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mnj United States. May 06 2011 16:37. Posts 3848 | | |
vegas was fun. i've been back in florida now for about a week just collecting some thoughts.
i had a blast in vegas but it wasn't so much the poker but hanging out with friends and enjoying life. eating gal-bi/sam-gyup-sal and soju every day. watching stupid tv shows like castle and modern family. and watching some fucking awesome play off bball :D
and yea the solidarity from living/playing/going to the casinos to play poker was extremely motivating and inspirational.
but it's such a facade :/ the whole "fuck life we're doing it the ez way" mentality. like i said i def enjoyed hanging out with my friends but i think poker is a bit counter productive for us. i think it's hard for us to imagine where we enjoy work and enjoy life. we see work as such a painful grind which is why we choose poker which is def ezier compared to our roots (sons of gas station owners, convenience stores, hair salons) a lot less of a grind. but i duno, i guess i saw something and i saw some hope that i can achieve (not to sound snobby or imply that im better than my friends cause im really not) some sort of work that i can be proud of. but i'll tell you the fucking truth its a pretty damn foreign concept :/
watching the magic resonated with me as it was iconic of my own poker skills and journey. getting crushed by the pistons for half a fucking decade enjoying maybe 2-3 grace years where we had a decent shot at the finals, and now being completely surpassed by the atlanta hawks (what a great fucking coach, refusing to double team dwight howard and really exposing our 3 point shooters as lack luster at best, losing rashard lewis was more devastating than i could have ever dreamed of).
i was up about 19K and really wanted to push the 20k marker but ended up losing alot of it back. i dont think i played particularly bad but just standard rungood followed by runbad evening out to runeven. still up about 9K although it was really hard not to be bitter about it.
but w.e at this point i sorta am over the money and don't really care anymore cause it'S no longer even a possibility for me. i can't do this for a living :/ iT'S so tough on my ego and my self confidence and my self worth but w.e. u finally won. i give up.
live games are obviously a joke but i'm not gonna lie it's still scary :D
i never played higher than 5/10 but did play a 5/10/20 mandatory straddle game a few times. the fish at 1/2 are just plentiful but decrease in number dramatically as u go to nl 2/5 and 5/10. i'm not gonna lie, those tables play like 1/2 online. not to imply its unbeatable but like 1/2 (ok fine maybe more like .5/1) alot of the preflop edges don't really exist and ppl are fairly competent. but like 1/2 it'S still beatable and massive whales do come along more frequently.
tbh i'M pretty sure florida games are softer than the vegas games at this point.
-a collection of some things i learned live-
ppl play so retardedly loose preflop but i swear to god, a standard 3 betting range is so nut fucking heavy its ridiculous.
ppl love to limp/call such a wide range and it is extremely profitable to just raise 9-10 bb'S cause they will call anyway. but beware of 3 bets. 3 betting ranges are so absurdly nitty for how loose ppl play but thats where most of your edge comes. vbetting top pair over 3 streets. if u have K2 on a K97s board u should probably bet that quite big on flop/turn and possibly even bet river.
so yeh, bet big pf, flop, and turn.
ppl end up on the river with such a wide range, you can prob just shove most rivers and prob be profitable. but as i say this it always baffles me at some of the loose call downs on the river, but i still feel in general shoving alot of rivers is good poker because ppl love to call with mid pairs on the flop and turn (obviously read dependent). i prob ended up over doing this but i remember the first time i got stacks in, i had 77's on a QT7 board. i c/r the flop and bombed an 8 turn (making J9 the nuts) and shoved a flush completing 2 river (had like half pot shove left cause i bombed flop/turn). but the guy tanks and said "i have a good hand." i'm sorta sweating thinking this guy is just slow rolling me for being so aggressive (as i had a no limp policy and just raised a shit ton pre) but the more and more he tanked the more and more i put him on an AQ type hand and he finally called and showed....
the mega marginal AT. i'M pretty sure i accidentally laughed and made a "hee-haw" donkey laugh. i hate making fun of fish and don't really condone it. once again i want to stress it was accidental. i laughed out of shock and surprise cause i wasn't expecting to see AT. i mean thatS the other thing about poker. yea i mean in the beginning when were all immature its hilarious to win lots of monies from fish but i feel as u grow as a player/human being there really isn't joy out of beating fish. it'S just something u gotta do. it'S like fighting someone physically inferior or being necessarily condescending towards kids. where'S the joy in that? does it boost your ego? i mean yea there's some joy from tailoring a specific game plan but i'm talking about near mentally retarded fish.
anyway my friend came to cehck on me and i totally forgot to tip the dealer but the next hand i remembered and was going to tip but i ended up losing the hand like top 2 JT board against KJ for a fairly large pot and the dealer said "thats karma". i was on such rage tilt and couldn'T believe the dealer said that shit to me :/
i'M not gonna lie it really pissed me off and angered me but i also felt really sad to the point where i wanted to cry. i'M fairly emotionally retarded tbh but that sort of lack of respect really upsets me in general.
but yeah the whole point of that 77's hand was to just illustrate how tehy do have shit by the river alot of times and how they still might call u anyway.
