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OpWestAcct   United States. Feb 02 2011 22:03. Posts 640 | | |
So after getting bashed on a bit by a buddy of mine via messenger I did some thinking. Before I always looked at poker as - when I was winning I was playing good and things were supposed to be that way. And then these horrid downswings of mine were just plain bad luck. I will not deny that I do believe my downswings are worse than a lot of poker player's but surely not the worst. However, I believe that the true cause of my swings are the fact that - when I am winning I have huge confidence and make more aggressive and bold plays resulting in a lot more dead money profited that I otherwise wouldn't obtain. When I am losing and on a downswing - my negativity instigates a lot of absurd action (calling down lighter because "I cannot be possibly beat this many times." I will have to work very hard as I do not understand how to clear my mind when I am losing. I'm sure many can relate with the thoughts I possess - no matter who you are - when you haven't had your AA hold vs KK in a month it wears on you. Poker is so easy when you are winning. It's when you are you losing you are seperated from the rest. I could be grinding 2/4 by now if I had all those thousands of dollars I lost because I couldn't fold my 55-JJ to a 3 bet or by not following my plan ("If he calls my double barrel on this board I cannot fire the river." Instead I am playing NL 50 again. Time to turn things around and now that I am back in school I want to set a goal to be a 2/4 reg by time I graduate (Summer 2013). I'm tired of whining and not taking the bad with the good - How the fuck can I cry when I am "unfairly losing" money I won off a game in the first place - not to mention poker paid for my first semester of school. Long read, thanks, and sorry for spamming the blogs with useless nonsense and stupidly declaring I would quit poker.
Feb so far

My first winning session since December 5th. And no, a winning day did not spark this insight - It was last night that I realized how idiotic my logic was. Thanks Nightless.
Edit: I was just given a random $200 by FTP deposited about an hour ago.... Anyone know what this could be for?
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julep   Australia. Feb 02 2011 22:06. Posts 1274 | | |
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Surprise   United States. Feb 02 2011 22:30. Posts 275 | | |
Good luck man, I hope you meet your goals. |
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Zalfor   United States. Feb 02 2011 22:34. Posts 2236 | | |
ur playing too many hands imo |
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whamm!   Albania. Feb 02 2011 22:36. Posts 11625 | | |
is nightless the child of night201 and yugless? |
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OpWestAcct   United States. Feb 02 2011 23:04. Posts 640 | | |
Ha, no. He actually posted a blog yesterday about college/GPA and whatnot. He doesn't really play poker anymore. How am I playing too many hands? I usually put in around 55k-80k a month when I am on a winning streak. |
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Helmet   Philippines. Feb 02 2011 23:32. Posts 930 | | |
"Edit: I was just given a random $200 by FTP deposited about an hour ago.... Anyone know what this could be for?"
careful... they usually want it back and more via doomswitch |
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People who are brash and not image focused, people who are the opposite of sycophantic are maybe stereotypically the most trustworthy. - Steal City | |
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NighTLesS15   United States. Feb 02 2011 23:48. Posts 241 | | |
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Frinkx: 1k on mario cart? PoorUser: Snap call | |
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the $200 u might of played vs colluders or something check your e-mail
for being in a sort of recovery mode playing 3.5k hands in a day is quite a bit, you might be playing more hands an hour than is optimal right now. i think that's what he meant |
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OpWestAcct   United States. Feb 03 2011 00:20. Posts 640 | | |
| On February 02 2011 23:01 Night2o1 wrote:
the $200 u might of played vs colluders or something check your e-mail
for being in a sort of recovery mode playing 3.5k hands in a day is quite a bit, you might be playing more hands an hour than is optimal right now. i think that's what he meant |
Collusion is what I thought ... But there is no explanation in the email. Just said $200 has been deposited from FTP and the 3.5k hands is actually today and yesterday. |
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