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Didn't RikD post about being involuntarily admitted to psych hospitals recently for what sounded like manic episodes? I agree with Loco, I doubt he has the stability/independence to pursue a job in a foreign country. But on the other hand, I agree with Baal, what's the worst that can happen? If your life is shitty why not go big when trying to change it...

We can only ever set things in motion when we can visualize ourselves succeeding. The likelihood that RiKD could maintain a positive self-image and self-motivate towards this particular goal is low at this current state. And where is the spark? You intuitively feel something that propels you into action when a good idea is suggested to you, but RiKD hasn't had that since you guys suggested English teaching. It just became one more thing for him to think or fantasize about because it appears distant from him.

Also there's plenty of women working in the video game industry and he'd get something more real there than with a "oh u white teach me engulishuh" girl.

On October 21 2021 11:55 Loco wrote: We can only ever set things in motion when we can visualize ourselves succeeding. The likelihood that RiKD could maintain a positive self-image and self-motivate towards this particular goal is low at this current state. And where is the spark? You intuitively feel something that propels you into action when a good idea is suggested to you, but RiKD hasn't had that since you guys suggested English teaching. It just became one more thing for him to think or fantasize about because it appears distant from him. Also there's plenty of women working in the video game industry and he'd get something more real there than with a "oh u white teach me engulishuh" girl.

um, ok...just so we are clear

I first suggested English teaching and RiKD wasn't entirely opposed to the idea and was considering it albeit just on an exploratory stage. Then you came into the picture randomly and basically sidetracked the whole thing by introducing video-game tester and told him to do that instead. Suddenly he was trash talking me telling me it was a crap idea. So...yeah...weird you mention this. I'm not trying to just randomly insult you whenever I say you are a Rasputin type figure in RiKD's life. I'm not sure if you are doing it on purpose or whatever I just think you guys have a weird relationship. The old gym I went to there was this overweight guy in his 40s and an extremely old man just normal bodyweight that would work out together and they had this weird/bizarre relationship thats hard to explain but when I see you interacting with RiKD it reminds me alot of that. It actually kind of blows my mind that I am the only one that seems to notice this about you and RiKD. It's all very creepy/weird to me.

I don't disagree with you that this is not a easy thing for him and there are alot of variables that are unclear and I dont know if its possible either. For example would his family even be comfortable with him being alone overseas given his history? Many things are unclear, but I knowingly introduced the idea with those things in mind.. But the way I see it the expected payoff potential is higher on the teach english side so I just find it perplexing that you are sort of sabotaging the whole thing at every point. Like blackjack said, I mean clearly the payoff potential is at least somewhat enticing here.

On October 21 2021 11:55 Loco wrote: We can only ever set things in motion when we can visualize ourselves succeeding. The likelihood that RiKD could maintain a positive self-image and self-motivate towards this particular goal is low at this current state. And where is the spark? You intuitively feel something that propels you into action when a good idea is suggested to you, but RiKD hasn't had that since you guys suggested English teaching. It just became one more thing for him to think or fantasize about because it appears distant from him. Also there's plenty of women working in the video game industry and he'd get something more real there than with a "oh u white teach me engulishuh" girl.

of course, what better way to meet girls than to test games from home, game testers drown in pussy.



But disregard out advice Rik, keep your expectations low, become a game tester and eat gruel in your poorly lit appartment, one day you might be as happy as Etienne.

The "you can work from home" part was more of a psychological trick than advice. I mentioned it so that he can't use distance as an excuse as he did in the past for something helpful (refuge recovery) and because familiarity is everything to a NEET. It was meant to help stack things in his favor as far as moving him into taking the first steps into action. He's not obliged to work from home, or he could just do one project from home and transition to office after. He has a lot of debt which he has mentioned before so getting him started making money asap is more important than relationships. You want to have some level of stability if you hope to find a stable girl.

