i gto fcked

the other night

what happened:

3 months ago, i was messed up, isolated, and everything was in shit. i was miserable and i expected you to realise and console me somehow.
instead you didnt realise and just went on about how you would do anything for this other guy.
i said i hadnt showered for a week and all you said was i needed to see a shrink. thanks for the tip.

then you said i was naughty for failing. what kind of thing was that to say to someone in my state?

i suddenly snapped and became really angry that i didnt seem to matter to you. after all the times ive tried to help you through problems, you didnt even think to help me this one time i needed you.


i blocked you on skype and msn and my phone died not long after. i thought if you really wanted to get in touch then you'd just email me, but you didn't.


so i held onto this, all this time, and when you finally text me all my bottled emotions came back out. i lashed out like a child and feel horrible and totally ashamed of myself.

but was i right to be angry? was i right to expect something from you? or am i just crazy?

i've cooled down a lot after realising what a dick i was to you the other day. i dont even know what i want anymore. im so confused and dont know what to do or how to feel.




i feel totally ashamed of what i said the other day. i lashed out like a child. i had all these bottled up feelings and when you suddenly text me i just exploded and lost my mind.

i hit a guy in the face, he was struggling with the bouncer so i attacked him and he was brought to the ground.

i followed the hottest girl in the club, and wooed her she loved me.

i followed her and her friends to a random place. we were at a gas station. i would have robbed it ,was there alcohol.

we continued and one of the girls went missing, i freakked out and chased after her.. it turns out she had faked gone missing and was trying to lose me somehow, maybe by showing that i had tried to rape her or some ccrazy shit. i was pissedl.

we went to their home. there were maybe 5 guys and 2 girls. one of the giirls booasted how the flat was hers and how she was in complete control no one ele listened to her or cared . we just wanted to get alog.
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after punching a guy in the face, and after thinking one of my party members had been kidnapped and raped,, i was pretty shcocked and shacken up. finally the bitcch asked me to leave directly and so i did. i walked the srstreets and came accross a polish man.

i talked to this polish man and learnt that he is a cheese maker.

he was picked up by a taxi and i continued my jjoourney. i came across some family and tole them that perhaps they were so conspicuous as to be burying a body. they denied bury a body and eventually i got a taxi home.

i eventually came home and yet i feel i could have killed a person that night and no one would have been the wiser.

have you ever been so angry that you could have killed a person?

have you ever felt that maybe it is best for someone to be dead than to live?

what?

wow, i never noticed how fucked up some guys on LP were and here i was thinking i was crazy.

hahahahahaha wow

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On August 24 2010 00:00 flounder44 wrote: featured blog imo

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LOL

what the fuck

HOLY BITCH SHIT ASS

the polish cheesemaker was the icing on the cake. Sounds like a terrible/awesome night

On August 23 2010 23:23 jeffv8x_-_16 wrote: wow, i never noticed how fucked up some guys on LP were and here i was thinking i was crazy.

im guessing this guy is chibi(owns) from tl, and i remember him being pretty weird there too.

L O L you sir, are fucked up.

wat

haha

What did the text say that made you asplode?





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