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I'm forcing myself to make this blogpost. I don't want to forget this lesson to hopefully in the future minimize it's chances of ever happening again.

Since my last entry I've primarily been playing live. That in itself is an adventure. Before I went and played live, I had cashed out to pay off all of my bills & debts. Immediately after doing so I started to have a case of the cashout blues so I decided to switch to live for a bit. Even though I'm not properly rolled for live atm, it is completely my money (yessss!!) and when you combine that with knowing 100% how juicy the live 1/2 games are plus the online cashout blues it becomes an easy risky-yet-profitable decision. As I am not up as much as I'd like to be (primarily for getting bored and being two+ steps ahead instead of one) I did have to make a few adjustments and remind myself that even online at best I don't usually win more than 60% of my sessions in the longterm. Live rocks though and I hope to eventually do that just as much if not more than online.
I'm procrastinating from the point of this blog tho. Live is not the reason for this entry

In decided to give a shot to online again, this is my first session back.



The point I'm wanting to make is this hand and after
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Submitted by : tloapc

PokerStars Game #50783908061: Holdem No Limit ($0.25/$0.50 USD) - 2010/10/08 7:54:19 MT [2010/10/08 9:54:19 ET]
Table Meissa IV 6-max Seat #6 is the button
Seat 1: runester ($54.55 in chips)
Seat 2: ~~N!CHOLAS~~ ($56.65 in chips)
Seat 3: Indra81 ($50.35 in chips)
Seat 4: Hero ($83.80 in chips)
Seat 5: istnurgeld ($104.30 in chips)
Seat 6: taroff ($59.15 in chips)
runester: posts small blind $0.25
~~N!CHOLAS~~: posts big blind $0.50

Holecards(Odds)
Dealt to Hero
Indra81: folds
Hero: raises $1 to $1.50
istnurgeld: folds
taroff: calls $1.50
runester: calls $1.25
~~N!CHOLAS~~: calls $1

Flop(Odds) (Pot : $6.00)

   
runester: checks
~~N!CHOLAS~~: checks
Hero: checks
taroff: checks

Turn(Odds) (Pot : $6.00)

   
runester: bets $3
~~N!CHOLAS~~: raises $3.50 to $6.50
Hero: raises $13.50 to $20
taroff: folds
runester: folds
~~N!CHOLAS~~: raises $19.95 to $39.95
Hero: raises $42.35 to $82.30 and is all-in
~~N!CHOLAS~~: calls $15.20 and is all-in
Uncalled bet ($27.15) returned to Hero

River (Pot : $119.30)

   

Showdown
~~N!CHOLAS~~: shows (a straight, Five to Nine)
Hero: shows (a straight, Three to Seven)
~~N!CHOLAS~~ collected $116.30 from pot

Summary
Total pot $119.30 | Rake $3
Board  
Seat 1: runester (small blind) folded on the Turn
Seat 2: ~~N!CHOLAS~~ (big blind) showed and won ($116.30) with a straight, Five to Nine
Seat 3: Indra81 folded before Flop (didnt bet)
Seat 4: Hero showed and lost with a straight, Three to Seven
Seat 5: istnurgeld folded before Flop (didnt bet)
Seat 6: taroff (button) folded on the Turn

This is the dumbest hand I have played in . . . . hell it's been so long I can't even tell you the last time. At nowhere in the hand did I even think of 89 as a possibility. I thought an 8 was possible, but I was just thinking set set draw set draw and set. I felt so incredibly st00pid after this hand that my mentality completely deteriorated. I usually let things go rather easily but after this mishap I was laughing & berating myself so much that my game immediately turned stale then completely fell apart. I told myself multiple times (outloud even) that I should just stop but I didn't as I wanted to make up for such a silly dumbass mistake. You can see just by the graph my outcome.
This session reinforced my belief in how much of this game is mental more than anything else. It's quite ironic that just a few weeks ago I was showing someone a graph where I had started out devastatingly bad and then made a comeback to completely even before calling it a session and upon showing this I had mentioned how that type of session/graph was soooo much better than it's opposite because at the finish line you have a completely reversed feeling. Truer words have never been spoken.

The moral of this post for me is primarily that I need to listen to myself; especially when I talk outloud. I am usually very good in this department if not the best but today shows that no matter who or what you think you are, anyone can sometimes fail miserably at something that's so easy and obvious to them. Maybe I could be proud I finally did stop and at least it was in the green but even now I am berating myself and that is why I'm making this post; to learn my lesson and hopefully let go

gl and tc all

random pic

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I've definitely been there before, if not a few times. This is the best thing you can do though. Just accept the fact that you fucked up, and once you know that then hopefully it will be gnawing at your brain when something like this happens in the future. To forget the past is to relive it. Gl man.

On October 08 2010 11:48 XoXthajmanXoX wrote: I've definitely been there before, if not a few times. This is the best thing you can do though. Just accept the fact that you fucked up, and once you know that then hopefully it will be gnawing at your brain when something like this happens in the future. To forget the past is to relive it. Gl man.

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i'm pretty sure i've done way dumber shit than that plenty of times. Dun sweat it tilt happens. Just learn from it and move on.

ya usually I can let alot of things go and my buffer is pretty good before I get irate

it was just the fact how oblivious I was in not even considering 89 that got me and for some reason I couldn't let it go

thxthx for the gl

asy fold after he 5 bets

ain't nuttin random bout that pic man

r u callin me a girl? =D

and thanks for the heads up MeaL