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RiKD   United States. Apr 08 2023 03:30. Posts 8992 | | |
We will die. A shit ton of pallets just got dropped off at the store that I am responsible for getting processed. It never ends. That's why we must enjoy the present because we really don't know how the future will go. I think that is what I am dissapointed in. I'm not really enjoying the present. So, when the shit hits it feels worse. I'm doing my best to hang in there. I take creatine and lift weights. I was actually thinking about going down to the Friday night AA group. The problem is I had a panic attack going over a bridge the other month and I am petrified to go over bridges now. Just my fucked up mental illnesses.
I feel like I am at a standstill with collaborative ai art. I can't produce anything with paint at home and once I got good with prompts for simple text to image stuff there is not a whole lot to do there that is interesting. Stage 2 would be to learn code and machine learning but that seems like a giant leap.
I started a new video game today. Nier:Automota. Has potential.
There's not really a whole lot going on it seems. Work is tediuos and it is a shame I have to spend so much time there. I think on the bright side it keeps my Bipolar more stable. I lift weights and take creatine which also keeps me stable. I play the guitar and sing. I'm learning "Hold On, Magnolia" this week. A bit of a tricky one for me just on first playthrough. I have been reading a lot of Seneca. That guy gets it for the most part. It's crazy he wrote all those letters in 63-65 AD.
Yeah, so there is not really that much to reflect on I suppose at the moment or at least it doesn't feel that way. I mean there is the whole fact that I will die and I want love and connection. I'm really craving it. I think a lot of people do but today a lot of people are not equipped or not willing or not able to go out and have meaningful connection. I have experienced meaningful connection in my past so I don't think I am drawing dead but there are Hikkimoris and NEETs and whatever else there may be. But, that's really what I was thinking like.... In the future, I will die. So, that is scary. I sit down to play my video games and I get a text that the truck dropped off 10 pallets. That can scuff up the ole disposition a little bit. But, it's not like I have any control over these events. Well, I have some control. I can lower the risk of dying. We can strategically process the 10 pallets for better outcomes. And, since these events suck I really need to enjoy the present and not worry which I am not doing. That is the key. Enjoying the present and not worrying. My scheduled shift is tomorrow and not tonight and there is not really anything more to be done than just processing the damn thing like we know how to process it. I shouldn't waste anytime hoping that it will go away or disapear. There is no hope with out fear and no fear without hope. Take refuge in philosophy.
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dnagardi   Hungary. Apr 09 2023 19:44. Posts 1777 | | |
memento mori
after death is the same as before birth. You have already experienced the void
why are we afraid? |
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RiKD   United States. Apr 09 2023 20:28. Posts 8992 | | |
How do you know that after death is the same as before birth? |
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dnagardi   Hungary. Apr 10 2023 16:17. Posts 1777 | | |
thats a critical and good question
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RiKD   United States. Apr 11 2023 03:42. Posts 8992 | | |
It's difficult for me to have confidence that we will just enter nothingness upon death. A lot of people throw that around as fact but I don't believe in that. I don't know what I believe in which is why death is scary for me. Death is also many times surrounded by old age, pain, etc. I think we as humans need to look at knowledge and wisdom surrounding life and death. The good life very much includes a good death if possible. I still agree with Heidegger that the best lesson in authenticity is a walk in the graveyard. Something I am way past due on but there are no convenient, nice graveyards to walk here. People here don't think like that. They are fat and rich and are delighted with Disney. I think authenticity is mostly played out and just a marketing ploy of capitalism. But, really spending time in a secluded graveyard. With trees, and a river, and mountains in the distance. Even seeing the expensive stones weathered away. The names not even legible. That is all of us. I don't wish for streams of champagne but I want something more. Help, I am alive and I want. Friends and a love interest for this broken down, mentally ill human may be too much to ask. They say any expectation is a potential resentment. I do not wish to be angry and bitter. But, I am afraid of death. I am afraid of pain. I am afraid of a lot of things. Many of these fears are holding me back to living a better life or what I deem to be a better life. From my experiences, I do know that certain things just work. It would be silly to argue that good friends will not bolster a better life. |
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Stroggoz   New Zealand. Apr 11 2023 06:01. Posts 5329 | | |
Man we claim to know all sorts of things in every day life.
People asking for such an extreme level of confidence when it comes to claiming there's no afterlife, in comparison to other claims. The rigor people demand for atheism is something close to a mathematical proof.
