Never ending life tilt?

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Zhan Czech Republic. Jun 10 2008 13:37. Posts 152

Hello guys, since I'm on LP for a long time I decided to create my first blog. Lol, I had so many things prepared to write and now I feel like shit cuz I don't know what I want to write actually.....

Should I start with introducing? Hm I don't want to, because I'm on fcking life tilt for like two months maybe. I lost lots of money by playing poker and just doing crazy stuffs like gambling and playing tournaments, sngs or cash games with like 3 buyins (lol you know deposit 20$ go with it to nl25, make 75$ in a hour and then lost it all because I had such a euphory lol...) this happened to me a few times but I learned something and I told myself that I have to do something with it.. so I got staked for 150$ and I moved up pretty easy to NL10 and had 350$ bankroll... but you know easter eggs sucks and I don't celebrate them so I was playing poker whole weekend. Then on sunday -> monday night I lost all 350$. Somehow I started losing buyins in NL10, I still think I played good and had just bad luck....

So I was back down to 200$ and I started to play NL25 and I dropped to like 150$ which I tilted in a few hours. I paid back 200$ because I didn't played only NL5 and NL10 and I also didn't want to lose a friend.

Since then I'm on perma life tilt. I had such a good run when Battle of the planets started. I started to play 3$ turbo 9man sngs. First 40 sng's were good and I was a on good spot to achieve #1 in High Orbit. But then somehow I won 4 sng's from 60. Pretty sick uh? I finished on 50# place or something. Another fail = another fucked 100$.... lol all in all a I threw up lot of money and that hurts because I am just a student.

That life tilt is not induced just because of poker, but last two months I am losing motivation to do everything. I'm good player of warcraft 3 in our country so I wanted to regain my life motivation in this game, so I joined a clan which play lots of leagues, have also a internal league for players and with sponsors (no salaries). And I failed because I'm still getting nervous when I play and angry when I lose etc. This thing lowering down my psychic too and I just can't get out from that shit happening to me.

I just need to regain my motivation, I feel that poker fills me and I want to work on my game and my career but I just don't have money to play now. Believe me I had swings at NL2, I couldn't win a single 90:10 hand, and I had 15 bi swings without any problem in one session....

I'm not an EMO lol I just feel like post a blog with my problems will help me somehow....dunno how... damn....

Ok I said all I wanted, Im not gonna post anything else to this blog because it's called "Never ending life tilt?" so let stick to this...

Oh ya I had my birthday celebration on Saturday. I was celebrating with my best friends including Tur0k the mighty poker balla (lol) and I would like to thank all of them, it was really funny and we had a great night.

And I can't forgot to add big Thank You to creators of legendary video LP in Copenhagen, because these taunts are just cool and we are using them with Tur0k everytime we meet.

Thanks for reading, and sorry for my bad english, I have some grammar problems and I know about them ^_^ and check this one Morandi - Angels

Zhan

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Do not mess with the best. O

Last edit: 10/06/2008 13:39

Spitfiree Bulgaria. Jun 10 2008 14:20. Posts 9634

Whats ur wc3 nick & clan ?
anyway i doubt anyway can help u with this had same problem since like april 20th till some days ago
what i did is -> i completely changed my style of play i changed the site i play on and somehow im winning now and im gaining my self confidence
so thats what i suggest speak about the way u play with someone good u know ask him to help u etc...

Zhan Czech Republic. Jun 10 2008 14:23. Posts 152

My wc3 nickname is Freak and I play for clan GhostFox, you won't recognize it because we play only czech leagues (I might said it wrong in blog). I was also working on Gosugamers and myMYM under the nickname Zhan.

Do not mess with the best. O

Last edit: 10/06/2008 14:23

maxousek Czech Republic. Jun 10 2008 16:07. Posts 464

hey Zhan yoo ma bitch