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k2o4 United States. Dec 13 2008 19:53. Posts 4803 | | |
Slightly tilted. A week of slowly losing while playing lots of hands tends to do that. I realized today that while I have usually made about 1 mistake for every 1,500 hands I've played over the last week, they were huge mistakes and things I didn't need to do. Stupid calls with a set on a flush board when it's clear he has it and so on. They were situations where I KNEW I was beat, and all my experience has taught me to fold, but I called anyway. They were spewy tilt moments. And if I'd avoided those as I easily could have, I'd actually be up like 1 buyin since Monday. Instead I'm down about 8 since Monday.
Spew really ads up. And it is especially obvious when you're in a downswing / break even stretch. I've basically broken even or had a tiny win for every session where I didn't spew. The main reason I've lost money instead of just breaking even for the week is that I spewed.
Now if I had actually run well, the spew wouldn't have seemed so significant, cause it wasn't huge. I would be up pretty well for the week and I'd look at those spews and see that I could be up even more, but it wouldn't bug me so much. Right now the spew bugs me like crazy.
I have to be careful now. I'm starting to find myself wanting to play lots of tables. I'm feeling impatient. I'm eager for myself to "finally run good " and recoup all my loses. And with that mindset I'm not paying as much attention, not willing to fold when I know I should cause I am talking myself into believing that, even though he's nearly never bluffing here, this is the one time that he actually IS bluffing and I'm going to catch it! I can't play like that. If I let that mindset take over then this will turn into a real downswing. A painful downswing. A soul crushing downswing.
I have spent all day trying to un-tilt. Watching movies and so on. The plan got kind of ruined since I had some arguments with my GF, but that's been worked out. Now I gotta keep trying to decompress, to un-tilt, to get positive. If I can get myself into the right mindset then I am going to do more NL100 tonight. If I can't get myself thinking straight, then I'm just not going to play at all. If I have another losing session tonight then I'm going to drop to NL50 for a bit, even though I'm still very well rolled for NL100. Just gotta stop the bleeding and rebuild the confidence. I was also thinking about trying to get some money on another poker site via one of those no deposit promotions and grind up a roll from the microstakes for fun. I think if I have a bad session I might end up following through on that.
The hardest part is that it's the weekend, it's the holidays, and the fish are out. I don't want to miss all that money. I also felt so close to NL200 on Monday but now it has started slipping away. That's frustrating. But I'm acknowledging it and trying to reset my plans to take shots with a bigger BR. 2 weeks ago I was in a solid mental state where I could lose some money while taking a shot and stay totally positive. Right now I'm feeling shitty and I know if I took a shot and lost money I'd probably life tilt. So it sucks to feel like I was so close and now it's slipping away from me, but I'm reminding myself that it only slips away if I throw away my BR. As long as I keep grinding I'll get another chance at NL200. But if I tilt it all away then I'll only get to join Marshall and Neilly.
Well that's one hell of a rant. I think it helped me to write all of this out.
Oh and I gotta share this, cause it earns serious pimp points. When I made up with my GF tonight I was doing some sweet talking about how amazing she was, and then I threw in "You make me feel even better than having AA hold up vs 99 all-in preflop in a 10 buyin deep pot!" The great thing is she understood what I meant, and the awesome thing is that she didn't look at me like a freak for saying it. We just laughed.
That's some serious smooth talking yo.
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PplusAD Germany. Dec 13 2008 20:06. Posts 7180 | | |
u play too much poker ^^
that GF stuff sounds alarming 
every normal person would have said like : " U make me feel even better than winning 1000$ at Pokerz in a day " or something
GL
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| U see what i did there with A8 ? He 4 bets and there we go insta jam A8 : ---booooom -- . hahahaha ( Krantz) | |
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Edjon Netherlands. Dec 13 2008 20:16. Posts 1579 | | |
dont loose that girl ever!
play poker for fun, don't care too much about the money, that works for me at least |
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tachyonweb United States. Dec 13 2008 20:32. Posts 290 | | |
so now she knows that she's worth slightly more than $1000 to you
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fakeshaver United States. Dec 13 2008 20:53. Posts 1313 | | |
how the hell r u getting it in 10 buy ins deep vs 99? |
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k2o4 United States. Dec 13 2008 21:48. Posts 4803 | | |
| | On December 13 2008 19:53 fakeshaver wrote:
how the hell r u getting it in 10 buy ins deep vs 99? |
cause I've got an aggro image vs a total maniac donkey!
i don't fucking know, it's never happened, just saying! |
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rofl
good observations on spew spots |
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EXCELED Canada. Dec 14 2008 00:04. Posts 401 | | | |
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gogogo makeup sex ftw
obv pics |
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Silver_nz New Zealand. Dec 14 2008 00:41. Posts 5647 | | |
rofl lame line, but good thoughts on the tilt management. I keep a spewlog to try to remind myself of spots where i have clearly spewed in the past.
eg:
snap calling off 160BB pf w AQ
http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/582842
spew reasoning: AQ effective nuts!!!!!!!! God damm this fucking fish coolering me so much.
Better reasoning: yes hes loose but hes nitty on the big bets, he has never got money in bad. This all in shove indicates a decently strong hand, I don’t see him doing this with a suited ace
Spew amount: $38 given away
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