LP is so dead

We are the crazy ones to still post. The medium is the message. On my blog post I have 62 views. Probably, 10 of those are mine and 10 of those are yours. But, it's interesting who are these other 40 people? The medium is the message. The medium being a blog on a dead website. What kind of message is that? It has to be a little deranged even though my posting has been fire. I am a bit deranged. I do write slow but that activity speeds up. There is room for the contemplative although it typically gets taken over by the active. I am not sure what I am looking for here.

lostaccount,

What novels are you reading?

If you go to a festival and take ecstasy let me know how it goes.

I think for how your life is going it is crucial to learn how to be inactive.Treat boredom as a blessing. It's sometimes hard not to revert back into the active but treat everyday as if it were the Sabbath. That's how I have been trying to live. Obviously, I had to do taxes, I have to pay bills, I have to apply for jobs, I have to have an income. It will be impossible to avoid the compulsion to work and perform which is sad. I can spend time taking care of the plants, playing the guitar, I'm even considering furthering my work as a Christian mystic as I had found profound spiritual experience through doing the steps in AA. Lot of downsides to Christianity though.

im not Christian, im more spiritual. im reading people of the deer by Farley Mowat but sadly I don't think I will finished it as im not a reader but I might just go look for the audiobook of it or something.

I have accomplish all I want in life kinda, I don't think there is anything I want to accomplish n have more fun but with the resources I gave my life is a 10/10 so I aint complaining.

reddit isn't really my thing, I like a more close knit forum like LP but its so dead, this is the forum I admire the most even though no one post. if I work a 9-5 my life would be so busy. im literally by myself half the time these days but I aint lonely though.i enjoy my own company. I still have some people I talk to daily and some close friends like 10 of them but they all work and monday-thursday I do my best to find activities to do. I went to the seawall today n got some nice pictures of peopling chilling in their boat. im 2 lazy to post pictures lol

we aren't crazy we just have a lot of free time unlike others where they have things to do lol

I can't work a normal job cause its just way too stressful for the pay, I work at a vape store bored as fuck for near minimum wage even though I did jack all and quit lol. literally anyone can do that job but it was so mind numbing that I couldn't take it lol

Deranged may be a bit strong of a word. It's weird for us to stay and keep posting until (and past) the bitter end.

On April 10 2024 04:07 lostaccount wrote: im not Christian, im more spiritual. im reading people of the deer by Farley Mowat but sadly I don't think I will finished it as im not a reader but I might just go look for the audiobook of it or something.

People of the Deer sounds like a good book.

On April 10 2024 04:10 lostaccount wrote: I hace accomplish all I want in life kinda, I don't think there is anything I want to accpolish except make more money n have more fun but with the resources I have my life is a 8-9/10 so I aint complaining.

"kinda" meaning you havent accomplished all you want. Isn't that a little bit of a weird way to look at life? I always thought it was weird people judged their life off of accomplishments.

It depends on the accomplishments. I think a lot of people want a big house with a nice car which will be paid for by being an excellent performer at work. When does it end?

If I just sat around and thought about stuff for a lot of the time most people would think THAT is a waste of life.

We are also illustrating how digital communication works. We keep posting and posting and posting. You were posting so fast and actively you wrote 3 posts that you since have edited to nothing. Madness.

I have a nice house to live in 2 bedroom suite all to myself worth a coupl Milly in Canadian dollars, family house that I help pay for. Yea I still haven't completed all my task that's why I'm saving money for that day lol. I still have a few things on my bucket list I need to do but I'm still young. I still need to acquire assets, but there is no way for me to acquire quick assets like back in the day poker. I don't want to work a 20$ job lol I rather walk in the park n lay on the beaches instead haha. Literally spending 15$ a day only these days but my rent n bills are cover. I did walk 2 Shibas today, buddies Dog.

For 35 years old I live so much life already some could say in this lifetime I did 3 lifetimes of average person things. Only thing I really want is a kid but I can't afford one ATM n I don't know if I can take care of one. We will see. Maybe I just get a dog instead of getting a kid but I don't want a dog yet. I got so much accomplished yet there could be more things to accomplish.

Daycare for the kid is $25k / yr no joke. My sister just told me about it at least in the USA. If you are unemployed you could take care of the kid but I think that would get old fast. That is just me though. I think people are crazy for having kids.

