What is the State of your Soul? - Page 2

Now, here is the trick. How to go from a solid day at work to a great night out with friends to sleep?

I have to setup my medications for the week which is a major drag.

I kind of want to play Baldur's Gate 3 instead of writing whatever on here. But, what I am really doing is procrastinating the fact that I have to fill up my medications for the week.

What if I could write something so powerful that you couldn't take your eyes off of it until you died of dehydration? So, powerful that you could not even leave your seat to get a glass of water. (The Entertainment)(Infinite Jest). This is such a good spot to write something actually good and maybe get someone to respond. This has become my life's work. To get the 3 or so people still around to say something that isn't a troll / holocaust denier. Or even better than writing something good would be to write something controversial. Or even better expose some major drama. Or like I said to physically write The Entertainment. Nothing is that good. I don't have any drama to expose nor would I if I did.

Here is one: you are lying to yourself if you are not an athiest.

Here is a question: Would you risk death for prestige?

I am too afraid of death to risk it for prestige. I am a Slave.

I wish I could have more spirituality in my life but it seems to all fall short. The only thing for me is maybe Nature, Music, Philosophy. But, I can understand ideas like Spiritual Condition. What is the condition of my spirit? My soul?

This is quite common and easy to grasp. Religion is a lie. A bunch of lies.

Most of us are slaves. We are afraid of death. We would not risk our lives for prestige. That's ok. Just do not turn to Christianity. To do so would be to live in a large lie. We humans are imperfect beings. We can try our best to live in Truth. It is seemingly an impossible task but maybe we can get close.

Cliff Notes:

- If you are not an athiest you are living in lies
- You are probably a slave
- What are you going to do about it?

I am a slave then who is my master?

Who do I have to risk my life fighting?

These days there does not seem like there is any clear cut answer and it feels like it would be assured death to seek out a master to fight.

Anti-Christianity almost seems outdated these days. "Opium is the opium of the masses." (Rick Roderick) And that quote was from like the 90s lol.

It still needs to be said that you are living a lie if you turn to Christianity or do not think you are a slave.

The new master is money. There are no wins with negotiating a $100 bill. Benjamin Franklin does not blink. He does not utter a word. Money won't kill us. It will throw us in prison. A privately owned one at that.

Money can't die. It is not risking its life. It is mostly invisible as most good power is.

We could blame the state. We could blame the corporations. We could blame the sociopaths running these entities but money is the master. I am a slave to the state because they coerce me to give them x% / yr. I am a slave to corporations because they need to make money. I need to make money if I want this keyboard, this mouse, this computer, this monitor, this watch, this food, this drink. I am unsure if there is even a way out. If I risk my life for prestige that could just make me more money. I can't fight money. I can resist money but I can't. I can become a monk or a homeless person but I still operate in a world ruled by money.

What if I risked my life for virtue? For truth? Would it be worth it?

"Music is a higher revelation than all philosophy and wisdom." -LVB

The satisfied man is the perfect man. The perfect man is the satisfied man. No desires. No change. How do we get there? It is impossible. I desire to be satisfied therefore I am not satisfied. I desire to be perfect meaning I am not perfect. What if I don't desire anything? How does that look? How do I not change? Everything is supposed to be progression, progression, progression but what if I deny any and all of that? If my keyboard, computer, monitor, wifi, electricity were taken from me I would desire it.

I am human, all too human. I will error. I will make mistakes. I will get frustrated, tired, lack willpower. How does a human even get to "perfect morality?" The problem with being Christian is in reality you have to become Christ. But, Christianity is a lie so how does one even get to "perfect morality?"

The man with perfect morality is satisfied. The man that is satisfied has perfect morality.

I used to get ridiculously high and listen to this Royksopp Melody A.M. album. Still a great record. It's great for late nights when you are on a chill vibe.

How do I get satisfied? It's not as easy as just turning something on or off. I have to say listening to this music and writing is bringing me closer to satisfaction but if in this moment *poof* it all disapearred I would be discontent. Would I be more satisfied cuddling a thick girl? What if she goes *poof* and ceases to exist?

Man, if I could just have a blunt right now. Existence is heavy. I could be In Space with Royksopp. We could be lighter on the moon. Dance with lunar ghosts. A Higher Place.

I think I am already there. Straight sober.

What is morality if all religions are lies?

Even the Groundwork for the Metaphysics of Morales is written by just 1 man. What does post-religious morality look like?

I need to know so I can be perfect morally so then I can be satisfied. What happens if you are perfect morally and also satisfied but you end up eating a rotten blackberry?

So, rotten that it tastes repugnant but you also ingested mold from it that will make you have vicious stomach cramps and diarhea for a day?

To be honest, I love most of LP. I probably like a higher % of LP than I like the average public. The other day at The Pub I was sat next to some loud, obnoxious jerk to my right. Across from me was l'enfant sauvage, 1 week sober, like fresh out of the wilderness raised by wolves kinda kid. Then to my left was some guy who seemed reasonable but told some jokes in bad taste but he ended up being alright. I thought it was doomed but it turned out alright. Ignored the loud, obnoxious jerk and got to know the wild child and guy to left. It was better than being behind this damn computer screen albiet the food was sub-par.

Perfectly Self-Conscious = perfect man = satisfied man = The Wise Man = only a philosopher's potential

German thought and German music makes a spirit strong. A citizen of the universal makes a spirit strong.

Beethoven + Hegel

The End.