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Motiva United States. Jan 17 2009 06:56. Posts 104

Well to continue from yesterday lets just say it's time to take a small break. I logged on this evening looking forward to cleaning some fish and to turn this downswing around. First orbit my KK gets owned by AA and I go on hyper-tilt. Here we are several hours later and i'm down far more than I thought possible. I don't understand what I've changed. Sure a few bad beats and some retarded tilt have played there parts, but the only real excuse is bad play and poor BR management.

I've been a bit too agressive with my bankroll. I started with only $2 on cake and their smallest NL stake is NL4 so I started by playing that and working my way up to roughly ~50 and then I took a couple of shots at NL10, and then at ~150 I started taking shots at NL20. This was all working very well over a good 5-7k hands, and then at 300 I decided I might as well take a shot at NL50, and lets just say that was a massive mistake. After that failed shot I went back to playing NL20 on a ~200 bank roll and failed some more. Then around ~100 I started playing NL 10... ~40 @ NL4. ect all the way back down to where I started at $2. lol FML I fail at BR Management. Sure, I've come leagues in terms of understanding the game and playing at the table, but I still struggle with BR management, though I'm learning my lesson time and time again.

I understand my mistake there and I certainly resolve to continue my battle with my demons of tilt. The one thing I don't understand is WTF went wrong? How did I go from consistently beating the stakes one night with my showdown winnings up, and nonshowdown winnings going down. The next day, I wake up take a shot fail and from there on out showdown winnings go down fast as fuck while my nonshowdown winnings creep into the positive? I guess I'm trying to figure out if this is some sort of life-tilt where I'm just being too aggressive and so when there is fold equity I get it, and the when I'm beat i get stacked... tis how it's been going pretty much. If I've got the best hand everyone folds, if i've got 2nd best i get slowplayed and stacked cause Im fucking tilted? I guess if it was easy to figure out what you're doing wrong then poker wouldn't be so difficult.

In short. I'm a fool for being too aggressive with my BR and also for not taking at least a days break after being so fucking tilted. I'm gonna wait a week maybe two and then start over. Time to play some SC and Quakelive I guess =- Anyone got any good books to recommend on poker? I've read most of them, but I love to read and I'm going to have some free time now haha.

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acdawg712 United States. Jan 17 2009 07:04. Posts 2639

there is a lot variance in poker and this causes the swings, which is why u should have at least 20 buy ins for a level.

phil hellmuth is genuinely a stupid person and he does not understand poker very well at all - [vital]myth

Motiva United States. Jan 17 2009 07:16. Posts 104

On January 17 2009 06:04 acdawg712 wrote:
there is a lot variance in poker and this causes the swings, which is why u should have at least 20 buy ins for a level.

Yea I'm a worthless degen. I need to find a way to see the light.

Motiva United States. Jan 17 2009 09:02. Posts 104

Meh. Looking at my stats and ect. It's not too bad I guess. Started with $2 and generated $105 in rake and then lost my way and tilted off the roll I had created. So I guess It was still a + EV experience because of rakeback.

I'm coming a long, I used to just play w/ half or more of my roll on the table and redeposit when i busted. Then it was 5 buy ins and this time 10. lol. I suppose I haven't gotten to know this animal called variance well enough yet. I wasn't expecting such black and white swings. Normally it's oops variance fucked a few buy ins here, but gave em back there. This was much more black and white. You can't lose then you can't win. Period. So I've resolved it was solid play then bad play on top of variance. Ah well... Jan marked my 7th month playing poker. I guess I'm just getting too eager to move up and sick of playing NL5 lol. So Life tilted atm.

rockman255 Canada. Jan 17 2009 13:35. Posts 4471

you played a pot worth over 50% of your bankroll according to the graph? @@

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