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Perisie . Jul 10 2010 18:28. Posts 801 | | |
age 15: i fell in love and altho the girl liked me a year ago sshe decided to hate me from now and then on. i died inside, from an A+++ student to a complete nihilnist. my gcses were 11 a-b, my alevels were bcd.
age 17: 6th form in my private school. people called me a zombie. i racked up 200 days on an online text based game. my report cards said "jonathan is dishevelled and degenerate". i left my IT project till the last night and got a C. i got a D in one IT exam then retook it with zero revision and got an A. it was all about how you interpreted the question. bullshit.
age 18: i went to uni. first day of uni i met a guy called dave. an hour later i done weed for the first time. i didnt stop. a few days later i discovered family guy and south park. the first year of uni was the most mindless fun ive had in my life. i hooked up with a random 15 year old and a random 14 year old. alcohol was awesome and so was i,
age 19: i spent several thousand on weed.
age 20: i approached my university tutor and claimed i was addicted to online poker. in the meantime i was making 200/day on hollywood poker, abusing their bonus system because they had no proper system in place yet. i played 5max and heads up and smoked weed and made 200 dollars a day.
age 21: i went to argentina with erik. i met erik on liquidpoker, he was another nub poker player and we decided to move to argentina together. we booked the most expensive apartment possible , it had a chandelier.
age 21.5: my laptop got sent over to argentina but i never bothered to pick it up. instead i was drunk 24/7. i went out every night, got attacked many times, got scammed many times. spanish people are fucking assholes. one time i tried to score weed and got hit in the face. one time i tried to score weed and eneded up running from the policea. one time i just got hit in the face for no reason. one time i was just walking along and if the police didnt show up i would have been dead in the gutter.
age 22: erik and brendan fucked off back to europe. i spent 2 months in a hostel , drunk as fuck every day. i turned into kenneth williams. i was kenneth williams.
age 22: i was kenneth williams. everyone loved me. no joke.
age 23: i returned to england, got kicked out of my moms and lived with my grandmother. my grandmother is awesome but also sucks. imagine living with your grandmother. its hell.
age 23: i got a job in a nursing home. my coworkers were middle aged women. my job was to clean shit and vomit off of people, and to emotionally support 80 year olds who whine like you cant believe. working in a nursing home is literally the worst job in the world.
age 24: still working in a nursing home. short of staff every other day, which means 30% extra work in an already terribly demanding job for minimum wage (5.90/hr).
age 25: i re-applied to university. i spammed a few unis within the last days of application, and got into stoke uni to do biomedical science.
25.2: going to the gym every 2-3 days, whilst keeping an awesome record of my workout training regieme and eating/cooking 4 times a day
25.6: depressed becauses i miss the girl im in love with (for the last 2 years, left out of previous reports). stopped going to the gym. stopped going to uni. stopped playing online games. stopped caring about my existance. stopped taking my anti-psychotic drugs. stopped taking my anti-depressant drugs.
25.8: missed most of my uni exams. gave in a coursework 1 day late but they didnt accept my late submission request. moved to blackpool to live with an internet friend. got a job in telesales. quit my job in telesales. got a job as a receptionist in a posh hotel.
25.9: university has banned me from going back unless i contact them about payments. got offered 5k by student loans to go back next year. will phone on monday to negotiate going back to uni since i have 5k offer.
option 1: continue in blackpool with various part time jobs and 10nl and starting a new life living with internet friend. maybe get kicked out and have to go back live with my mom.
option 2: try to get back to uni doing biomedical science (max salary is 21k but its an honerable subject). will request to retake the first year but since i have 5k loan affirmed (even after failing 3 yrs of uni ages ago). problem is i fail at living my myself, i just drown in depression.
thats me, pleased to meet you.
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idk man you gotta get to the root of the problem with your depression and such, and from there IMO
gl with your immediate choices |
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K40Cheddar United States. Jul 10 2010 18:46. Posts 2202 | | |
cool story bro. But your life sucks. Go get it fixed. |
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Perisie . Jul 10 2010 18:52. Posts 801 | | |
i literally cant smile unless im drunk and wathing some funny movie.
most people can put on a smile spontaeniously
i literally cant smile and for the first time in my life the other week i started thinking about suicide in a nihilistic fashion.
im not a retard and as far from emo as you can possibly be and NEVER even came near to thinking about suicide before but the other week it actually felt like a rational thing to think about. im okay again now but honestly that was the first time ive ever felt like that |
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Perisie . Jul 10 2010 18:55. Posts 801 | | |
age 17 two 14 year old girls started making fun of me by chanting and joking "u cant smile"
age 16-17 a classmate (not a friend but a classmate in a class of 50) said to me "god you're so fucking ugly"
age 17 a 13 year old girl said to me "how do you feel about being more ugly than your little brother"
.........ugly people suck........... |
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LemOn[5thF] Czech Republic. Jul 10 2010 18:58. Posts 15163 | | |
Find a GF and live with her and problem solved.
I have similar self destructive tendencies, but she is always there to give me a reality check and purpose in life. |
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LemOn[5thF] Czech Republic. Jul 10 2010 18:59. Posts 15163 | | |
Seems like bitches are the reason why you were fucked up anyway - gl resolving the problem, try Asian students, I give A+++rating  |
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Perisie . Jul 10 2010 19:01. Posts 801 | | |
u know i dont care about any of that because im fucking Chibi[OWNS] and people love me
and i have a massive rep in another online community too that extends over 6 years.
no matter what happens i am one of the most awesome people within 1000s
ive just gotta remember this shit when im feeling down |
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Perisie . Jul 10 2010 19:09. Posts 801 | | |
| | On July 10 2010 17:59 LemOn[5thF] wrote:
Seems like bitches are the reason why you were fucked up anyway - gl resolving the problem, try Asian students, I give A+++rating |
for a dumb 100nl player, and since i didnt say jack shit about my love life in my thread, you are really intelligent. there are two major major love situations in my life and im sure a lot of my ill feelings stem from them (as you suggested) |
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Perisie . Jul 10 2010 19:11. Posts 801 | | |
LemOn[5thF] if you want to move to Japan with me and my friend Brendan, send me a PM. |
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SfydjkLm Belarus. Jul 10 2010 22:03. Posts 3810 | | |
karma for your love of underaged girls ja. |
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