I'm not dismissive of English teaching abroad. It's just that in his current state it's fantasy fuel and nothing more. Someone prone to mania and depression who has had very little going on for himself for a while needs to reintroduce structure and tangible goals with baby steps, not a total lifestyle change. Even if he wasn't paralyzed by a fear of failure, what do you think would happen if he failed at it? It's enough to not want to try anything again. Not mentioning the possible lack of helpful psychiatric care where he would go.

And clearly, being part of a team and contributing something to the world as a tester is more likely to make him happy than trading bitcoins and owning a factory. Being fit and healthy eating plain foods also leads to greater happiness than being a diseased fast food addict. It'll also lead him to your goal of financial freedom faster - rich foods are called rich food for a reason. And again, better health in your latter years. Why work so hard to be financially free if you're going to be a diseased food addict barely able to enjoy your off years when it catches up to you? (though it has already caught up to him)

Well sure baby steps are fine jumping into risk is also fine, anything that isn't keep sulking and fantasizing while doing nothing to improve is fine.

wtf there's no lack of psychiatrists in México, most range between 30-70 dollars per hour and you will find guys with PhDs in that range price (the beauty of free market healthcare)

You believe that testing glitchy games is more rewarding than working on intellectually stimulating world-changing tech and also producing beautiful real life objects while creating opportunities for manual workers to earn a living and hone their crafts? come on... I know you want to clap back but that was just silly.


fwiw I think you wan't him to walk your path because you somewhat see yourself in him, but I dont think you two are anything alike, you've never fantasized about fucking exotic bitches and money and power, he is more extroverted so you can say he is more "normal", more suited to carry a regular life in this world and I don't mean it as an insult to you at all, but thats why I think the english teacher in latinamerica would work good for him but in the end he probably won't listen to any of our advises lol

Whatever he decides to do I will say rikd was pretty on point about the "wolf" example from taleb.

Anything he chooses sort of has to be that type of job. I think English teacher and video game tester both somewhat fall into the category. Maybe he can be run a food truck or hotdog stand or something.

Also I don't think a wolf necessarily has to be a rainmaker. I feel like these days all it takes is a supply shortage in labor for whatever industry.

Edit:whoops deleted original message

On October 22 2021 06:50 Baalim wrote: Well sure baby steps are fine jumping into risk is also fine, anything that isn't keep sulking and fantasizing while doing nothing to improve is fine. wtf there's no lack of psychiatrists in México, most range between 30-70 dollars per hour and you will find guys with PhDs in that range price (the beauty of free market healthcare) You believe that testing glitchy games is more rewarding than working on intellectually stimulating world-changing tech and also producing beautiful real life objects while creating opportunities for manual workers to earn a living and hone their crafts? come on... I know you want to clap back but that was just silly. fwiw I think you wan't him to walk your path because you somewhat see yourself in him, but I dont think you two are anything alike, you've never fantasized about fucking exotic bitches and money and power, he is more extroverted so you can say he is more "normal", more suited to carry a regular life in this world and I don't mean it as an insult to you at all, but thats why I think the english teacher in latinamerica would work good for him but in the end he probably won't listen to any of our advises lol

I was thinking of Asian countries not Mexico. I remember when I was in Japan how difficult it was for my partner to get mental health support in English and how it seemed not worth it for how expensive it was. And she didn't even need medication at the time. RiKD has a whole history with him and a medicine regimen that is not going to be transferrable in certain places of the world. There are good risks in life and there are some that are very dangerous and should be avoided when you have certain predispositions or diagnoses. I would definitely favor the plan more if it's in latin america over Asia. If he genuinely could maintain the self-confidence to do it and get the medical situation in order I would say go for it.

Bitcoin is not going to change the world, it's destroying it due to its high energy usage, and trading and obsessing over it is a vain activity. Same with virtually every other coin. Most people involved don't believe in its philosophy, they are just trying to make money.

You didn't build a business that "created opportunities" and you cannot take pride in other people's work. I imagine very little personal satisfaction there.

