FUCK MY LIFE !!!!

That was the first one, should have been an easy + buy-in for a great start to the session but no... ok, no biggie, sucks but I can grind it back, just relax and grind on.

Yay, another overpair agianst somebody playing 44/3 over almost 50 hands, pay-off time !!!

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Fucking awesome... by now I was pretty annoyed because I wasn't even sessioning for half an hour yet, pretty much reminded me off all the sessions in the last 2 weeks.

Next one was against 54/23 over 30 hands... I guess I misplayed probably because I was already freaking aggravated and my spirit sank to my shoes and I guessed he just got there already on the turn and was like, please cheap boat 1-time to make some of this fucking retarded bullshit up already !!!

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Fuck, fuck, FFFUUUCCCKKKK !!!!!

Then I also this ridiculous hand against some nit...

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FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All the other boards I had KK on lately had flopped an A and I got c/r'd or donkbet pretty big on and had to fold pretty much and I generally just hate my life right. I think I'll be back at 50NL around 2012, at least, if online poker isn't fucking banned by this. Well, one thing to comfort me, at least I made a shitload of Sklansky-bucks (or is it J-bucks nowadays ??).

My last 3k hands I've lost about 13-14 buy-ins on 25NL and I'm still counting. My winrate dropped from a solid 5 ptbb/100 over 32k hands to 3.8 ptbb/100 over my last 35k hands instead.

Off those 13-14 buy-ins I've had some hands reviewed and around 2-4 buy-ins have been a mistake made by me, the other are just ridiculous variance (proven by the showdowns...)

Please give me some tips because this shit is getting unbearable and extremely depressing... The most fucking depressing thing is that I can't even play a fucking session off longer than 45 minutes or I get tilted by 3-4 ridiculous beats...

FUCK MY FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING LIFE FOR FLYING FUCK SAKE !!!!!!

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chill ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut...... for one thing. you're taking it way too hard

http://www.liquidpoker.net/poker-foru...mentality,_image,_changing_gears.html


"Ok, so the first thing you need to change is your mentality. And by surfing these forums, I can guess there are thousands of winning players who need a total mentality re-haul. You may ask, but Tien, they are winning, what’s wrong with them?

My Answer: They still complain, whine and bitch about irrelevant things. They still get angry and emotional when a doofus fish sucks them out when they are a 85% favourite. They get frustrated and cry out to people who don’t even care saying how badly they are taking it. It doesn’t make any fucking sense whatsoever to complain about getting sucked out. And if you are running bad, guess what, I DON’T FUCKING CARE.

Poker player who needs a total mentality re-haul: “OMG MY AA JUST LOST TO 44 ALLIN PREFLOP 134993024 TIMES TODAY, IM DOWN 15 BUYINS, OMG I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE”

My answer: “I don’t care”

Poker player who doesn’t need mentality re-haul, this time he is thinking to himself whenever the following happens:

Loses AA vs KK allin pre 3423432 times. “Whatever I don’t give a shit”

Loses a bunch of coinflips on monster draws. “Whatever I don’t give a shit”

Loses a whole bunch of buyins. “It’s about time these weaksauce motherfuckers win something from me”

You need to be cool and remain calm. Your reaction to winning a 200 BB pot should be the same as the reaction to losing a 200BB pot.

Next time you complain to someone. Remember that deep down what they are really thinking is “I don’t care”. Complaining serves no purpose whatsoever and should be completely and 100% erased from your character. Getting sucked out and going on downswings is the nature of the beast. It can’t happen any other way. How does complaining or whining help you improve? It doesn’t. It makes you a worse player.

You can’t win if you don’t get sucked out.

You can’t improve if you never go on downswings.

You can’t succeed if you never fail."

god i love that article. its so perfect

CAUTION: DO NOT READ (IF YOU HATE WHINING/PEOPLE ASKING FOR KINDNESS)

I know it is, read it (mainly for the times to come back into a great mentality and eventually come back into this great mindset and feel really inspired again) but I just can't get it done. I can't not care about the results especially if it gets this ridiculous. My confidence is shattered and I absolutely feel like I must be one of the worst fucking players on earth (maybe I am, don't know, would like a coach but can't afford one, profit deal anyone ?? LOLOL, especially since I don't make any money), my graph looks like a trainwreck, my winrate gets demolished like it's absolutely retarded...

I might even drop poker for a month or whatever (after I come back in 3 days from today and get his by the same fucking variance train ofcourse) and then come back to hence and repeat this crap until I'm busto in 2009).

Btw, I did not ask for you to read this blogpost, if you do not want to read about then don't click it, it's not like I made it look like a ''look at me running awesome'' post. I just always wanted this shit to happen, I know, I just fucking know that I can do this except for my fucking mentality especially when the runs get really bad... I've asked for help on a mentality rehaul before but I guess this forum filled with random pokerplayers/gamers is the wrong place to look for a little help (read: noble people) if you ain't got a dime to spend on it. I know, everything in this fucking world costs money and it's too much to expect some kindness.

Meh, I guess I'd have to take myself out of this community and game and find another passion...

/rant

i.....am going to spank you.


seriously

On November 23 2008 16:53 Silver)Z( wrote: god i love that article. its so perfect

second this

Meh, I even feel ashamed because of this blogpost... fuck it, I guess it's some extra postcount ??

Still, if somebody wants to help me give a big mentality rehaul, let me know because I need it... a lot !!!

hehe i can feel for u.

sometimes shit is just too ridiculous.
Its easy to say : dont whine.

But u can run insanely bad at this game.
3 month ago i smiled when i lost a set ( And i lost lots of sets ^^)
The reason was that even though i got sucked out maybe 1time every 400 hands i was winning decent. So well running bad i little sometimes is totally standart.
I also was familiar with donswings and i had them before.
Sometimes i was losing 10Bi in 5K hands when my EV was actuylla around breakeven
I could still smile since i knew there would also be times when i make this 10Bi back in no time.

Then there was this one day in a dark September night.
And i started losing massivly for no reason. I kept cool for 1 week and burned like 2K ( 20buy ins at that time) I was like : Well , sucks but it will turn around eventually
I kept on and didnt feel affected at all. I proceeded to run unreal bad and lost another 15BI or so on the next 2 weeks.
So i ve been losing straight for 3 weeks being like 20buy ins below expectation and rest was brutal setups. I was like holy shit m this is bad ! but lets just stay positive , move down to Nl50 and grind it back. IN the end it will turn around and i will win it back.
October came with a bright smile and i started my sessions being motivated to grind back and finally end my doomswitch.
wee i continued to lose ... everyday just lose , lose and lose again. I achieved an "average getting sucked out rate" of 1BI in 80 hands ....
so 2weeks into October i was down like another 20BI 8 AT Nl50 this time) And for the first time i really really started to become a whiny biatch again.
Story hasnt gotten much better since then.

I think everyone has a right to whine like a little girl ^^ when he runs insanely bad for a far too long period.

if you wanna bitch, go ahead and bitch. then pick yourself up and keep going. that's the most important bit.

i dont really think most people can keep their feelings from bad beats bottled inside completely without it coming out in some other way (spousal/pet/parental/drug/choir boy abuse).

so once you let it out, keep on truckin' if you wanna