I wonder however, if it's even possible for someone not somewhat "deep in the game" to even understand it in writing let alone on a personal/real level. I think the hardest part of the job is the way it effects your outside relationships, and unfortunately this is also possibly the hardest and (deservedly) unreasonable aspects to discuss with anyone not with you in the poker world. If you choose to be self-employed you choose to live a lonely life style. I'm surprised when I listen to rappers like Chamillionaire and Kid Cudi constantly talking about how lonely they are and how they can't trust and relate to normal people.
Good examples are in these songs:
Cham - Lonely at the top:
Cham - Life goes on:
Kid Cudi - Save my soul:
I obviously can't make blog posts without including rap songs. However, some of the similarities in these artists feelings in regard to poker are interesting nevertheless. It's also worth pointing out that cham/cudi obviously have way more money and are in the public eye way more than any of us including durr, and so their motivations/feelings are likely even harder to deal with than ours by quite a bit, but regardless, are somewhat congruent with a poker players' even at lowish stakes.
All this being said, I think that if you choose to play poker, or go it alone, you should do so being aware of how it will effect you. I think I was well prepared for this and it shows in my short lived results.
I was motivated to write this because I was recently at my universities homecoming and sort of blew up on a guy I used to live with who was attempting to congratulate me for a quick television appearance at this years WSOP. He had frequently clowned on me for being a poker nerd while we were in school, and I took this in an insulting way. I'm fairly confident that despite my own personal feelings I was in the wrong to lose my cool as dealing with things like this are part of what I chose in taking this path in life.
If you want to move forward you need to leave some things behind.
Anyone think I'm off point here? Not sure how others perceive these things.
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On September 08 2008 10:07 Baal wrote: my head is a gyroscope, your argument is invalid
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terrybunny19240 United States. Oct 17 2009 21:36. Posts 13829
I hear yah for sure.. Can't think of anything to add atm. ^^
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handbanana21 United States. Oct 17 2009 21:39. Posts 3037
i dont use facebook, myspace or any of that stuff, because i hated most of the airheads that i went to school with, and now that i have alot of money, i really dont trust anyone anymore, other than my fam and extremely close friends. 100% agree with u, Still trying to find a balance on enjoying going out and things like that, but even when i have alotted "free time" when i have a bad poker day, it completely ruins my will to do anything other then mope, and sit around the house all day.
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terrybunny19240 United States. Oct 17 2009 21:54. Posts 13829
oh yah
this was something that was pretty cool during WSOP, you've got poker friends around all the time. Don't have to talk about poker 24/7 or anything (I don't like to and I know a lot of people who hate talking about it all the time), but you can still bring up how your day was or who you played vs recently or whatever without feeling like an asshole. You also don't need to deal with people not pulling their own weight $ wise 'n such.
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Gadget United States. Oct 17 2009 22:30. Posts 295
kid cudi and durrrr's bankroll may be closer than you think. kid cudi just got big meaning he is making peanuts right now.
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milkman United States. Oct 17 2009 22:57. Posts 5719
yea i only like being a poker player when im with other poker players, either living with them or just around um alot. But normally when im with other pokerplayers its for a short period of time and i dont end up grinding because i just wanna have fun all the time.
The mixture of that feeling ^^, realizing how lazy and unmotivated i am and hating having such a unstable future has me going back to school. Im going into real estate and ill b playing poker on the side.. i still have some goals that i havent been able to reach because of cashouts and stuff, so hopefully i can keep my roll in one piece have some success with poker again.
Its hard to make a easy buck legally, its impossible to make a easy buck morally.
On October 17 2009 23:55 SfydjkLm wrote:
just a bunch o whiny babies.
But i can't blame you for that, its basic human nature.
The grass is always greener.
qft
And what does self awareness have to do with anything you retard? srsly stfu. - baal
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Bigbobm United States. Oct 18 2009 03:29. Posts 5512
Are you still/were you ever good friends with the people you live with back in boston?
Granted I don't make nearly as much as you/mez/aj, but I've found that those sort of people are the best non poker friends to have.
Its time to stop thinking like a bitch and think smart like a poker player - ket
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YoMeR United States. Oct 18 2009 05:38. Posts 12438
wtf nig you blew up at someone? i'd love to see that shit for sure.
next time i'ma get you high as shit then have a random come talk maddd shit to you
eZ Life.
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bigredhoss Cook Islands. Oct 27 2009 01:38. Posts 8649
i can't really relate tbh, maybe it's because i haven't had the level of dedication or success as you, i dunno, but i have some trouble "getting" what you're saying.
like with the guy at your homecoming, when he used to make fun of you...how can you do anything but laugh and think of how much more money you have than him? i mean, i've been a tilt monkey at the tables at times, but i literally can't imagine being in a state of mind where something like this would ever bother me =
maybe it's because i live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere (not the cook islands btw ) but most of the people who know me have at least a clue that i play poker, but the only time i've ever heard of any kind of stigma being attatched to poker players is from people making online forum or blog posts about it. i guess this is a little off your point, but kinda related.
i don't really understand how it would effect outside relationships either...i guess you'll have a few more flaky friends who don't really like you for the right reasons. but i don't see how it's a big deal?
dunno..not trying to criticize, just my 2c. i can be a little dense fwiw~
edit - havent read doomer/mez blog posts yet but i will
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) but most of the people who know me have at least a clue that i play poker, but the only time i've ever heard of any kind of stigma being attatched to poker players is from people making online forum or blog posts about it. i guess this is a little off your point, but kinda related.
