CrownRoyal United States. Apr 07 2009 21:53. Posts 11385
Ok. There is something wrong with me. I have an unreal focus the past week, it's indescribable. I have been playing the longest sessions of poker in my life and sleeping a maximum of 2 hours a day. During my waking hours I am playing poker almost the entire day long (40k hands already this month playing not that many tables). This is obviously amazing because its exactly what I need to do cause im not really comforable playing for a living @ nl100. I have a br i dont think i could ever bust @ nl100 but I still feel sketchy about having 5k and expecting to make a living off of it when i have nothing saved up in the bank.
The problem lies in why the fuck am i not sleeping??? It can't be healthy to only sleep 1-2 hours a day and I want to sleep. I TRY to sleep but I fail. I decided to chase the gold card 500 rake race type thing on cake and am currently in the top 10. I played poker for 14 hours straight. I tried to lay down and sleep because i felt mentally and physically exhausted but I just laid there unable to sleep at all. My solution??? play more hands sigh.
In the spirit of realizing fayth is right and I should quit trying to live like a baller for 6months and just save my money and really be able to ball I havent drank a drop of alcohol in the past week. I really hope that this doesnt have something to do with it. I really really hope that my sleep isnt dependent on drinking that would be awful. I guess this is a blessing in some way but it could turn into the worst thing that ever happened to me if my life is fucked up for a period of time longer than I want it to be. I used to play 10-15k hands a month MAXIMUM and lose focus constantly and was literally the biggest failure of a grinder ever. Now I'm playing 15k hands in a session np.
<3 life right now but i hope stuff gets rearranged soon.
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