vivid black and white

i understand the feeling, i talked to a friend about it and i called it "hyper-awareness" [of the fact that i'm alive]

are/were you religious?

agnostic for basically my whole life

but is that feeling somewhat accurate?

like you really feel extremely aware of the fact that you are alive? or conscious?

no, there are two ways to think, either by you yourself doing it or autopilot.

being conscious is being able to get out of autopilot

the problems are not the answer, the answer is pretty easy and transparent, the hard part comes in interpreting this answer.

Even though you know what you want, and have a general idea of how to get it.You hold yourself back, by over thinking thing's, and stop yourself from starting before you even begin?

You have to build muscle memory. So that your actions point you towards your goals, before you begin to think. And it's not so much impulsive, very small changes can have massive impacts overtime.


"I've been wallowing in my own chaotic insecure delusions"

Maybe this will help.

Hit me up if you end up dling it, was a pretty interesting listen.

ignorance is not bliss