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Stroggoz   New Zealand. Apr 11 2023 06:02. Posts 5329 | | |
| On April 09 2023 18:44 dnagardi wrote:
memento mori
after death is the same as before birth. You have already experienced the void
why are we afraid? |
Yeah a few people have had that insight before. |
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RiKD   United States. Apr 12 2023 01:12. Posts 8992 | | |
I actually do believe that nothingness - consciousness - nothingness is probably the most likely outcome but I don't know what I am basing that off of. Let me be worm food or dog food or fish food or just anhiliated to the best of our knowledge and let's call it a day and I can get on living. I want to learn about living and death though. Death can certainly be an impetus for life. I keep memento mori around my room. I don't know how strong they are on my daily life. I have to really get shaken up to get a jolt of the good stuff. Near miss car encounters that could have been fatal being a few examples. I was programmed by capitalism to do more though. Today, I would probably be motivated to do less. Focus on a social life more or just lingering contemplation. Maybe some paintings. Maybe some songs. |
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dnagardi   Hungary. Apr 12 2023 19:06. Posts 1777 | | |
| On April 11 2023 02:42 RiKD wrote:
It's difficult for me to have confidence that we will just enter nothingness upon death. A lot of people throw that around as fact but I don't believe in that. I don't know what I believe in which is why death is scary for me. Death is also many times surrounded by old age, pain, etc. I think we as humans need to look at knowledge and wisdom surrounding life and death. The good life very much includes a good death if possible. I still agree with Heidegger that the best lesson in authenticity is a walk in the graveyard. Something I am way past due on but there are no convenient, nice graveyards to walk here. People here don't think like that. They are fat and rich and are delighted with Disney. I think authenticity is mostly played out and just a marketing ploy of capitalism. But, really spending time in a secluded graveyard. With trees, and a river, and mountains in the distance. Even seeing the expensive stones weathered away. The names not even legible. That is all of us. I don't wish for streams of champagne but I want something more. Help, I am alive and I want. Friends and a love interest for this broken down, mentally ill human may be too much to ask. They say any expectation is a potential resentment. I do not wish to be angry and bitter. But, I am afraid of death. I am afraid of pain. I am afraid of a lot of things. Many of these fears are holding me back to living a better life or what I deem to be a better life. From my experiences, I do know that certain things just work. It would be silly to argue that good friends will not bolster a better life. |
you don't need a nice graveyard. In fact the more neglected the better. At least I think that's what Heidegger would have advised you. |
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CurbStomp2   Finland. Apr 12 2023 20:20. Posts 276 | | |
| On April 11 2023 02:42 RiKD wrote:
It's difficult for me to have confidence that we will just enter nothingness upon death. A lot of people throw that around as fact but I don't believe in that. I don't know what I believe in which is why death is scary for me. Death is also many times surrounded by old age, pain, etc. I think we as humans need to look at knowledge and wisdom surrounding life and death. The good life very much includes a good death if possible. I still agree with Heidegger that the best lesson in authenticity is a walk in the graveyard. Something I am way past due on but there are no convenient, nice graveyards to walk here. People here don't think like that. They are fat and rich and are delighted with Disney. I think authenticity is mostly played out and just a marketing ploy of capitalism. But, really spending time in a secluded graveyard. With trees, and a river, and mountains in the distance. Even seeing the expensive stones weathered away. The names not even legible. That is all of us. I don't wish for streams of champagne but I want something more. Help, I am alive and I want. Friends and a love interest for this broken down, mentally ill human may be too much to ask. They say any expectation is a potential resentment. I do not wish to be angry and bitter. But, I am afraid of death. I am afraid of pain. I am afraid of a lot of things. Many of these fears are holding me back to living a better life or what I deem to be a better life. From my experiences, I do know that certain things just work. It would be silly to argue that good friends will not bolster a better life. |
that heidnigger guy probably envied wealthy people and just tried to be edgy to get pussy. also i don't understand the retardation in which one believes that when the brain dies you can experience something. is that what they teach in universities? |
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RiKD   United States. Apr 13 2023 00:50. Posts 8992 | | |
| On April 12 2023 18:06 dnagardi wrote:
Show nested quote +
On April 11 2023 02:42 RiKD wrote:
It's difficult for me to have confidence that we will just enter nothingness upon death. A lot of people throw that around as fact but I don't believe in that. I don't know what I believe in which is why death is scary for me. Death is also many times surrounded by old age, pain, etc. I think we as humans need to look at knowledge and wisdom surrounding life and death. The good life very much includes a good death if possible. I still agree with Heidegger that the best lesson in authenticity is a walk in the graveyard. Something I am way past due on but there are no convenient, nice graveyards to walk here. People here don't think like that. They are fat and rich and are delighted with Disney. I think authenticity is mostly played out and just a marketing ploy of capitalism. But, really spending time in a secluded graveyard. With trees, and a river, and mountains in the distance. Even seeing the expensive stones weathered away. The names not even legible. That is all of us. I don't wish for streams of champagne but I want something more. Help, I am alive and I want. Friends and a love interest for this broken down, mentally ill human may be too much to ask. They say any expectation is a potential resentment. I do not wish to be angry and bitter. But, I am afraid of death. I am afraid of pain. I am afraid of a lot of things. Many of these fears are holding me back to living a better life or what I deem to be a better life. From my experiences, I do know that certain things just work. It would be silly to argue that good friends will not bolster a better life. |
you don't need a nice graveyard. In fact the more neglected the better. At least I think that's what Heidegger would have advised you.