Of course, I'd rather walk in the park and lay on the beaches instead of $20 / hr. Things happen though. I need an income for as hellish as work can be.

Bragging about accomplishments is like bragging about how nice your tombstone is. There is something to be said about research that actually changes the world and helps people, political activism, philosophy, work on being some spiritual mystic, art. I just wrote a novel and I don't feel much different. The art of writing a novel is actually lonely, isolated, and frustrating most of the time. It feels good to get on a roll though. Would I be that much happier with blow jobs and omakase? Well, probably a little bit happier. The problem is not just that we are isolated and atomised but that a lot of people are. I am meeting a friend at a bookstore tomorrow and then we will get some tea at a cafe and talk. That's like a once in a week thing. I am not going to go through all of my social meetups but how much is enough? I don't know but I know social connection / live interaction is one of the most important things for me. Of course, I am an introverted SIGMA MALE by nature so social connection can be too much at times but we need in person social connection.

There are other things I don’t mention that I’m fixing, I’m super grateful 4 da life I have, I know too much which makes me sad. The more intelligent u r, it’s hard to be happy in this world unless ur ignorant.

Yea I see a couple of buddies once a week, like 2-3 times a week I have meetups but that isn’t enough atm. I’m making some friends here n there but they aren’t here in Vancouver for a long time. Like international visa people who are here for a year or two. I guess it’s cause I also kinda broke up which is making a bit sad that n not having a tonne or money now lol. Literally less than 20k in assets excluding my house n I’m not producing or being productive. That’s the thing I ain’t productive now. When I was playing poker I was at least productive but fuck what can I do to make 50$ an hour. I have the know how to trade n invest just no rich people to invest for lol. Wish I ran a hedge fund or something but then I would say it’s too much work n not enjoy it. Hence why I’m living so frugally so I can get a BR myself to start trading when it’s worth my time. I don’t have much cash or crypto but have some gold n Pokémon card worth some what a decent amount but things are looking up, I got some ideas I’m working on so I feel productive today n working towards more goals in the future. Going to the gym is 7$ a day lol I go like 5 times a month cause I can’t afford too much of it. Gas is over 2$ a litre n I started transittint cause driving got expensive. Fucking Vancouver is so expensive

I’m ambievert sigma too, hence I’m not lonely when alone but like u said we do need social connections sometimes n I do have that. My life is great just not as good as when I was making 1k a day great lol but now I’m so much wiser then that chump who was making so much money but the wiser version doesn’t make 1k a day anymore lol. I’m meh life atm 7/10 today, overall life is 8-9 but working towards 10

Haha it so much more work living alone, I was a prince when I was living with parents but pros n cons to living with them n by myself. I rather live alone though for most part except when I have to do dishes every day fuck. Miss the 5 star meals my mom made too but I don’t miss nagging n some of their friends.. I guess it’s this break up is on my mind a lot. I know I will get her back when time is right but I have to work on my finances n self first n let her miss me cause too much fighting when we are together. Let her grow up a bit more first

I know she is starting to miss me n I miss her too but I just can’t deal with her atm when I have to deal with my problems too

On April 11 2024 00:29 lostaccount wrote: Yea I see a couple of buddies once a week, like 2-3 times a week I have meetups but that isn’t enough atm. I’m making some friends here n there but they aren’t here in Vancouver for a long time. Like international visa people who are here for a year or two. I guess it’s cause I also kinda broke up which is making a bit sad that n not having a tonne or money now lol. Literally less than 20k in assets excluding my house n I’m not producing or being productive. That’s the thing I ain’t productive now. When I was playing poker I was at least productive but fuck what can I do to make 50$ an hour. I have the know how to trade n invest just no rich people to invest for lol. Wish I ran a hedge fund or something but then I would say it’s too much work n not enjoy it. Hence why I’m living so frugally so I can get a BR myself to start trading when it’s worth my time. I don’t have much cash or crypto but have some gold n Pokémon card worth some what a decent amount but things are looking up, I got some ideas I’m working on so I feel productive today n working towards more goals in the future. Going to the gym is 7$ a day lol I go like 5 times a month cause I can’t afford too much of it. Gas is over 2$ a litre n I started transittint cause driving got expensive. Fucking Vancouver is so expensive

Meeting up with people and having a good time can be addicting. It's a matter of expectations. If my expectations get skewed I will be resentful of meetups. I don't know what the number is for me but I like 1 on 1 meetups or small groups. If the amount of people in the group gets too high I feel out of my zone and disconnected unless I connect with someone sitting close to me.

