Yes is a debilitating existance

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toby71au Australia. Feb 25 2010 08:03. Posts 160

My entire life has been an answer of YES. Yes I want kids, Yes I want to get married, Yes I want a promotion, Yes I want to be a slave to debt, Yes I understand you are unhappy, Yes I want you to take the kids away from me, Yes I want to give you half of my existence for the next ten years.

Now I have the freedom to say NO.

No I am not happy. No I will not give you more. No I don't care that you aren't happy.

Why is having so much freedom so hard to take? Why do I miss the things I hated the most? Why do we always have to hit the bottom of the curve before it gets better?

This is not an emo slit wrists type thread just an expression of random thoughts and strong emotions.

Enjoy my pain.

Longple thanks for the tough advice and reach out the other day. Appreciated.

Peace X

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when you reach the end of your rope tie a knot and hang on!

iop Sweden. Feb 25 2010 08:14. Posts 4951

got kids + wife?

Milkman lol i didnt spend half a thousand on a phone so i could play it cool and be all stealth

dnagardi Hungary. Feb 25 2010 08:42. Posts 1777

peace

toby71au Australia. Feb 25 2010 08:55. Posts 160

Got kids, had wife. Happiness doesn't come without lots of effort and both she and I were tired of trying.

when you reach the end of your rope tie a knot and hang on!

terrybunny19240 United States. Feb 25 2010 09:25. Posts 13829

its rough when that sort of thing doesn't work out, but there's still plenty of life to live and the kids will always be there for you if you are there for them.

Mariuslol Norway. Feb 25 2010 10:08. Posts 4742

Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness,
bitterness, and all forms of non-forgiveness are caused by too much past, and not
enough presence.

Whenever you feel your brain is thinking of the past, drag yourself to here and now, because suffering can't work right here, right now, only in your mind, if you're in the past, or in the future.

Ask yourself: Is there joy, ease, and lightness in what I
am doing? If there isn't, then time is covering up the present moment, and life is
perceived as a burden or a struggle.

Peace <3

KeanuReaver United States. Feb 25 2010 11:40. Posts 2022

i kinda don't wanna ever get married
hrm

and the endurance required for MMA, which has actions like punching and kicking bone and muscle with 1000-2500 PSI. - Taco

samillionaire Italy. Feb 25 2010 13:34. Posts 441

peace

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