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k2o4 United States. Apr 11 2008 20:13. Posts 4803 | | |
This has been a very trying time for me since February - Everything looked good as I had a 6K BR, shots @ NL200, and was moving into a new apartment with my GF. But then a downswing started, I lost my poker edge during the chaos of moving, and the next thing I knew I was 30 BI's down in NL100. I cashed out 1K and tried to rebuild my BR with 20 BI's @ NL100... and the downswing continued and tilt ensued. I hit a low point of $950 about a week ago and was yet again ready to give up on poker (I can't say how many times I just wanted to give up on it all).
I've been boosted by a $650 bonus that I cleared yesterday and some kicking a bunch of ass @ NL25. I restarted NL50 yesterday and had a good start till this morning, then hit an afternoon shitty session of about 450 hands, but was able to recover for a winning day anyways. My BR now sits @ $1,950 and I'm on the verge of being back where I was, but now I'm at that level with my head on straight and playing better poker than I ever have before. I think I'll continue in NL50 till at least $2,500 before I start taking NL100 shots again, cause 20 BI's just isn't enough of a cushion to allow me to play my best.
So here's a graph of NL50 since I restarted it and also the PT stats (though it's all in HoldemManager which I switched to recently).
The biggest thing I've learned throughout this experience is that my personal mental state has more affect on my poker results than anything else. It's much more important than knowing fancy tricks or even being a great player in terms of having lots of poker skill and knowledge. Once you hit a certain level and know how to play basic winning poker then you will win if you do it - but it's the mental state that causes me to stray into losing. A few times I caught myself thinking "I know so much more about poker now than I did a few months ago and am a much better player, but I'm losing now and was winning then, wtf?" Looking at it now the difference is that back then I knew how to play basic winning poker and I had my head on straight. I was able to control my emotions and make the proper decisions, avoid tilt and stay disciplined. Recently I've been tilted from the downswing and then freaking out about every losing hand cause it was effecting my BR so strongly.
I also realized that I wasn't as good as I thought I was... hehe. I've learned a lot of new tricks and improved my hand reading ability. The bad thing is that when I first learned all these new things I kept applying them in the wrong places. Now that I got my emotional control back I am able to restrain myself from being spewy by being fancy. It's pretty sweet.
So I better go knock on wood now cause I'll probably downswing and tilt my entire BR away at my next session cause of this big brag. Damn.
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Kapol Poland. Apr 11 2008 20:41. Posts 4696 | | |
:O
I was pretty sure you're ahead of me. You better get your ass movin' or else I'll be at NL200 and you won't even start playing a level lower.
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Kapol Poland. Apr 11 2008 20:43. Posts 4696 | | |
| | On April 11 2008 19:41 Kapol wrote:
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Seconded. |
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Python817 Canada. Apr 11 2008 20:49. Posts 2733 | | |
I'm pretty sure I tilted 1 1/2 buyin to you today while I was tilting and still am |
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k2o4 United States. Apr 11 2008 20:55. Posts 4803 | | |
| | On April 11 2008 19:49 Python817 wrote:
I'm pretty sure I tilted 1 1/2 buyin to you today while I was tilting and still am |
Yeah that was really nice, thanks for that =) It should have been 2 BI's but I got scared and didn't get full value on that first hand, lol. I had a feeling you were tilting after you stacked off in that second hand. I pushed and was sure you were gonna fold and was really shocked to see you call, hehe.
Yeah Kapol I WAS - now I'm way behind T_T Sad life. |
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RS_II United States. Apr 11 2008 21:01. Posts 748 | | |
i'm curious where did you clear that bonus??? are you willing to share and recommend? |
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k2o4 United States. Apr 11 2008 21:02. Posts 4803 | | |
bought it as platinum star on PS with FPP's |
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Sheitan Canada. Apr 11 2008 22:10. Posts 4217 | | |
This game is the most frustrating game known to man. |
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sniderstyle United States. Apr 11 2008 22:55. Posts 2046 | | |
glad to hear you are doing well |
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k2o4 United States. Apr 11 2008 23:22. Posts 4803 | | |
| | On April 11 2008 21:10 Sheitan wrote:
This game is the most frustrating game known to man. |
I'll agree with that a million times over ^^ |
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k2o4 United States. Apr 12 2008 00:27. Posts 4803 | | |
oh hell yes, the friday night curse is broken! I always get online on friday nights thinking it will be easy money cause of the influx of fish, and end up losing a few buyins. Sat for about 200 hands and picked up 3 buyins and that was pretty damn nice =) |
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