UB is shitting on me these days

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Oddeye Canada. Feb 18 2008 19:47. Posts 5107

I know I'm not really down that much at all but I am fucking sick of losing every god damn all-in/pot. My training course as barely started and I find myself so stressed I cannot even read a single book without wanting to go back to poker or want to leave the place. I've had so many negative emotions in my life lately and an increasing desire to use violence and drugs. It's def linked to poker but it's not the whole picture, I don't work hard at all compared to other people and I'm pretty lazy. Break do me no good, I tried but was thinking about it even more, if I could just have a couple months free I would be able to get myself together but things are going fast now. I know I'll beat it at some point and keep going up... It's more that I'm bad within myself and I feel painful in almost every situation and I want it to be done. I really wish I'd be able to be happy without having to do drugs (and quitting won't help) - its just ive been smoking for 4-5yrs and just wasted from it, it's fine when I can sleep but now I've no time to sleep I have to wake at like 6.

Ok rant done -_- and off sniffing some stuff (dont worry not doing the stuff too much)

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Last edit: 18/02/2008 20:34

Oddeye Canada. Feb 18 2008 20:11. Posts 5107

im on the point of breaking out of cold I'm just so unhappy even if I'm high just thinking how tomorrow will be shitty

I don't want to kill myself or anything but it feels like a solution.

Oddeye Canada. Feb 18 2008 20:18. Posts 5107

grgrgrrrrrrrrrrrrrr whatever gnnn gotta try and not to be so depressed all the time imma go to sleep really high at least its a good point

Oddeye Canada. Feb 18 2008 20:25. Posts 5107

btw what im sniffing is codeine just had some pills left and its funny how it changes your mood fast if I just rationalize I still have 60k w rb and I still own it just running bad but I'm still rly stressed due to that training course even if it doesn't look so hard I just can't imagine something like classes where you actually have to go to all hours

Stim_Abuser United States. Feb 18 2008 20:59. Posts 7499

i also play on UB and am on a sickening bad run aswell.

Hey Im slinging mad volume and fat stackin benjies I dont got time for spellin n shit - skinny pete

SKoT United States. Feb 18 2008 21:00. Posts 1768

railing t3?

bad news bears...

Silver_nz New Zealand. Feb 18 2008 21:28. Posts 5647

woah, def need a more positive perspective x_x

TheHuHu United States. Feb 18 2008 22:04. Posts 4271

If you use drugs I highly recommend painkillers. Just sayin'.

I have always wanted to quote myself. - Me

whamm! Albania. Feb 19 2008 00:18. Posts 11625

at least u get huge rakeback. imagine if you were at stars..ugh