Purple Peppers Picked By Patricia - Page 2

I uninstalled Discord and de-activated X. Good first steps.

Today wasn't too bad. No real urge for Discord or X. I'm considering checking out nostr. I basically just read more today which is a good thing.

I met 2 friends at 2 different time today went to stanley park again n some other park. Meh can’t complain I ain’t doing a job I hate

On August 07 2024 03:40 lostaccount wrote: I met 2 friends at 2 different time today went to stanley park again n some other park. Meh can’t complain I ain’t doing a job I hate

Sometimes it is nice when the boredom is coming on to just sit in it for a while but I have decided to listen to rave music and come to LP. I really have no desire to go back to X or Discord. I just have a desire to do something during that time I used to spend on there. I need the real thing. Listening to this song I had the thought how great would it be to take some ecstasy and really enjoy it but that is stupid. What I would really want is one of the raves from my past live in person. While magical that is a short lived event and not worth risking my sobriety over.

I'm having one of those days where I've had enough of the reading and the walks. I just want things to be easy and my job search has been anything but that. "I ain't doing a job I hate." I ain't either but I need to be and that is really, really, exceptionally depressing.

I remember one time I went out with one of my best friends and his friends group. Just some upscale bar kind of place. There were attractive women everywhere. I didn't know where to turn, literally everywhere. One of his friends took a liking to me. We had met before and I was in Dionysus mode God himself mode. She was smoking hot and in medical school and just an all around cool chick. I felt that my friend resented me for this and maybe even liked her himself. Fast forward 10 years and my friend married a hot doctor, is a top executive at a large engineering company, and has a wonderful family. Maybe now I resent him! But, no, this guy is a great guy and truly deserves it all. Through some form of logic this may mean that I am a terrible guy and deserve all of the pain and misery in my life. Sartre says we are the sum of our actions. Could I have done a better job on my job search? Sure, but the lithium toxicity was a curveball and being afraid to drive places was a major curveball.

The New York Times largest shareholders are Vanguard Group Inc. and BlackRock Inc. How am I supposed to trust this media?

Nostr is all the random scrolling of any social media except I don't know anyone.

On August 06 2024 04:48 lostaccount wrote: What a life we have rikd, we have a lot of stories

I would trade stories for other things

I don't know rikd, we should just be grateful for our experience on earth hence im leaning towards a kid but im still not 100% sure

I value experiences highly. I value experiences over materal things. When the money is flowing the experiences are flowing unless you are stuck in work all day, all night, weekends. One thing I did in my 20s is have the right amount of money for the freedom to experience. Early 30s I actually did a good job even if that meant just going to the diner with friends all night. But, now that I am so broke, broke my experiences are lacking. It feels like I am confined to my bedroom. My experience only comes from books. Liquidpoker is the last thing I have left after swearing off all of the social media, discord, reddit, etc. I still have YouTube. I don't use it that much.

It's me and you lostaccount. We have to keep the banter interesting on here. I do want to quit this website too but I want a firmer handle on not having everything else first which also means I will probably push things here that are a bit unneccessary. Imagine only having Liquid poker available out of all of the websites possible? I will be posting stuff that is pushing it. I'm trying to create something from thin air to make my life more interesting but it is only you lostaccount who may or may not respond. Like I said, maybe I'm not that creative. I could be thinking of ways to get out of the house but instead I trap myself at my computer writing drivel.

all good rikd