shit. I'm not having children. No, my work at work definitely does not qualify as some eternal project. I am not holding a bright torch to pass on to the next generation. I am a flickering candle that can go out any day of the week. A fleeting orgasm or smorgasbord of ice creams are not going to make a dent on that fact.

Motives. Kant's always on about motives. What matters is the motive! While I tend to agree with Kant's moral philosophy there is a chance that all of my motives could boil down to sex or at least a relationship with an atopic Other. Rather mundane compared to most other-worldly motives. I think this is probably closest to the truth and it is why I suffer. I spend 40 hours a week plus commute to work at a job that is a mundane job like all of them are and then I toil in isolation as my true motive goes unanswered. I need the job to have a shot at succeeding in finding an Other yet I never succeed. I toil in isolation. It's all distraction. What can fuel my fancy to forget about the pain? The pain of not having an Other or Others. Yet, I sit here still typing. Listening to music. I am resting for work. Not simply resting. I have found I need at least 3 or 4 days off and then an additional 3 or 4 days off to truly get out of rest mode but it is irrelevant because it is still rest for work. I didn't truly reach restful status until I was unemployed for over a year during Covid but then I had no money and went further into debt. That is not very restful either. Former NEETs have a shot but NEETs are just about dead in the water.