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k2o4 United States. Apr 29 2008 17:56. Posts 4803

Why? Cause I just got "Batman Begins" in the mail from netflix. Sweet.

Gotta refresh the memory and enjoy the greatness one more time before Dark Knight comes out. I've avoided watching any DK trailers cause I want to have a serious influx of awesomeness in one go rather than tease myself with it. I know the movie is gonna be good, so no reason to watch the trailer and spoil it.

Also doing ok at poker. Having a very up and down time at NL100 so far. Some days are +4 buyins, some are -4. I think I could be turning those -4 days into -2 or maybe even break even if I avoided some key spew spots. But over the last 36 hours I've gotten my game face on and kicked the shit outta the fear that was engulfing me.

See, the problem I've been facing is that I win a little and get scared of losing it. This is probably cause I had 2 horrible sessions where I was up 3-4 buyins and ended up down 2-3 buyins because I stayed too long trying to stack a fish. So I had a period of time where if I won 1-2 buyins I'd leave the tables, call it a session. I had one session where I sat into a mega heater, won 2 buyins and left, all in about 55 hands.

But this lead me to playing scared and playing wayyyy too short and too little. After having a winning session I couldn't get myself to go back to the tables. I was scared I'd go lose it and then feel like shit cause I had a losing day. Stupid I know, but it was there, this fear hovering around me at all times to the level where I couldn't even enjoy a win cause I was just scared to lose it.

I spent a bit of time talking to myself (literally, I find I do that a lot these days) and telling myself to stop being a pussy, to remember how fun it is, and to focus on how I play not the money I make. I got through to myself and my mindset has changed around and that lead me to playing a LOT more hands the last day and a half. The roller coaster is still going and I'm still sitting at about the same place I always have, between $2,800 and $3,000. I can't seem to break the 30 buyin plateau yet, but I will. I know I will, especially with the way I'm playing now and the new attitude that I'm approaching with.

Today has been weird, total cooler central. My 2 biggest losing hands of the day were major coolers, set over set and straight over straight. The painful thing about the str8 was that the previous hand I won a 250BB pot, and before I even have time to celebrate I get dealt 98s and hit a JTQ 2 suited board giving me a straight AND the flush draw. Of course I get it in on the flop vs a guy with AK and he holds. So I lose 100BB right away and am only up 50BB. lol, Lee giveth and then Lee taketh away.

But amongst all of this mediocrity and up and down I have some good news: 50K VPP on the year! Halfway to Supernova!

This makes me happy. I really wanna be supernova so the FPP come faster and I can buy the really big bonuses. Right now I've got a $100 bonus going from the echeck thing they're doing for old epassporte people. I was also saving FPP's to hit 50K and buy another platinum $650 bonus, but when I hit 25K I decided to buy the Goldstar $285 instead because by the time I reach 50K FPP the $650 won't mean as much to me as the $285 does right now, cause it will help get my BR moving. My goal is to always have some sorta bonus going so that I have that free money coming and there's some sorta rakeback going for me.

Anyway, I'll just post some SS's of all my NL100 hands since the last time I shared. It's not pretty but I am glad that I never dropped to 2k and had to redo NL50. And I am on a very very very slow upward movement. Hoping to improve that by decreasing spew and getting more value, which I feel like I'm doing lately.

Oh yeah, one complaint to make. The main power breaker to my townhouse is outside, right where a lot of the neighbors toddlers play. These kids keep getting in there and turning my power off. I don't think they realize it and are just going "Oh secret switch cool" cause they're like 4 or 5 yrs old. But it's very tilting to have ur net go out along with the music, lights, and everything else. Also gotta go reset all the clocks in my house now. I caught em in the act today and yelled at them. Hopefully they stay away. I would put a lock on it but the lock part is broken. I think I'll go duct tape it after I finish this blog.

Nearly forgot - I've got another short story I plan to post but have been lazy and haven't seen a good time to do it. So keep an eye out for that.

Laters guys, leave a comment on your way out!

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Last edit: 29/04/2008 19:13

Kapol Poland. Apr 29 2008 18:23. Posts 4696

These fucking mental leaks are the worst :[

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veryGUd United States. Apr 29 2008 18:31. Posts 625

buy a 360
gt4 ya know

iop Sweden. Apr 29 2008 18:31. Posts 4951

be jelous

i can download batman begins in 5 minutes

Milkman lol i didnt spend half a thousand on a phone so i could play it cool and be all stealth

veryGUd United States. Apr 29 2008 18:31. Posts 625

lol good to see your confidence is back

k2o4 United States. Apr 29 2008 18:46. Posts 4803

On April 29 2008 17:23 Kapol wrote:
These fucking mental leaks are the worst :[

i kno rite

Yeah, if I could just keep a perfect mental state I'd be pwning. Fucking tilt comes in so many different ways and levels.

On April 29 2008 17:31 veryGUd wrote:
buy a 360
gt4 ya know

I never like the gta games. I prefer COD4 or hitman any day. And of course, classics like BW and CS which never get old ^^

On April 29 2008 17:31 iop wrote:
be jelous

i can download batman begins in 5 minutes

odam... i r jelus

=)

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Last edit: 29/04/2008 18:47

Sheitan Canada. Apr 29 2008 19:09. Posts 4217

You can drop some water near the switch and put a power cable in it so when the next little fucker venture for the "magic switch" he'll be shocked !!!!

P.S: it's a joke, right ?

Odds are exactly 50%, either happens or it doesnt

k2o4 United States. Apr 29 2008 19:13. Posts 4803

On April 29 2008 18:09 Sheitan wrote:
You can drop some water near the switch and put a power cable in it so when the next little fucker venture for the "magic switch" he'll be shocked !!!!

P.S: it's a joke, right ?

I already set it up and fried one kid before coming back and scrolling down.... shit.

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Python817 Canada. Apr 29 2008 19:39. Posts 2733

gj I only got 40k vpps but 20k of that is from this month ^^

CrownRoyal United States. Apr 29 2008 19:49. Posts 11386

I never get those mental leaks

they sound fucking terrible though. Well, actually I'm a god of tilting so I guess that counts just as much if not more.

much love brett <3

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Silver_nz New Zealand. Apr 29 2008 20:06. Posts 5647

omg banking in VPPs, i'm only on 40k for the year

lachlan Australia. Apr 29 2008 21:43. Posts 6991

only on 4.2k this year

full ring

k2o4 United States. Apr 29 2008 23:02. Posts 4803

On April 29 2008 18:39 Python817 wrote:
gj I only got 40k vpps but 20k of that is from this month ^^

I'm not surprised, you play SOOOOOOOO many hands it's fucking insane.

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