i did suck out and feel kinda fishy for telling u guys the hand as it is the easiest fold of all time (not that many ppl bluff because ppl don'T fold anyway) but i had AA on the fucking button with like 6 limpers in the pot and just raised to 130 and had 2 callers. flop is 235 and it checks to me and i bet this flop like the jack ass i am. i bet something retarded to like 150 into 400 ish looking to fold to a raise. and obv i get C/r and obv i don'T fold and instead lvl myself and say my bet is so weak and looks like a cheap stab. i nearly cemented my status as a jackass by almost re raising the flop but tank clutch flatTED the raise instead. turn is a 5 and at this point once again i lvl myself and say "lol no way he can 22/33 any more, sets are too unlikely nao" but this is the stupidest logic of all time. god the shit my brain comes up with to justify calls. obv he ship the turn and i pretty much just w.e turbo call he shows 35 and i'm sorta baffled to be honest as he called out of the sb but clutch bink an A on the river anyway.
but anyway a came back from vegas and online poker is illegal. wat a facking joke. it'S so tilting that simple freedoms like being able to play poker from the convenience of my home could be seized by my own government that i pay for.
anyway i guess my poker journey is pretty much over. i m looking to get into a masters in science of finance or a similar finance/business masters and want to eventually move into ibanking. the 2 year commitment and all the exit opporutnites is really appealing to me and also the prestige/hardwork it is going to take for me to get into ibanking is something i want. i want to desperately try and don't mind failing as i've learned a little bit more in life.
i'M probably rambling at this point but something i want to let the younger ppl here know is that there are alot of roads to happiness. and alot of these roads are incomparable. and that based on your hardwork there will be good things waiting for you no matter what you choose in life. it is paralyzing esp for our generation considering all the choices we have and picking a major or studying a specific area may seem like it is locking u in for a set life but it'S alot like poker. see a flop. re evaluate the turn. re evaluate the river. there is nothing wrong with playing poker (as in my case) for a short 2 years and now i re-evaluate and realize i can't make a living off this no matter how i much i enjoy this. and am happy to move on. into finance. maybe after the ibanking grind i realize i hate working 100 hour weeks and i move into entrepreneurial shit a la ed/jason.
there's a ton of shit we can do in life. and although we all thought money/poker = freedom, i think for most of us we are actually trapped/enslaved to it as we thought incorrectly it was only a matter of time before we became ballers like tt, fayth, hero, nolan, wobbly. how we grind mid stakes making just enough money to feed the dream. investing just enough time where we gotta give it an extra week. or month. or year.
i'm not gonna lie. i'M a bit bitter about never reaching 5/10 nl (really fucking bitter). and tbh i ll prob play poker for the rest of my life. and maybe after i get a real job ill pay for coaching because i do want to perfect my craft. i've put alot of time in this game and put a lot of heart into it as well. but it'S now more so for the intrinsic value of it rather than all the $_$ i want from it. it's more so chasing a lvl of mastery that i can be proud at. it's like achieving grandmaster @ chess. in my eyes at least.
i was gonna post my online graph during my time in vegas and ask for a profit share/coach because i had some sik results but i guess it doesn'T matter anymore. i can't play online poker anymore and would rather focus my energies into the gmat/gre in order to change my future. i don't like where my life is going right now but i finally realized it'S my choice and that i do have the power to change my life.
poker takes alot of hardwork and alot of heart. if u really want to get good at this game play often, move up aggressively but most of all find other ppl at your stakes here @ lp and talk to them. if u look at lp 5 years ago fayth, frinkx, and johnnycosmo and company are all helping each other out and giving good advice/emotional support. for the most part i've had an extremely hard time moving up and a very lonely time as well. it wasn't till later to the point where it didn'T do me any good till i reached out to a few lpers. so yeah, make friends here and be headstrong.
and be part of the new wave here @ lp. there are other players steadily climbing the limits probably spearheaded by longple. but there are other players who are solid/good here.
there'S a guy here who i semi-admire try2beperfect, even his name, is a constant reminder of his goal and even though he posts such shitty threads sometimes it'S that kind of humility i think is required in order to move up in this game.
there aren't that many solid posters anymore. tt/midian/oly are prob my all time favorites and the most helpful. but def just try and have thick skin and try and read between the lines even though you're going to receive alot of unnecessarily sarcastic advice.
anyway this is an uplifting/freeing good bye. i wish aspiring players the best of luck, the accomplished players continuous luck, and for the rest of us who couldn't beat this game hard enough gratitude and grace to move on.
this is all.
DALLAS ONE TIMEEEEEEEEEE
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player999 Brasil. May 06 2011 23:10. Posts 7978 | | | |
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TheHuHu3 United States. May 07 2011 07:13. Posts 5544 | | |
I read it all. Good read. By the way, US players can play on Hero Poker... It's a new site. |
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MiPwnYa  Brasil. May 07 2011 16:33. Posts 5230 | | |
gr8 read,
gl dude,
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MiPwnYa Brasil. May 07 2011 16:48. Posts 5230 | | | |
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whamm! Albania. May 07 2011 20:43. Posts 11625 | | |
| | On May 07 2011 15:48 MiPwnYa wrote:
its sayonara btw |
lol |
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