Que Sera, Sera - Page 2

On April 11 2024 23:02 lostaccount wrote: production is when u r happy doing things with ur time. they the government hidden agenda forget it I don't get to get into it.

Your definition of production sounds more like some sort of flow state or a definition of fulfillment. Top definitions of production are more like production of raw materials into something or producing a movie / play / music.

On April 11 2024 23:02 lostaccount wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 20:24 RiKD wrote:   On April 11 2024 12:21 lostaccount wrote: Haha don’t be a Christian, you aren’t capable of it but be spiritual more suitable for u n better. We are all one and one is all. Good luck rikd We are all sinners. Just confess my sins and I will be ok. Easy game. yep im a sinner too

I wish that I had somewhere to confess my sins. I did my original AA 5th Step with a Catholic Priest and had a Spiritual Experience. I don't know if I actually would like to go to Mass. I am pro-choice, I am not against the gays getting married, I believe people should be allowed to commit suicide, I think people should be allowed to be divorced, what else is there? I question the merits of prayor. Mathematically I am agnostic because my brain cannot fully grasp the Universe. I question Papal authority and the authority of the Catholic Church.

I just want to feel liberated, I, I, I,

I like Churches. I like the architechture. I like the stained glass windows. God-like.

I like Jesus. I like the story of Jesus. Especially, when he realizes his fate. Thy Will Be Done. God-like.

Man, if only I could pray "Thy Will Be Done" and get on with it no matter what. No matter what!

But, here I sit alone and atomized. Agnostic. What do I know? What do I believe?

We are human, all too human. Crazy world.

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You know Byung-Chul Han fucking did it. He survives capitalism. He beat it. That is fucking legendary man! He beats it on a daily basis. I just have to figure out my way to beat capitalism but that is like the hardest thing anyone will ever do. Part of my reason for wanting to be Catholic is that Byung-Chul Han is Catholic. My Great Uncle the Hero of the family was a Catholic Priest. That's what happens man. Something is missing. Maybe I can find this thing to deal with this something that is missing. The antidote could be something completely else. I don't like that word antidote. Despite specific situations I don't think there really are reliable antidotes.

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Unfortunately, I don't think that writing novels is what is going to get me out of capitalism. In ways, it's natural being lonely, isolated, and observational. I don't know what is going to get me out of capitalism. I think I just have to grin and bear it and jump into work, production, and performance and hope it doesn't shred me up.

I think the only examples I can think of of someone "beating" capitalism is the story of the man who makes pottery down by the river, probably Budhist monks, maybe Catholic priests, and maybe our very own LP alumnus Mr. "Loco." He has the knowledge and the wherewithal to avoid the compulsion of work, performance, production and live a good life. I salute all of these people.

A lot of people actually hate capitalism because it doesn't allow them to be productive. myself being one.

I want to be a historian on economic thought but capitalism doesn't allow people to do that. Instead I have opted to do bullshit code related jobs that are not productive. If you wanna do something about the environment, a lot of the money related jobs in that area are greenwashing. That's anti-productivity. Not even neutral but actively undermining productivity.

On April 12 2024 02:31 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 23:02 lostaccount wrote: production is when u r happy doing things with ur time. they the government hidden agenda forget it I don't get to get into it. Your definition of production sounds more like some sort of flow state or a definition of fulfillment. Top definitions of production are more like production of raw materials into something or producing a movie / play / music.

That's my definition n the correct one. Fulfillment n production go hand n hand

Stroggoz,

Preach.

I went in to the local Goodwill to say hi to a friend who just became Assistant Store Manager at the store. That store is definitely hiring. I felt that it would cheapen the interaction between my friend and I if I just cut in with anything regarding hiring at the store. Also, being in there it is most definitely retail and I had flashbacks and mixed feelings. The store is definitely pseudo anti-capitalist at least compared to a store like Nieman and Marcus. The highest price tag in the store is like $10 and they have shelves of stuff that isn't going to sell. There was not that much thought put into merchandising and marketing. I don't know. I'll probably just continue to think about it until it's too late. It's not time yet for me to kill myself.

I come on here for something surprising, something different, something lively, something human. I am addicted to the opposite of boredom. If it weren't for boredom the opposite of boredom would not be so stimulating.

In Radiohead's Nude the singer Thom Yorke tells us, "Don't get any big ideas, they are not going to happen."

My big idea is beating capitalism. I don't think I've done it even though I have been unemployed for the last 6 months. Being unemployed with no income has led me to be too lonely, isolated, atomised. It's hard to have a social life when you are trying to live on such a small amount of money. It's not really a big deal to eat meals at $3 / meal. It is a big deal to just sit in my room and waste away.

Going back to work. Well, it's going to be work. The key is monitoring the level of compulsion for performance and efficiency. If that is what the job requires there are times I will lose myself at work. There is no way around it. Then I am kind of fucked. The active life takes over and there is no room for the contemplative. Shaky from the day's work I will look for quick fixes in recreation and "rest." I will have not beaten capitalism.

"Don't get any big ideas, they are not going to happen."

I still have not figured it out but I am getting closer.

I am like an experiment. A speed runner. I push it to the limit in regards to unemployment and idleness. I will be stronger. My spirit will be stronger. But what if I had the Fender Stratocaster, all of the pedals, the synthesizer, the whole nine.... NO! It's not about that. Consumption is the enemy! What about the girlfriend and the omakase and the blow jobs? Again, it's not about that. This is about running experiments on how to beat capitalism. Que sera, sera. What will be, WILL BE! Thy WILL BE done! And it WILL BE no other way.

Jesus realizes he will be betrayed and tortured. Gets down on his knees and prays Thy Will Be Done and has the strength to live out his life. I would pray for that strength but I do not know who I would be praying to. Although, I don't have all the answers. I can't really suss out infinity. Something is missing in my life. Well, a lot is "missing" in my life but I am ok with that but something deep in my core is missing. My spirit is strong but something is just a bit off. I have anxiety and panic issues that my psychiatrist and therapist don't know how to treat. That is fucking frustrating. The easiest answer is that I don't go to AA anymore. AA had something that helped with what I am missing and I am being stubborn but also my anxiety and panic issues make AA annoying. But, I am listening to "All I Need" by Radiohead and everything feels ok.

Anyone else think Jesus was kinda lacking in humility when he claimed to be the messiah?

On April 13 2024 12:06 Stroggoz wrote: Anyone else think Jesus was kinda lacking in humility when he claimed to be the messiah?

when its fact its facts lol

Spring time it is. Jesus has ascended and sundresses start to make an appearance.

He had a nice head of hair/beard, I'll give him that.

You know a Church is probably a hint of fascist if they have blonde Jesus all over the place. I wonder how many Churches have marketing departments.

My dog is such a great walking companion because he walks the same speed as me and he is silent.