Why am I even playing? Losing 10 fucking buy ins in 1k fucking hands. This game is so fucked up and really kills me. I put so much effort in learning this game in and get rewarded with NOTHING LOL. I'll probably never move up and my motivation is 0 now, because I don't even know if I am playing any good. Always trying to be objective and not crying, but how can you not cry if you play 4 tables, click "sit out next big blind on 4 tables" (because I already lost lots and think I might be playing bad) and then lose exactly 4 buy-ins in the last ~10 hands? This is just insane, must be the poker gods or something. This is the last hand of the session.

plz someone call me girl now

Hey take it easy man. It looks like you're playing scared money and you just have that intuition where you just know the turn and river will run out in his favour.

If you want some help with sweat sessions or something, let me know. We practically play same limits.

Sometimes it takes just a little perspective from a few others to change some exponentially destructive leaks you never know you have. Run bad doesn't really help either.

You're right with that intuition thing. I do think that very often which is probably terrible. Not sure about scared money. It's not about the money when I play NL5 but to learn the game. And I told myself not to move up unless I won 40 buyins at this limit and well, I've been close to it and now it's far away again. Think I have to learn more about swings and stuff and grind more...

Yeah, but how can others possibly discover terrible leaks I have? I think a huge leak of mine is, that I am very unsure about 4 betting/basically always either 5 betting or folding to 4bets and never ever calling, cause it just feels bad.

lol thats the team liquid in that locker room

Sometimes you want to think that everyone is playing back at you but in reality a lot of times they actually just do have something.

Yeah I just fold fold fold today and red line goes down quickly. I think this makes me play really bad, because I start playing hands thinking "they can't have it everytime" when in fact they have it once again. And if people bet/raise normal amounts at NL5 they usually don't bluff.