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tloapc Pitcairn. Aug 29 2008 09:37. Posts 2591

online I don't give two shits
and I very rarely take or get things personal
but I feel somewhat obligated to at least shed some light on the happenings of my prop bet and this is a blog after all so wtf..
if something of my outside life was not said, then this prop bet would never be fully understood
so here is a tiny bit of insight/update/perspective
really not going to go any more into it than this update tho

I have just come to the realization
9:51 AM
that my play
9:51 AM
has utterly deteriorated
9:52 AM
due to all the constant
9:52 AM
yelling
9:52 AM
upon yelling
9:52 AM
everyone just left the house
9:52 AM
and I played really bad, and ended up yelling
9:52 AM
and yelling
9:52 AM
my lack of focus is heavy
9:52 AM
because of all the constant
9:52 AM
....
9:52 AM
yelling
9:53 AM
I will do what I feel I have to do
9:53 AM
which is, grab a beer
9:53 AM
and knock down three
9:53 AM
to ease my mind and hopefully retain balance and focus
9:53 AM
because I just want to yell, as I have tried with words, to explain to these ppl
9:53 AM
what the fuck they are doing is just...
9:53 AM
pointless
9:53 AM
and bad
9:54 AM
for the kid
9:54 AM
sigh...
9:54 AM
I really want this prop bet, and I knew it was going to get hard when everyone came back
9:54 AM
I knew...
9:55 AM
so I will do as I said, and grab a beer, to ease my frustration
9:55 AM
since I can't lower it with just my mind, and I want this prop bet so I can not take a break
9:55 AM
as I am now behind
9:55 AM
a good bit
9:56 AM
it's all abotu focus
9:57 AM
and it's funny that I am looking to beer for focus
9:58 AM
but this house is just to intense
9:58 AM
to frustrated
9:58 AM
and I dunno how to stop it nor slow it down
9:58 AM
as I am not the man of this house, only the son
9:59 AM
I can't wait for my own place
9:59 AM
ok, beer has been gotten
9:59 AM
I am currently 5 buyins down today
9:59 AM
to actually good hands, the bad ones I did won
9:59 AM
and I had more good hands than bad
10:00 AM
here is where I stopped, and had to yell, just like the rest of the house (which they all left)
10:00 AM
PokerStars Game #19987650424: Hold'em No Limit ($0.10/$0.25) - 2008/08/29 - 10:47:56 (ET)
Table 'Reticulum II' 6-max Seat #6 is the button
Seat 1: ohly ($52.25 in chips)
Seat 2: Exuduth ($14.70 in chips)
Seat 3: viking76 ($9.45 in chips)
Seat 4: Marco1983x ($5 in chips)
Seat 5: DragonzPlay ($33.95 in chips)
Seat 6: Just_Million ($29.35 in chips)
ohly: posts small blind $0.10
Exuduth: posts big blind $0.25
Marco1983x: posts big blind $0.25
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to DragonzPlay [Ah Ad]
viking76: calls $0.25
Marco1983x: raises $0.25 to $0.50
DragonzPlay: raises $1.70 to $2.20
Just_Million: folds
ohly: folds
Exuduth: calls $1.95
viking76: calls $1.95
Marco1983x: calls $1.70
*** FLOP *** [Qh 7s 7h]
Exuduth: checks
viking76: checks
Marco1983x: bets $2.80 and is all-in
DragonzPlay has timed out
DragonzPlay: folds
DragonzPlay is sitting out
DragonzPlay has returned
Exuduth: raises $4.70 to $7.50
viking76: folds
Uncalled bet ($4.70) returned to Exuduth
*** TURN *** [Qh 7s 7h]

*** RIVER *** [Qh 7s 7h Qs]

*** SHOW DOWN ***
Exuduth: shows [Tc Ts] (two pair, Queens and Tens)
Marco1983x: shows [Jh Js] (two pair, Queens and Jacks)
Marco1983x collected $13.80 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $14.50 | Rake $0.70
Board [Qh 7s 7h Qs 9h]
Seat 1: ohly (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 2: Exuduth (big blind) showed [Tc Ts] and lost with two pair, Queens and Tens
Seat 3: viking76 folded on the Flop
Seat 4: Marco1983x showed [Jh Js] and won ($13.80) with two pair, Queens and Jacks
Seat 5: DragonzPlay folded on the Flop
Seat 6: Just_Million (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
10:01 AM
I missed it by half a second

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I made this prop bet mainly for the challenge.
As I told gawdawaful before the bet started, the real challenge starts when everyone comes back
I played the most amount of hands I've ever played at once - at least I call it at once
I played about 5 thousand hands, and then I took a nap for about an hour and was woken up to the chaos here so decided to go back at it for another 12 thousand hands
you can see what lack of focus or the wrong attitude/outlook can do to your game
granted there was shitloads of coolers, a list so long it really makes me shake my head
but things happen for a reason

short interview with myself

have I given up?
hell no
do I think I can still do this prop bet?
yes
am I blaming anything other than myself if I don't make it?
no, not one bit

so that being said it's time to go back at it
tc and gl all

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The probability of someone watching you is proportional to the stupidity of your action.

vegable United States. Aug 29 2008 12:46. Posts 2453

you must become the change you wish to see in the world

-mahatma ghandi

leaving the house will do nothing to solve the communication problems within your family. lead by example, by not playing into their game of stress and anger. you don't NEED alcohol as a crutch/escape, man the fuck up.

Stir fry Normandy

tloapc Pitcairn. Aug 29 2008 14:09. Posts 2591

sigh...I knew things would get taken out of context

I used alcohol to relax to play my game, not to get over family problems
lead by example, I am a fucking great example but you think this does real well to a kid that I rarely see and in two weeks he wont be seeing much at all?
communication problems are a two way street, u think I haven't tried to establish communication with what I figure to be the source of the problem?
if someone decides not to hear you, or even better they DO HEAR YOU AND AGREE but yet they can't control themselves, what would you suggest I do then? have them committed for being a frustrated incapable animal?

I know it's my fault your not fully informed of whats going on so I will just politely say that ghandi's advice does not do any good in this situation
but thanks

The probability of someone watching you is proportional to the stupidity of your action.

Last edit: 29/08/2008 14:25

tloapc Pitcairn. Aug 29 2008 14:23. Posts 2591

the first downhill slope was all me before my break
once I made it back, it was deemed a good time for me to get whacked
Its still not over tho
not by a longshot
next 3 days will tell which way this goes (including today)

The probability of someone watching you is proportional to the stupidity of your action.

antman1437 United States. Aug 29 2008 20:35. Posts 14

Man if u need to take a 1 day break just to clear up go for it. You've crushed the 25nl games huge many days already. So maybe the time and clarity would help. Tomorrow's saturday and its one of the best days to play. I just hope you can calm yourself and relax. Either way, hope you make your goal.