$20k in assets is a lot relative to most people. I would get over this idea of "producing" or being "productive." Like I said if you aren't creating art, researching something to change / help the world, engaged in political activism, etc. it ain't it bro. The compulsion to produce / work / perform is destroying us. It's burning us out and speeding up the end of the Earth as we know it. You aren't productive? Fucking good. Get better at that. I would definitely get these poker ideas out of your mind. It's over man. Way over. And these trading ideas you need to either prove you can do it while you still have cash or get over it as well.

On April 11 2024 00:45 lostaccount wrote: Haha it so much more work living alone, I was a prince when I was living with parents but pros n cons to living with them n by myself. I rather live alone though for most part except when I have to do dishes every day fuck. Miss the 5 star meals my mom made too but I don’t miss nagging n some of their friends.. I guess it’s this break up is on my mind a lot. I know I will get her back when time is right but I have to work on my finances n self first n let her miss me cause too much fighting when we are together. Let her grow up a bit more first

I don't know who said this but "Living with your parents is cheap except you have to pay with your soul."

On April 11 2024 00:47 lostaccount wrote: I know she is starting to miss me n I miss her too but I just can’t deal with her atm when I have to deal with my problems too

You know it's possible she is out getting dicks from all over the place and doesn't even think about you. Tough pill to swallow but you should be having vagina parties now that you live on your own.

On April 11 2024 00:39 lostaccount wrote: I’m introvert sigma too, hence I’m not lonely when alone but like u said we do need social connections sometimes n I do have that. My life is great just not as good as when I was making 1k a day great lol but now I’m so much wiser then that chump who was making so much money but the wiser version doesn’t make 1k a day anymore lol. I’m meh life atm 7/10 today, overall life is 8-9 but working towards 10

Join the wah wah 1k / day club. I was at the 1k / hr club at points and fucking squandered it away but it was still a lightning strikes Gold Rush City situation. I don't know what I am capable of. I'm not very well educated. Bachelor of Arts and autodidact in more and more arts. Lightning very rarely strikes twice. I think we have to suck it up and find something that doesn't suck. Well, it's going to suck for jaded ass mother fuckers like you and me but you know what I mean.

Lostaccount and me are like Outkast. I'm Andre 3000.

...
Why? 'Cause in a sense see we all be kind of fly
Just can't be scared to spread your wings, head to better things
Maybe the mockingbird and nightingale they want to sing
Keeping this thing alive, to the table's what we bring
We like hailstorms and blizzards in the middle of the spring
Extraterrestrial

E.T. (Extraterrestrial)
Song by OutKast

"The idea is that whoever lives twice as fast can enjoy twice as many life possibilities; the acceleration of life multiplies life and thus brings a person closer to the goal of having a fulfilled life. But this is a naive calculation which rests on a confusion of fulfilment with more plenitude. A fulfilled life cannot be explained on a quantitative basis. It does not result from a plenitude of life possibilities, just as recounting or listing of events does not necessarily amount to a narration or account...

... And, thus, a very short life can also achieve the ideal of a fulfilled life. The acceleration thesis does not recognize that the real problem today is the fact that life has lost the possibility of reaching a meaningful conclusion. It is this fact that leads to the hectic rush and nervousness which characterize contemporary life. One begins ever anew; one zaps through 'life possibilities', precisely because of an inability to bring any single possibility to a conclusion. The individual's life is not informed by a story or meaningful totality. It is misleading to talk of an acceleration of life pursued with the aim of maximizing its possibilities. Upon closer scrutiny, this acceleration turns out to be a nervous restlessness which makes life whizz, so to speak, it hurtles from one possibility to the next. It never achieves rest - that is, completion."

Byung-Chul Han The Scent of Time pp 10-11

I've been focusing on work lately. I just have 40 more school days, then this school year is over and I won't have to see any students for 2 months!

I will in the Philippines this summer for 7 weeks, so I assume LP will officially die during that time. I've noticed that LP has dropped off a lot after I've returned from vacation for the past 6 summers in a row.

Anyway, I'm still here for what it's worth.

