Well I can relate to you, I'm also a gifted and driven when I choose to be individual. And I'm also extremely lazy when I lack drive.
Where I differ from you is that I don't seem to have such a hunger for money and material wealth/ "world conquering" that you do. I'm not saying that this is wrong: many people of lesser ability often tell me that I "deserve" to be a doctor and become rich etc.
But honestly it doesn't matter to me, all that matters is I can live happily. Don't let your life be controlled by the whims of what others would do if they had your abilities. Your abilities are yours alone to decide how to use, use them for your own happiness, not what other people would want to use them for.
What's happiness to me? I think I would like to live isolated and have a small family, maybe on a farm and just grow my own food. It doesn't sound very ambitious or glorious, but honestly a lot of innate human desire to be "grand" just comes from a drive to fill a void in our egos to prove we are better than others. I care less and less about that each day; I view most people as idiotic, contradictory, hollow and pathetic. Call me arrogant, it's true, but it's how I see things. And yes I see hypocrisy and patheticness within myself too but I work to eliminate it each day.
collegesucks United States. Apr 23 2009 06:33. Posts 5780
when shit hits the fan, when circumstances dictate that you should be a broken, whimpering shell of a man, can you pull through and show us something else? because that's when you realize what you're really made of. i've gone through a process of growing up a bit lately and i realized that any idea i held concerning my own giftedness was just pure bullshit. if your own ideas about giftedness ever lead you think that you deserve anything, you'll need to wake the fuck up. i really hope you actually go ahead and put in those thousands and thousands of hands. because dedication and effort are just as important as talent, if not more.
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qwerty67890 New Zealand. Apr 23 2009 06:40. Posts 14026
On April 23 2009 05:26 gororokgororok wrote:
wow im so happy you are special crownroyal, i'm very happy with my membership of LP because i can read your msgs.
i dont really know you but every msg i see from you is tilting me lately. anyways gl on the grind.
just a suggestion; dont open his BLOG
If this was a forum thread maybe I could understand but jesus christ this is probably the dumbest thing ive ever seen someone write in response to someones blog.
Was always famous in schools(elementary/high-school), scoring very high on all tests. The last one I really tried for was a school physics competition in 1st year of high school to represent our school.
I scored 100%, first time that happened in like the last 15 years in the history of school (perhaps even more, but there was a different teacher before that).
Later I degenerated into a college dropout.
But anyway, I think there are more of ppl like us than you think.
If you are top 0.1%, there are still 1000 ppl like you in 1 million.
I learned that, identifying with your story and thinking you're special only leaves you trapped in history and 'telling yourself stories'.
It's good to hear you found a drive.
BTW. that song susan boyle sang, it really speaks to me. here's the original:
On April 23 2009 05:10 PokerDoc88 wrote:
Well I can relate to you, I'm also a gifted and driven when I choose to be individual. And I'm also extremely lazy when I lack drive.
Where I differ from you is that I don't seem to have such a hunger for money and material wealth/ "world conquering" that you do. I'm not saying that this is wrong: many people of lesser ability often tell me that I "deserve" to be a doctor and become rich etc.
But honestly it doesn't matter to me, all that matters is I can live happily. Don't let your life be controlled by the whims of what others would do if they had your abilities. Your abilities are yours alone to decide how to use, use them for your own happiness, not what other people would want to use them for.
What's happiness to me? I think I would like to live isolated and have a small family, maybe on a farm and just grow my own food. It doesn't sound very ambitious or glorious, but honestly a lot of innate human desire to be "grand" just comes from a drive to fill a void in our egos to prove we are better than others. I care less and less about that each day; I view most people as idiotic, contradictory, hollow and pathetic. Call me arrogant, it's true, but it's how I see things. And yes I see hypocrisy and patheticness within myself too but I work to eliminate it each day.
I think I agree with you on every single word you wrote.
and fuck education. i went university 3 times and dropped out every time after a couple of weeks. i worked a professional wage job as a games designer and trust me its nothing special.
u have the best quality of life where u choose ur own hours, arent dependent on idiots and have to work with them, ur own boss and live wherever u want! u have it so so good
If you wish to make an apple pie from scratch, you must first invent the universe.
Genginho: lose today 100 dollar only because of fishs they called and had luck on river
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Sicks Macks United States. Apr 23 2009 08:21. Posts 3929
On April 23 2009 04:46 CrownRoyal wrote:
She asked me if i was going to go back to school and i told her no because anything i want to major in is a worthless degree. Philosophy, physics, psychology. That's a lot of a p's. None of those degrees get you anywhere in life near what my ambitions are. In my heart I'm still the kid who wants everything but im about as far as i could be from that.
Hey I don't know you, and if poker is definitely your thing best of luck. But I find that a lot of people make the mistake of equating the useless knowledge that you have to demonstrate to get a college degree with the degree itself being useless. There's a discipline to getting a good degree from a good school, and people do it not because they're desperate for Political Science knowledge or whatever, but because people pay people a lot more money and trust them with a lot more responsibility when they have a college degree. If you're worried about limiting your potential, I would immediately go to the best school you can get in to.
On April 23 2009 04:46 CrownRoyal wrote:
She asked me if i was going to go back to school and i told her no because anything i want to major in is a worthless degree. Philosophy, physics, psychology. That's a lot of a p's. None of those degrees get you anywhere in life near what my ambitions are. In my heart I'm still the kid who wants everything but im about as far as i could be from that.
Hey I don't know you, and if poker is definitely your thing best of luck. But I find that a lot of people make the mistake of equating the useless knowledge that you have to demonstrate to get a college degree with the degree itself being useless. There's a discipline to getting a good degree from a good school, and people do it not because they're desperate for Political Science knowledge or whatever, but because people pay people a lot more money and trust them with a lot more responsibility when they have a college degree. If you're worried about limiting your potential, I would immediately go to the best school you can get in to.
And i dont understand why you wouldnt put all this motivation into school/work instead of this game, you re still young and you have a lot of ambition, if you think poker will give you as much success as a solid education youre completly wrong imo. I wont make a long tirade about poker vs std jobs but if you really have the right attitude and work your ass off, youll probably have a nice situation @ your 35-40 and a valuable experience/skills set that s actually worth a lot of 1st places in the sunday million. And if you re as smart as you say it shouldnt be a problem for you to accomplish a brilliant career.
exalted United States. Apr 23 2009 10:31. Posts 2918
you have narcissistic personality disorder man. it has nothing to really do with being "narcissistic", just wiki it up.
i know cuz i have it.
exalted from teamliquid :o
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TheReason United States. Apr 23 2009 11:30. Posts 178
On April 23 2009 04:46 CrownRoyal wrote:
I literally scored in the top 99% of any fucking test I EVER took from the age of 5 to 12.
no offense, but this is pretty much useless. fwiw i did this too, as well as scoring in the top 0.03% on a standardized iq test. there's people like this who can't beat 25nl even after putting in considerable effort.
i'm not saying you're one of them, obviously you can beat at least 100nl and i wish you good luck, i'm just saying you shouldn't over-emphasize the correlation of doing well on broad aptitude tests with poker success.
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