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I just meant a nice cemetery to walk. At my sister's old place it was perfect. A quaint little cemetery at the end of a 1 or 2 mile walk or more if I wanted. Been there since the 1700s. I'm glad I brought this up because it motivated me to check out a cemetery here in town that at least has a lot of massive oak trees from the pictures. I like the juxtaposition of the old oak trees versus the pathetic stones that people decide to set up or the giant mountains and flowing river in the case of my sister's old place. |
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RiKD   United States. Apr 13 2023 01:06. Posts 8992 | | |
| On April 12 2023 19:20 CurbStomp2 wrote:
Show nested quote +
On April 11 2023 02:42 RiKD wrote:
It's difficult for me to have confidence that we will just enter nothingness upon death. A lot of people throw that around as fact but I don't believe in that. I don't know what I believe in which is why death is scary for me. Death is also many times surrounded by old age, pain, etc. I think we as humans need to look at knowledge and wisdom surrounding life and death. The good life very much includes a good death if possible. I still agree with Heidegger that the best lesson in authenticity is a walk in the graveyard. Something I am way past due on but there are no convenient, nice graveyards to walk here. People here don't think like that. They are fat and rich and are delighted with Disney. I think authenticity is mostly played out and just a marketing ploy of capitalism. But, really spending time in a secluded graveyard. With trees, and a river, and mountains in the distance. Even seeing the expensive stones weathered away. The names not even legible. That is all of us. I don't wish for streams of champagne but I want something more. Help, I am alive and I want. Friends and a love interest for this broken down, mentally ill human may be too much to ask. They say any expectation is a potential resentment. I do not wish to be angry and bitter. But, I am afraid of death. I am afraid of pain. I am afraid of a lot of things. Many of these fears are holding me back to living a better life or what I deem to be a better life. From my experiences, I do know that certain things just work. It would be silly to argue that good friends will not bolster a better life. |
that heidnigger guy probably envied wealthy people and just tried to be edgy to get pussy. also i don't understand the retardation in which one believes that when the brain dies you can experience something. is that what they teach in universities?
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I don't see how you gathered that Heidegger envied wealthy people because he suggested someone take a walk in a graveyard to understand authenticity. He had a wife and fucked his students probably in part due to his "edginess." I'm surprised you don't know about him. He was a literal Nazi and wanted to be the philosopher-king of the Nazi party.
There is a lot we don't know about conciousness. I never studied consciousness at university. There are other reasons that people concoct theories surrounding what happens after death. I'm not trying to concoct theories because it is sort of a waste of time. I am not that creative and I'd rather paint or write a song. That does not mean that blip - dead - nothingness is the only option. How do we even create probabilities with a subject like this? |
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Santafairy   Korea (South). Apr 13 2023 15:12. Posts 2233 | | |
true dat bro
don't think about the future, because you can't predict it.
don't worry about the past because you can't change it anyway
and forget about the present.
i didn't get you one. |
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RiKD   United States. Apr 14 2023 00:57. Posts 8992 | | |
| On April 13 2023 14:12 Santafairy wrote:
true dat bro
don't think about the future, because you can't predict it.
don't worry about the past because you can't change it anyway
and forget about the present.
i didn't get you one. |
Hey, it's one of the good Santa posts.
My position is not to not think about the future but to not worry about the future so much.
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lostaccount   Canada. Apr 14 2023 07:56. Posts 6184 | | |
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lostaccount   Canada. Apr 14 2023 07:57. Posts 6184 | | |
rikd Gl we will be fine if u just live to be |
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devon06atX   Canada. Apr 15 2023 21:14. Posts 5459 | | |
What the fuck is going on here
edit - other than letting the crazy lostaccount in. You, keep your shit together man |
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lostaccount   Canada. Apr 15 2023 22:29. Posts 6184 | | |
U crazy me crazy but r u da crazy 1
Devon think he is sane in this insane world lol
Well I am crazy in this crazy world
Life goes on
Devon let’s go all in PF Holdem, winner can keeps posting n loser becomes a lurker |
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devon06atX   Canada. Apr 17 2023 01:46. Posts 5459 | | |
You're legit a fucking retard. I don't know who let you out of the cage. |
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