Testing games is building something from the ground up and you get to enjoy the finished product and have people enjoy it. You work hand in hand with developers; there is no game without the tester-developer relationship. Developers have to fix the bugs you find for them, so your argument applies to them too... you think game devs have shitty lives because they have to fix "glitchy games"? The advantage is that it is easy entry and you learn a lot about the video game industry and in my case I got involved with VR which has a lot of application beyond casual gaming like in neuroscience, medicine and sports.

He would get to be part of something right now without having to go through the hell of learning coding alone and having to sell himself to an employer. And I think you would be surprised at how many girls are in those places and how much attention you can get as a dude who takes care of himself in an environment full of people who don't.

It's not so much that I see myself in him, it's that I know the situation that he is in and what it does to the human psyche. And I know this kind of job is one of the rare ones that often gets people in this situation out of it with a high degree of success if they have a gaming background.

On October 23 2021 00:37 Loco wrote: Show nested quote + On October 22 2021 06:50 Baalim wrote: Well sure baby steps are fine jumping into risk is also fine, anything that isn't keep sulking and fantasizing while doing nothing to improve is fine. wtf there's no lack of psychiatrists in México, most range between 30-70 dollars per hour and you will find guys with PhDs in that range price (the beauty of free market healthcare) You believe that testing glitchy games is more rewarding than working on intellectually stimulating world-changing tech and also producing beautiful real life objects while creating opportunities for manual workers to earn a living and hone their crafts? come on... I know you want to clap back but that was just silly. fwiw I think you wan't him to walk your path because you somewhat see yourself in him, but I dont think you two are anything alike, you've never fantasized about fucking exotic bitches and money and power, he is more extroverted so you can say he is more "normal", more suited to carry a regular life in this world and I don't mean it as an insult to you at all, but thats why I think the english teacher in latinamerica would work good for him but in the end he probably won't listen to any of our advises lol I was thinking of Asian countries not Mexico. I remember when I was in Japan how difficult it was for my partner to get mental health support in English and how it seemed not worth it for how expensive it was. And she didn't even need medication at the time. RiKD has a whole history with him and a medicine regimen that is not going to be transferrable in certain places of the world. There are good risks in life and there are some that are very dangerous and should be avoided when you have certain predispositions or diagnoses. I would definitely favor the plan more if it's in latin america over Asia. If he genuinely could maintain the self-confidence to do it and get the medical situation in order I would say go for it. Bitcoin is not going to change the world, it's destroying it due to its high energy usage, and trading and obsessing over it is a vain activity. Same with virtually every other coin. Most people involved don't believe in its philosophy, they are just trying to make money. You didn't build a business that "created opportunities" and you cannot take pride in other people's work. I imagine very little personal satisfaction there. Testing games is building something from the ground up. You work hand in hand with developers; there is no game without the tester-developer relationship. Developers have to fix the bugs you find for them, so your argument applies to them too... you think game devs have shitty lives because they have to fix "glitchy games"? The advantage is that it is easy entry and you learn a lot about the video game industry and in my case I got involved with VR which has a lot of application beyond casual gaming like in neuroscience, medicine and sports. And I think you would be surprised at how many girls are in those places and how much attention you can get as a dude who takes care of himself in an environment full of people who don't. It's not so much that I see myself in him, it's that I know the situation that he is in and what it does to the human psyche. And I know this kind of job is one of the rare ones that often gets people in this situation out of it with a high degree of success if they have a gaming background.

I doubt the pool of "available gaming chicks" at xyz job is really some enticing factor in employment options lol. Seriously that is some low level stuff. I imagine alot of weird girls with mental health issues, pink hair that watch anime with their cat.

Also this reminds me of the time I posted that pic of grimes with elon musk and you were low key freaking out claiming you can't consider her "a liberal chick" because she allowed herself to get impregnated by elon musk lol.

I don't think a person who hasn't gotten laid in years cares that the gamer girl has pink hair and likes cats and animé.

On October 23 2021 16:01 Loco wrote: I don't think a person who hasn't gotten laid in years cares that the gamer girl has pink hair and likes cats and animé.

