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"had a realization" - Ryan (NeillyJQ)

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lol ur bust again?

naw not bust but have under 1k

paid off a ton of debt lately (about 2.5k last month)

been working my way out of debt, no reason to get a loan and get more in

my discipline has been epicly bad since i started playing poker, its improved yet is still v weak

if i deposit then i'll be cashpoor which is just -_-;; not good

stakes are retarded, last year i made $120k in MTTs (stars/ftp) and have very little to show for it because i was staked a few times.

im happy to be starting down at the bottom right now, getting my mechanics and fearlessness back in order, i'm an mtter/snger - this is gonna be updated daily =)

end of month 50k yo =)

Screw it, just deposit $215 at a time and just keep playing until you bink a sunday.

lol ed thats probably profitable 1 tabling -_-

It won't work unless you believeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Or grind $200 until 2k and do another sunday degeneracy shot imo.

wow who woulda guessed.

yep, im honest about this shit -_-

99% of other players would lie and or never post.

but ur not honest to ur self about ur poker abilities.

i made $120k last year in MTT's wobbly, that's pretty solid comparatively to the rest of the poker community.

i was staked for atleast 30-50% of it, and was in makeup for much of the time, so didn't get shit.

Not everyone makes 500k a year wobbles...not everyone~!

OPR - NeillyAA Stars - NeillyJQ / RNeilly FTP (RNeilly shutdown after 1 session) if u don't believe my abilities.

search 2010.

we all know ur great, u don't know i just moved to vegas, back from vegas, into a new house, cashed out 5k this month, paid back over 3k in debts and a 2k risk on a sunday means nothing to me.

understanding of why i won't accept stakes ne more except single MTT's (Ftops etc) and why i don't wanna redeposit should be pretty obvious now. 1+1

sounds to me like you should live somewhere relatively cheap for a year or so and try and grind hard so you get some stability. maybe thinking about hitting vegas a few years down the line when you got some money behind you. how much have you spent on bottom line while living in and travelling to vegas?

ök ryan
if you made 120k last year


why are you play $1 tournaments now? I don't want to kick a guy who's down his entire life but wtf?

You can spin things any way you want. Why do you keep saying you made 120k in 2010 if all you did with it was pay back the 120k you borrowed in 2009?

@ Loco - lol, vn =)

@ Baal - close to bust, but not in bustoland, and grinding on 100bi+ for the purpose. I've been offered stakes and have stakers, and can get loans pretty easily. ($170 online, $700-$1k in bank)

@ edzwoo - its actually plausible, for a non tlber to do so, but going for #1 tlb is the goal for the year, which means I gotta get up to $1100 pretty quick to maintain pace. =)

@ wobbly - your a better player, you have no bad habits and im pretty sure you have a very low cost of living

@ Robinson47 - I just moved into a place thats $500 a month with an amazing roommate. Staying here one year, looking to save as much up as possible in the process, and have some fun along the way. *edited* - I spent thousands on travel alone, then add-on the cost of hotels that make you pay ridiculous amounts on the weekends, thousands there too..

@ gororokgororok - Last year was a rollercoaster for me. In january i won 20k. in february i lost 16k and had spent 4kish. i went on a stake march - july from andrewboccia. was 19k in makeup. got 5th in the mulligan got out of makeup.
went on my own end of june. won about 50-60k, but was partying like a rockstar in a dilluded state in las vegas for a few months. Eventually I took about 3 full weeks off of play, came back with some deteriorated play and lost some monies, then had nosebleed syndrome and went bust again. At this point it was august, I played on my own dime for a while, then moved from vegas to pennsylvania, had to cashout my bankroll for house bed etc, got re-staked by boccia, did that until mid november. i won around 10k under boccia, cleared makeup and got back on my own. after back on my own dime mid november, i cleaned up pretty hard rest of november. had around 10k decemberish and went to vegas on the 11th, stayed til the 11th of january. between casinos, clubs, food, drink, hotels, etc, i went through a ton of money. Won 2-3k while there, yet spent a very large sum that doesn't need to be posted yet can easily be figured out.

came back home on the 11th with not too much $, and grinded $380 up to $3k in a couple days, cashed out $2k and paid back some debts, then had to deposit 500 back onto stars, then won $3k more, cashout 2375 for feb rent / food / weed / etc.

left 2k online, ran that in mtts, took a ridiculously sick beat at the end of the TLB top 100 MTT getting in QQ vs 2 Ax hands and an underpair. I was already planning to degen the day with the 2k I had online at the time, figuring I would atleast mincash one of those mtt's and have somthing to work with if i lost. well, tilt insued and i dropped a few major mtts shortly after. then i got myself back together and ran like shit for rest of night, yet put up a good fight, after being crippled everytime the river was seen.

i had $5 online next day, decision was to be made whether i wanna be able to ski and smoke or put that money back online.

I said fuck it, I built $13 up well before, why not do it with $5.

Its retarded that I don't have a lot saved up, but mostly because I was in such a large amount of debt, and was living a lavish lifestyle that was way out of my budget. I have been working on this, and understand I'm not a rock star that can blow as much money as i used to. its mostly my spending habits that are the reason i'm in the situation i am in.

also, duely noted, i sent out about 1k in debts saturday prior to this, had cashed out $4,375 this month and paid back over $3,000 in debts this month. I don't take the 2k loss too harshly, I've lost a lot more, in a lot worse fashions. This was calculated, yet i missed. W/e, sometimes as an mtter, you get some gamble goin through your veins and take some risks.

I'd do it again last weekend, but not looking to do it again this weekend, if you know what I mean.

Its been nuts, being held down by many debts has hurt me a lot, but most of all, was spending way too much on clubs drugs n parties, giving away cars, being idiotic.

i've matured a lot in the last year, all im looking to do is make as much as i can this year all to my own name.

#21 tlb wasn't good enough last year, i really want #1 now.

I'm playing $1 mtt's, because in theory if i always play with 1% or less of my money, I will never go broke, and be less prone to being greedy, which can lead to massive tilt runs sunday nights and monday mornings as an mtter.


i hope i answered all your comments up to par,
its been a fucking sick rollercoaster, i was way to greedy and was living a lavish lifestyle that was out of my bankroll by a large margin.

i've "had a realization" a couple months ago, about the problems i have had and why i am in the shoes i am in, and am spending less now, and working hard as always.

im one of the best mtter on stars, who cares if im in micros for a week, atleast i don't affect my life this way. its not like im walking into some tough $1 games or something. can make 15-60bi per session 15-20 tabling vs those guys, and breakeven sessions at those limits are pretty rare for any solid regular..

ne ways, figured i'd answer you guys,
take care,
Ryan

It seems like you get a lot of better results when you are staked, which also gives you more discipline in how you handle things, if i were you i would just get a staking deal which good for you and just keep getting staked. just think of it as a faster way of moving up or giving yourself little to no stress about your financial stuff IRL. that way you can play whenever you want with the stakes you should be playing at.

On February 02 2011 16:46 NeillyJQ wrote: but most of all, was spending way too much on clubs drugs n parties, giving away cars, being idiotic.

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