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ToT)MidiaN(  United Kingdom. May 24 2009 12:33. Posts 5070 | | |
I can't stop. I posted in my last blog that I had finally quit playing 50c/$1 and moved back to my regular games, and then 2 days later I was back at those tables trying to push my winrate on pokertableratings.com a little higher, god I hate that site. I ended up losing 12 buyins and running a good 24 buyins below expectation over about 8k hands and now my winrate there is back to breakeven. However, I have found an escape! I have withdrew all of my money from PokerStars and will be moving to a smaller site, this is something I did when my confidence was running low and I was running bad around about a couple of years ago, and I'm gonna be moving back to that same site - Prima, I hope I can access that site from South Korea or my options are gonna be really limited when I move back there on June 7th.
Right now my confidence is extremely extremely low, and it's not because I don't believe that my A game is still good, just that I have wasted many many hours, about a month of time and 50k hands playing 50c/$1 just to make my stats pretty on some stupid website when I shouldn't even care, and even worse - failing at even achieving that. Looking back over those 50k hands I can say that I played awful, I don't think I played my A game for longer than a stretch of a couple of thousand hands, and was often times tilted from the moment I sat down at the table. Many small things tilted me even further at the table, when I saw people raise my 3bb button open to 13bb from the blinds with 100bb stacks that tilted me, when people would slowplay on like the worst boards ever to slowplay like 77 on 678hh I got tilted, when people would check back top pair on dry boards I got tilted even if I ended up winning the pot, when people flat called 4bets with aces I got tilted. I saw a lot of things that I deem to be either bad in a vacuum and/or game theory wise, people at these limits don't care at all about balance whatsoever and play in a very exploitable manner, and I'm really pissed off that I didn't exploit them anywhere near as much as I should've. I played against a few low stakes LP regs and I'm sure they are wondering how I won at $5/$10 for 5+ptbb/100 over 100k hands and 7ptbb/100 over 30k hands at $10/$20 last year, and frankly, I'm beginning to wonder to, maybe I just ran like jesus. I mean sure I struggle to take 50c/$1 seriously when I play there, I get tilted easily even though the money means nothing, but even so I should be able to DESTROY those limits and I just ended up getting beaten by unbalanced exploitable regs that make senseless plays and don't seem to understand hand ranges at all, and even worse, often times losing money to the vast amount of complete retards (a la 80/10 types) there.
This new start is going to be good for me I think, I will jump straight into $3/$6 games and there are no tracking sites that I'm aware of that tracks Prima hands so I can have the anonymity I would like. I tried to get my ID changed at PokerStars cause I really don't like people knowing who I am at the table (Not that I'm famous or anything, but I just prefer to be unknown), but it's not allowed so I'm definitely happy to be able to get a new screenname and play where nobody knows who I am. Despite wasting so much time, energy and running below expectation I've still made $8k profit in the last month and a half since restarting poker and I know that I can still play a good game when I'm on focus, in a good frame of mind and caring, I just hope that I can regain that frame of mind and my confidence when I move sites.
I don't have any screenshots of stats etc, I deleted my database from PokerTracker since I don't intend to play on Stars for a while and there is no other reason to keep the hands in the database, but if you want a laugh you can look up my stats on that gay site PokerTableRatings.com. Look at me! I can't even beat 50c/$1...!
I feel like my last few blog posts have mainly been about those OCD tendency and my overcaring about my statistics looking pretty, but hopefully this is the end of it and I can get back down to buisness, I'm looking forward to it because I'm actually quite motivated to play a lot of poker lately and am starting to enjoy the game more than I have in the last 6 months or so.
/whine. Peace!
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PoorUser United States. May 24 2009 12:40. Posts 7471 | | |
dont really care what you do as long as you dont start playing 5/10 on stars again |
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Svenman87 United States. May 24 2009 12:41. Posts 4636 | | |
I'd be lying if I said I never did this as well...
Goodluck sir ^_^ |
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qwerty67890 New Zealand. May 24 2009 12:49. Posts 14026 | | |
prima bout to get pimp slapped |
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SfydjkLm Belarus. May 24 2009 12:50. Posts 3810 | | |
good luck on the small sites mate |
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bane United States. May 24 2009 13:01. Posts 2379 | | |
once i was playing nl50 hu and you sat with me. i dont think i have ever sat out faster |
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Baalim Mexico. May 24 2009 13:30. Posts 34262 | | |
| | On May 24 2009 11:40 PoorUser wrote:
dont really care what you do as long as you dont start playing 5/10 on stars again |
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Yea well, I feel you man. Not that I'm that anal about how my stats look, but I know the feeling. It's so annoying. |
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morph1 Sierra Leone. May 24 2009 13:37. Posts 2352 | | |
"I'm beginning to wonder to, maybe I just ran like jesus."
no you didnt .. you are a great player ..you are just having a hard timeand i am sure you'll be back in notime
do you think that maybe ur style is not so good for lower stakes and that it maybe needs some adjustment ?  |
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ToT)MidiaN( United Kingdom. May 24 2009 13:50. Posts 5070 | | |
Don't think it's my "style" per se, it's not like I play a particular way vs everyone no matter stack sizes, player tendencies etc. I was just playing awfully postflop, carelessly shipping in stacks with nothing, value betting too thin vs the wrong opponents who never call worse or whatever, hard to focus/care when the money is little and you're tilted to start with. |
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k2o4 United States. May 24 2009 13:54. Posts 4803 | | |
rofl jamie, you crack me up =)
get over the OCD and just go back to A game all the time. Who gives a shit about stats. Don't let that shit get to you! I think I have losing lifetime results @ NL2 - NL5 right now cause I do a lot of drunken spew fests there. But I'm not gonna go back and waste time on it! |
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lol you are a loser on nl 2 nl 5?!
better fix that yo!
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sniderstyle United States. May 24 2009 16:22. Posts 2046 | | |
youre still my hero but youre prety insecure or halfways crazy, maybe abit of both
gl on prima |
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Uptown . May 27 2009 08:17. Posts 3557 | | |
you should become OCD about your Body!
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env0y_nl Netherlands. Jun 25 2009 06:34. Posts 244 | | |
i think your were pretty good in bw... |
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