Um...except I do care. I'm sorry I have higher standards than you. I know exactly what I want out of life and act accordingly. Unless I can get myself "a Highborn maiden and a castle" kind of like Bronn from GameofThrones I just don't see the point of wasting my time. Honestly more guys should be like me they'd get better results so I'm not sure what exactly is so wrong with that. I can get a girlfriend I just don't see the point of it. I don't like the type of girls you probably like you can claim they are "hot" or whatever but different strokes for different folks.

I'm sorry but at this point all of your comebacks are retarded and have 0 substance to them. I feel like you don't even truely care about these things but you are forced to sacrifice your principles because you have no other comeback.

No ones is talking about you and your fascist girl fetish or whatever. RiKD likes anime. He likes cats. He's hung out with leftist girls who dye their hair before. Ergo, stop projecting your bs "weird girls with mental health issues" (yeah everyone who is left-leaning is mentally ill to you duh). It's not hard to realize it would be good for RiKD.

Your "I could get a gf I just don't care enough" reminds me of CrazyJim's posts on TL.net right now. "I could have been the best at X and Y games but I didn't enjoy them enough" https://tl.net/blogs/579684-anyone-remember-me-crazyjimim-making-a-mmorpg

On October 23 2021 18:53 Loco wrote: No ones is talking about you and your fascist girl fetish or whatever. RiKD likes anime. He likes cats. He's hung out with leftist girls who dye their hair before. Ergo, stop projecting your bs "weird girls with mental health issues" (yeah everyone who is left-leaning is mentally ill to you duh). It's not hard to realize it would be good for RiKD. Your "I could get a gf I just don't care enough" reminds me of CrazyJim's posts on TL.net right now. "I could have been the best at X and Y games but I didn't enjoy them enough" https://tl.net/blogs/579684-anyone-remember-me-crazyjimim-making-a-mmorpg

Oh well the way you worded it i feel like you can easily mistake you for having meant that. No idea what is a fascist girl tho lol.

You are basically saying dating Meghan Markle is a good idea lol these purple hair liberals are dummies like you. But then again that is why you are famously called the rasputin of poker.
Id much prefer the selection of girls in Mexico or whatever or the argentine woman that drank his condom haha.. Honestly though when it comes to women I'm a firm believer in different strokes for different folks. I'm into a certain type of woman but some other dude might be into double ds fake tits and huge ass but really ppl just are into different stuff. That is mostly for appearance though I think on an absolute level these communist girls are toxic but obv you won't think that.

On October 23 2021 18:53 Loco wrote: Your "I could get a gf I just don't care enough" reminds me of CrazyJim's posts on TL.net right now. "I could have been the best at X and Y games but I didn't enjoy them enough" https://tl.net/blogs/579684-anyone-remember-me-crazyjimim-making-a-mmorpg

You are a dumb.

Its funny I think you said something along the lines of reason I don't have a girlfriend is because I'm an asshole or a narcissist or something before and there is a scene in the office where Michael gets rejected by Jan I think and somehow she says it's not his looks and he starts smiling all happy and shit LOL.

I dont care about having a girlfriend im not looking to start a family anytime soon and im not trying to prove anything.

I am not really sure where to start here... Best bet is probably to not start...

The whole weirdo and mental health thing... does it reek of bad bait? Is it bad bait if I take it?

Mental illness is a negative but it depends. The only thing off limits to my knowledge so far is no borderline personality disorder for me.

pink hair – neutral

Being in AA and leftist spheres there are going to be larger amounts of women with dyed hair. I think Loco was talking about a total anarchist rockstar I was hanging out with. I would help her steal shit at Whole Foods. She was cool as fuck. She had a partner though who was also cool. Maybe this is where one of my leaks is. I can see it vividly now. Largest DSA party of the year and the anarchists kind of just ended up in one corner of the party because we did not want to get caught up in Bernie simp mania or god forbid get stuck talking to a Marxist-Leninist. Our corner of the party is who I should be hanging out with. It ended up being 5 of us with some interchangeable people. It is an option. I am able to go to Food Not Bombs tomorrow.

