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k2o4 United States. May 10 2008 12:26. Posts 4803

Sorry about that post last night guys - I was drunk and sitting at rock bottom. I figured no one would reply at all so I was really surprised to see so many people posting. I laughed at Kapols post (<3) and it was nice to see people sticking up for me (even if I do post too many hands, ahha!)

Anyway, last few days of poker have sucked balls and since I'd been cashing out I only had a 30 BI BR for NL100. Then I just couldn't win anything and started tilting by playing longer sessions than I should and too many tables. I mainly lost due to slight setups, things like AA as an overpair vs a set. If I wasn't tilted they'd be pretty easy folds, but I just wanted the win so badly that I couldn't fold any TPTK or better. By yesterday morning I was down to a 21 BI BR and feeling shitty about it.

I dropped down to NL50 and won about 3 BI's and decided to go back up and keep recovering, but back @ NL100 I only managed to tilt/spew and lose another 4 BI's, officially locking myself back into NL50. That tilted me really badly cause I'd been so happy to be "solidly" into NL100, and now I' thrown it all away.

So I quit playing poker for the day and tried to put on my happy face and have a good night out with the GF. I didn't tell her how bad I felt, trying to keep it hidden. That was a bad idea cause I started overreacting to small things and pissed her off, but since I was already so pissed off at myself I didn't do anything to calm her down, which basically escalated us into an all out war.

When I made that post last night I was in the worst point of the fight, basically feeling like shit cause I'd fucked up at poker and now I'd fucked up at my relationship and life. I got away from her for a second and pulled up a browser and as I heard her coming into the room I just quickly typed up that last blog post cause that was how I felt in the moment.

So that's what happened. Probably not close to as exciting as some people might have guessed, lol. I really appreciate all the nice comments made. They're helping me start this new day with a much better outlook and perspective. I seriously was sitting at rock bottom last night, which is kind of a good place to go, since after that there's nowhere to go but up.

I know it's cheesy to quote movies, but when shit like this happens I try to think of things like the line from Batman Begins.... "Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves back up." And also from the new Rocky, though I don't have it memorized it's something like "Life isn't about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can be hit and keep going" or something like that. So I fell hard, took a serious beating in all senses of the word (the fight really was a war), and now it's time to get back up and keep going.

Thanks for the support,
-Brett

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Kapol Poland. May 10 2008 12:40. Posts 4696

since I was already so pissed off at myself I didn't do anything to calm her down, which basically escalated us into an all out war.

That's basically what happens when I start arguing with somebody while being very drunk. Thank God people don't take it too seriously or else I'd have no friends left.

BIBLE (Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth)

Last edit: 10/05/2008 12:42

locoo Peru. May 10 2008 12:46. Posts 4561

oh, and you are just starting, wait until you lose some thousand dollars on tilt, this is very important to master, if my gf wasn't so understanding i would've been ditched prolly about 10 times already

the money you lose in poker must never affect your real life, or you will be pissed on day, happy another, weird the other, etc

bitte bitte bitte bitte bitte bitte

True Finland. May 10 2008 13:24. Posts 843

:D:D:D:D

I am a NL25 player so take my advice/comments in that perspective

Last edit: 10/05/2008 13:30

Exhilarate United States. May 10 2008 15:02. Posts 5453

Keep your head up man, you'll beat 100NL sooner or later.
Hope things work out with the gf.

whamm! Albania. May 10 2008 15:47. Posts 11625

no worries. couldnt resist saying "thats what she said " tho after watching the office lol
just imagine yourself swimming against the current for now, things will turn around for you sooner than you think.

lebowski Greece. May 11 2008 05:04. Posts 9205

new shit has come to light... a-and... shit! man...

RS_II United States. May 11 2008 13:21. Posts 748

awesome post by True

SKoT: I got 99 problems and a bitch aint 1