On April 11 2024 01:56 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 00:29 lostaccount wrote: Yea I see a couple of buddies once a week, like 2-3 times a week I have meetups but that isn’t enough atm. I’m making some friends here n there but they aren’t here in Vancouver for a long time. Like international visa people who are here for a year or two. I guess it’s cause I also kinda broke up which is making a bit sad that n not having a tonne or money now lol. Literally less than 20k in assets excluding my house n I’m not producing or being productive. That’s the thing I ain’t productive now. When I was playing poker I was at least productive but fuck what can I do to make 50$ an hour. I have the know how to trade n invest just no rich people to invest for lol. Wish I ran a hedge fund or something but then I would say it’s too much work n not enjoy it. Hence why I’m living so frugally so I can get a BR myself to start trading when it’s worth my time. I don’t have much cash or crypto but have some gold n Pokémon card worth some what a decent amount but things are looking up, I got some ideas I’m working on so I feel productive today n working towards more goals in the future. Going to the gym is 7$ a day lol I go like 5 times a month cause I can’t afford too much of it. Gas is over 2$ a litre n I started transittint cause driving got expensive. Fucking Vancouver is so expensive Meeting up with people and having a good time can be addicting. It's a matter of expectations. If my expectations get skewed I will be resentful of meetups. I don't know what the number is for me but I like 1 on 1 meetups or small groups. If the amount of people in the group gets too high I feel out of my zone and disconnected unless I connect with someone sitting close to me. $20k in assets is a lot relative to most people. I would get over this idea of "producing" or being "productive." Like I said if you aren't creating art, researching something to change / help the world, engaged in political activism, etc. it ain't it bro. The compulsion to produce / work / perform is destroying us. It's burning us out and speeding up the end of the Earth as we know it. You aren't productive? Fucking good. Get better at that. I would definitely get these poker ideas out of your mind. It's over man. Way over. And these trading ideas you need to either prove you can do it while you still have cash or get over it as well.

Still u have to produce an income to have an okay life, tell the big carbon emitter to F off not a guy like me

On April 11 2024 01:57 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 00:45 lostaccount wrote: Haha it so much more work living alone, I was a prince when I was living with parents but pros n cons to living with them n by myself. I rather live alone though for most part except when I have to do dishes every day fuck. Miss the 5 star meals my mom made too but I don’t miss nagging n some of their friends.. I guess it’s this break up is on my mind a lot. I know I will get her back when time is right but I have to work on my finances n self first n let her miss me cause too much fighting when we are together. Let her grow up a bit more first I don't know who said this but "Living with your parents is cheap except you have to pay with your soul."

That’s true it’s a high price why I move out

On April 11 2024 02:00 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 00:47 lostaccount wrote: I know she is starting to miss me n I miss her too but I just can’t deal with her atm when I have to deal with my problems too You know it's possible she is out getting dicks from all over the place and doesn't even think about you. Tough pill to swallow but you should be having vagina parties now that you live on your own.

Haha I get some as well but p***y aren’t that special if there is no love in it. Gotta have that emotional connection too but I don’t want to break any hearts so I don’t make that emotional connections. Lust sex isn’t that good

I have the opposite sex in my life but I’m talking to rikd about relationship lol not gonna listen for most part. I don’t listen to rikd shit a lot of the time haha

Nice PR, I’m focussing on being better that’s all

On April 11 2024 03:09 RiKD wrote: Lostaccount and me are like Outkast. I'm Andre 3000. ... Why? 'Cause in a sense see we all be kind of fly Just can't be scared to spread your wings, head to better things Maybe the mockingbird and nightingale they want to sing Keeping this thing alive, to the table's what we bring We like hailstorms and blizzards in the middle of the spring Extraterrestrial E.T. (Extraterrestrial) Song by OutKast

