Hey all. I've been outta the scene for the past 2 weeks. Mainly cause I started I hit a bad few days and couldn't mentally take it anymore, freaked out, tilted a bit, cashed out a bunch, and decided that my attempt to play full time poker was not succeeding. So I swallowed my pride and went and got a part time job that makes me enough to cover the bills. I'll be doing 3 days a week at the new job and 2 days playing poker. I think that knowing that my bills will be covered will allow me to play poker and build my BR with a lot less pressure, which I think I crack under.
Kind of sad cause I started out great and then have been fighting hard for the last few months. After this last downswing I thought about it and realized that I had played my best poker when I wasn't scared to lose the money and had no need to make any money. But in the last few months I needed to make enough for rent and I was already on a kind of low BR as it was, so I was always stressing out whenever I lost, especially if I had any sort of downswing. My goal is to rebuild my BR will working this job and take another shot at full time once I have 10k and am confident in playing 1/2 the same way I'm confident playing NL25 (IE it is a cake walk).
I also went to NYC for a few days with the GF. It was her first time there and she was going for work so I wasn't supposed to go, but at the last minute we decided I'd come along since I wanted to be with her for her first time in the big city. We had a lot of fun, did a bunch of sight seeing and eating good food in Manhattan. I put most of the pics in the spoiler so go ahead and click if you're interested.
Me and the GF in Central Park at a cool lake we found.
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My GF flying in the sheep's meadow or something like that. Sheep used to graze here till like the early 1900's.
Me at ground zero.
Cool building shot
Statue of liberty way in the background
Ellis island on the left and the sunset
Another nice sunset shot
My GF in Times square
A standard times square shot
We hit up some places that we don't have pics of, like Grand Central, Harlem, Union Square, Battery Park, Bryant Park and a bunch of other spots. Was a whirlwind tour and a great time. But I was glad to get back to CO with the open skies and fresh air.
Oh and here's a fucking hilarious video that I found. I posted it in my last blog but no one seemed to watch it, and I think that's a shame. So here it is again!
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On other news I'm still doing well on my no cigarette challenge to myself. Started May 20th and ends June 20th. Haven't had a cig since May 20th and have been nice and strong in resisting em. The funny thing is that once I decided I was not gonna smoke anymore, nearly all the desire disappeared. I have only had a few faint urges when things spark off a memory of good times smoking, but they go away very quickly and easily. Of course I'm doing this cold turkey, no special gums or patches. But I was never really addicted, just a casual for fun smoker. So I guess that makes it easier. I have a hard time how anyone could be addicted. If I smoke too much I don't get addicted, I want to stay away from them completely.
I am still trying to diet a bit - basically eat healthier food and eat smaller portions. Going pretty well so far. It's funny seeing how I can eat half as much food as I used to and still be full. I was eating so much more than I needed too cause... well it tasted good. But it wasn't doing any good for my body. I'm still doing a lot more exercise with pushups and situps in there every day along with stretching and some yoga. Adding walks in the park and runs in the park as well, plus today I just restarted skateboarding. Felt weird being the old 24 yr old guy on a board. And to top it off I suck now. If you're an older guy skating it seems to me like you should be good, so I'm kind of embarrassed out there. That's why I went at like 8:30am to the skate park cause I know none of the kids will be around and I can re-learn in private!
That's about all for now. Gonna go get ready for work! Btw, it's actually really nice having a real job again after doing poker for 4.5 months. But I'll go into all of that in a later blog post.
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