So, the chances of a "Leftist chick" dying her hair in her lifetime are pretty high but I feel like when I see most of them (let's say 100+ in the last 7 years) their hair will not be dyed (at least not a color of the rainbow). It can be a good look but it is not a fetish for me unless I can transcend time and more with Lea Seydoux or the main character that she picks up. Like the traditional idea that I will seduce and pick up blue haired straight or bi Lea Seydoux or some other not as traditional seductions may be part of the blue hair.

I love cats. Cats are a plus although I don't think it's that much greater than neutral. I like dogs. I don't mind people not having pets either. It's only a problem if they don't like my cat.

I like anime. So great if there are some anime we can watch together. Not really a big deal though.

Guess what?

I also like chicas of the Mexican variety. Quite a lot actually. One thing I noticed is that they are shorter and more obese than Argentinian guapa. Just something I observed. The good thing is that Latin American women and women in general seem to store their fat in the hips and ass and breasts. I don't really want to try to go through and make an argument for the number of attractive women in say Monterrey vs Buenos Aires because honestly walking down the streets of either of these places it doesn't even matter. There are more attractive 20 and 30 and 40 year olds all over these cities than I could even begin to dream to fuck.

There is more to a city and more to a life than what you guys seemed to have reduced it to or maybe not...

My social spheres in Buenos Aires and Monterrey were a bit estraño as well (in a good way). I also loved Costa Rica.

One of my best friends weddings was in Mexico. He was marrying a Mexican gal. He went out and converted his mother-in-law's backyard into a club and got a proper DJ. It was pretty sick. Leading up to that we were doing fun stuff but I would always joke with Ne (Bride to be) "¿Donde es las chicas wey wey wey wey ?"

We had all became pretty good friends living together in Malta.

Everything is great. Literally, everything is great and we are at the reception. I love everyone. We are hitting this giant ass volcano in Ne's mom's living room sippin' on good fuckin' Mexican beer doing tequila shots. I am basically the only one that didn't take way too much MDMA. The club is all set up and ready to go.

I smile and look at Ne, "¿Donde es las chicas wey wey?

"NO NO NO, Not tonight. Just wait."

A little later 4 of the most beautiful women in a group I've seen in real life stroll in fashionably late just looking stunning. Stunning!

Ne looks at me smiling: " ¿Que onda wey wey wey? Rich... Rico suave wey." jajajajajajaja

It's fucked because there aren't a lot of people there yet and no competitors to the fantastic four but my other friend lmno comes in and is like "Come on Rich, this is what you've been waiting for. What are you waiting for?" and I am thinking wait wait wait wait. I need an opener. We need someone to warm them up in Spanish anyways. That is a no brainer. The 2 single Spanish speakers are fucked on weed and way too much MDMA but there is a third gringo who speaks way better than me but he doesn't want to do it. They are all telling me that I am a legend and they've seen me succeed in tougher situations. Ne is just having too much fun with this.

So, I stroll over there. Just completely cold. I tell them they look great, that my name is Rich short for pinche Rich. No I didn't say that but I wish I did. l'Esprit de la escalier. I basically felt like a greeter or something. Talked for a bit and then went to get a drink. I intended to let things warm up a bit and figure out a suitable coupling but then my Argentinian friends wanted to go out to the club b/c it was lame at their best friend's wedding reception. I should not have bounced on the reception but I caught wind of further adventure so 4 of us left to go to some underground club in Mexico...

So, I don't know. I listen to suggestions.

English teacher is good if I can get meds and psychiatrist and relocation, etc.

Game Tester is good if one pops up in my city or that does not require more experience.

Good suggestions.

Food truck is a good one too. My brother said that. But it is not practical mostly because I do not want to prep food anymore unless it's off the clock for myself or others.