Sure

I have different goals n purpose then u rikd and we both are right

On April 11 2024 12:14 lostaccount wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 01:56 RiKD wrote:   On April 11 2024 00:29 lostaccount wrote: Yea I see a couple of buddies once a week, like 2-3 times a week I have meetups but that isn’t enough atm. I’m making some friends here n there but they aren’t here in Vancouver for a long time. Like international visa people who are here for a year or two. I guess it’s cause I also kinda broke up which is making a bit sad that n not having a tonne or money now lol. Literally less than 20k in assets excluding my house n I’m not producing or being productive. That’s the thing I ain’t productive now. When I was playing poker I was at least productive but fuck what can I do to make 50$ an hour. I have the know how to trade n invest just no rich people to invest for lol. Wish I ran a hedge fund or something but then I would say it’s too much work n not enjoy it. Hence why I’m living so frugally so I can get a BR myself to start trading when it’s worth my time. I don’t have much cash or crypto but have some gold n Pokémon card worth some what a decent amount but things are looking up, I got some ideas I’m working on so I feel productive today n working towards more goals in the future. Going to the gym is 7$ a day lol I go like 5 times a month cause I can’t afford too much of it. Gas is over 2$ a litre n I started transittint cause driving got expensive. Fucking Vancouver is so expensive Meeting up with people and having a good time can be addicting. It's a matter of expectations. If my expectations get skewed I will be resentful of meetups. I don't know what the number is for me but I like 1 on 1 meetups or small groups. If the amount of people in the group gets too high I feel out of my zone and disconnected unless I connect with someone sitting close to me. $20k in assets is a lot relative to most people. I would get over this idea of "producing" or being "productive." Like I said if you aren't creating art, researching something to change / help the world, engaged in political activism, etc. it ain't it bro. The compulsion to produce / work / perform is destroying us. It's burning us out and speeding up the end of the Earth as we know it. You aren't productive? Fucking good. Get better at that. I would definitely get these poker ideas out of your mind. It's over man. Way over. And these trading ideas you need to either prove you can do it while you still have cash or get over it as well. Still u have to produce an income to have an okay life, tell the big carbon emitter to F off not a guy like me

Yes, we have to make an income. Beggars can't be choosers. I was just down at the local Goodwill scoping it out to see if I would want to work there. It's retail and it's kind of depressing but my car needs new brakes and tires what am I going to fucking do?

On April 11 2024 12:19 lostaccount wrote: I have the opposite sex in my life but I’m talking to rikd about relationship lol not gonna listen for most part. I don’t listen to rikd shit a lot of the time haha

I'm not going to listen?

It's an age old question and I think that relationships before sex are stupid and naive. I never said I was against relationships. The best way to get over a breakup is to date new people or at least one of the ways if you are up for it. The best would be a 5 day bender in Las Vegas even though I don't do that anymore.

On April 11 2024 12:28 lostaccount wrote: I have different goals n purpose then u rikd and we both are right

I have no goals and no purpose it's easy to be different than me but in reality most people are me they just won't admit it to their consciousness. Or, really, their goals and purpose are rather flimsy when compared to the universe and immortality. Humans want immortality and to matter but they don't when compared to the universe. That is why terrestrial relationships with family, friends, and The Other matter so much. We are basically nothing without them.

On April 11 2024 20:42 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On April 11 2024 12:28 lostaccount wrote: I have different goals n purpose then u rikd and we both are right I have no goals and no purpose it's easy to be different than me but in reality most people are me they just won't admit it to their consciousness. Or, really, their goals and purpose are rather flimsy when compared to the universe and immortality. Humans want immortality and to matter but they don't when compared to the universe. That is why terrestrial relationships with family, friends, and The Other matter so much. We are basically nothing without them.

find goals find purpose find ur fulfillment

I went for a walk today. Exchanged Hellos and smiles with this smoking hot chica. She was wearing a Pink Floyd shirt. Spring time it is. The Other is in the air. Is that a purpose lostaccount? I just want to live a good life.

Yes, connecting with people can be a purpose

Making genuine connection gives us happiness

In Today's world it seems like everyone puts the onus on the individual to be happy. What about society?

It's like that rat experiment. You put a rat in a cage alone with cocaine and it overdoses almost every time. You put a rat in a happy rat park and they almost never overdose on the cocaine.

Happiness is such a loaded word though because it's not even close to a permanent state of being.

No idea

On April 14 2024 18:22 RiKD wrote: In Today's world it seems like everyone puts the onus on the individual to be happy. What about society? It's like that rat experiment. You put a rat in a cage alone with cocaine and it overdoses almost every time. You put a rat in a happy rat park and they almost never overdose on the cocaine. Happiness is such a loaded word though because it's not even close to a permanent state of being.

From a happiness level I’m a 6/10 cause of things

But my happiness is up n down, 2 being the lowest n 11 being the highest so average out at 6.5

Rn it’s a 6.23777

Gratitude level is infinity

rn im a 7/10 lol