On October 24 2021 01:41 RiKD wrote: I am not really sure where to start here... Best bet is probably to not start... The whole weirdo and mental health thing... does it reek of bad bait? Is it bad bait if I take it? Mental illness is a negative but it depends. The only thing off limits to my knowledge so far is no borderline personality disorder for me. pink hair – neutral Being in AA and leftist spheres there are going to be larger amounts of women with dyed hair. I think Loco was talking about a total anarchist rockstar I was hanging out with. I would help her steal shit at Whole Foods. She was cool as fuck. She had a partner though who was also cool. Maybe this is where one of my leaks is. I can see it vividly now. Largest DSA party of the year and the anarchists kind of just ended up in one corner of the party because we did not want to get caught up in Bernie simp mania or god forbid get stuck talking to a Marxist-Leninist. Our corner of the party is who I should be hanging out with. It ended up being 5 of us with some interchangeable people. It is an option. I am able to go to Food Not Bombs tomorrow. So, the chances of a "Leftist chick" dying her hair in her lifetime are pretty high but I feel like when I see most of them (let's say 100+ in the last 7 years) their hair will not be dyed (at least not a color of the rainbow). It can be a good look but it is not a fetish for me unless I can transcend time and more with Lea Seydoux or the main character that she picks up. Like the traditional idea that I will seduce and pick up blue haired straight or bi Lea Seydoux or some other not as traditional seductions may be part of the blue hair. I love cats. Cats are a plus although I don't think it's that much greater than neutral. I like dogs. I don't mind people not having pets either. It's only a problem if they don't like my cat. I like anime. So great if there are some anime we can watch together. Not really a big deal though. Guess what? I also like chicas of the Mexican variety. Quite a lot actually. One thing I noticed is that they are shorter and more obese than Argentinian guapa. Just something I observed. The good thing is that Latin American women and women in general seem to store their fat in the hips and ass and breasts. I don't really want to try to go through and make an argument for the number of attractive women in say Monterrey vs Buenos Aires because honestly walking down the streets of either of these places it doesn't even matter. There are more attractive 20 and 30 and 40 year olds all over these cities than I could even begin to dream to fuck. There is more to a city and more to a life than what you guys seemed to have reduced it to or maybe not... My social spheres in Buenos Aires and Monterrey were a bit estraño as well (in a good way). I also loved Costa Rica. One of my best friends weddings was in Mexico. He was marrying a Mexican gal. He went out and converted his mother-in-law's backyard into a club and got a proper DJ. It was pretty sick. Leading up to that we were doing fun stuff but I would always joke with Ne (Bride to be) "¿Donde es las chicas wey wey wey wey ?" We had all became pretty good friends living together in Malta. Everything is great. Literally, everything is great and we are at the reception. I love everyone. We are hitting this giant ass volcano in Ne's mom's living room sippin' on good fuckin' Mexican beer doing tequila shots. I am basically the only one that didn't take way too much MDMA. The club is all set up and ready to go. I smile and look at Ne, "¿Donde es las chicas wey wey? "NO NO NO, Not tonight. Just wait." A little later 4 of the most beautiful women in a group I've seen in real life stroll in fashionably late just looking stunning. Stunning! Ne looks at me smiling: " ¿Que onda wey wey wey? Rich... Rico suave wey." jajajajajajaja It's fucked because there aren't a lot of people there yet and no competitors to the fantastic four but my other friend lmno comes in and is like "Come on Rich, this is what you've been waiting for. What are you waiting for?" and I am thinking wait wait wait wait. I need an opener. We need someone to warm them up in Spanish anyways. That is a no brainer. The 2 single Spanish speakers are fucked on weed and way too much MDMA but there is a third gringo who speaks way better than me but he doesn't want to do it. They are all telling me that I am a legend and they've seen me succeed in tougher situations. Ne is just having too much fun with this. So, I stroll over there. Just completely cold. I tell them they look great, that my name is Rich short for pinche Rich. No I didn't say that but I wish I did. l'Esprit de la escalier. I basically felt like a greeter or something. Talked for a bit and then went to get a drink. I intended to let things warm up a bit and figure out a suitable coupling but then my Argentinian friends wanted to go out to the club b/c it was lame at their best friend's wedding reception. I should not have bounced on the reception but I caught wind of further adventure so 4 of us left to go to some underground club in Mexico... So, I don't know. I listen to suggestions. English teacher is good if I can get meds and psychiatrist and relocation, etc. Game Tester is good if one pops up in my city or that does not require more experience. Good suggestions. Food truck is a good one too. My brother said that. But it is not practical mostly because I do not want to prep food anymore unless it's off the clock for myself or others.

Just so you 2 dunces understand when I say pink hair that watches cats with anime I'm just painting a picture so you boneheads understand. I dont literally mean cats are bad or whatever not sure why you are arguing that..."RiKD likes cats...I like anime....Pink hair is neutral....you can't make this stuff up.

Look if you think a pool of 5-15 women that are probably undesirable is a better option than a pool of a whole city/country of women in Mexico or whatever other country then by all means go for that.

I'm glad you posted hiems. I've got a little time before I let the food settle to work out so this worked out nicely.

We are certainly not comparing 5-15 gamer test girls at an office that may or may not ever exist in my city to the # of attractive women in Monterrey during sun dress + yoga pants season which as far as I can tell is a grande ass season there. I don't even like dating women at work but it is not like I wouldn't do it if it made sense even if she was in hiems no go archetype. I don't give a shit about hiems standards but I do give a shit about my standards. And the point that Loco was making which was more important is that game testing is just kind of a job that is not super high maintenance or stressful that can get me back up onto my feet a little bit and get stabilized. The city I live in is not Monterrey or Buenos Aires but it is not bad either. I finally have a good psychiatrist and the meds seem pretty good it is not wise to risk that. Of course, desirability of the women is a consideration but there are many other things to consider.

Btw, I can appreciate the idea that the best argument wins but there maybe a little bit of attachment to arguments here. It kind of morphed into this weird battle royale thing. Although I rarely get good suggestions "in real life" ever. My therapist has it in her mind that I should go to historical sites in the area (which there are a lot of) and be a tour guide. That does not seem that bad either.

It's not like I can get back on my feet in one move. It will take probably years and multiple jobs but I have to start somewhere. There is something to be said for jumping into the best starting position from my position but there is also something to be said for managing my mental health and sobriety as more important than anything else. I feel good enough to work. I need to earn money sooner rather than later. It's just getting really tiring never having any money to do anything.

On October 24 2021 16:10 RiKD wrote: I'm glad you posted hiems. I've got a little time before I let the food settle to work out so this worked out nicely. We are certainly not comparing 5-15 gamer test girls at an office that may or may not ever exist in my city to the # of attractive women in Monterrey during sun dress + yoga pants season which as far as I can tell is a long ass season there. I don't even like dating women at work but it is not like I wouldn't do it if it made sense even if she was in hiems no go archetype. I don't give a shit about hiems standards but I do give a shit about my standards. And the point that Loco was making which was more important is that game testing is just kind of a job that is not super high maintenance or stressful that can get me back up onto my feet a little bit and get stabilized. The city I live in is not Monterrey or Buenos Aires but it is not bad either. I finally have a good psychiatrist and the meds seem pretty good it is not wise to risk that. Of course, desirability of the women is a consideration but there are many other things to consider.

There is no such thing as a good psychiatrist they are all dumbfucks probably. Like I said before I'm probably the world's #1 expert on you. If you are serious about getting better convince your parents to pay me $2k a month and you will finally be able to get a boner again.

After that you will have no probz moving to Mexico and slamming these Mexican hotties moaning que rico and maybe even drinking from your condom like the legendary argentine woman.

In the meantime get a fucking job. Like you said there is no point in video game tester cause its not available in your city. Maybe you can be a dog walker that is a wolf type of job that might suit you. Its not earth shattering but its a baby step it might be good for you.