Pushit Out - Page 12

- Fitter
- Less poverty
- More eugenics projects?

Time to bring some culture to the blog:

There is no action on here. Let's create some.

Let's say Finland sterilized 100,000 of the undesirables how much of an effect would that have?

Poverty clearly has an effect. If you can't afford beauty products and are stressed all of the time you're likely sunk.

For women especially it is important to be in a range of body fat % (15-30%) in order to be attractive.

I am just trying to kill some time while this pear digests that I ate with my lithium. Next up on my to read list is a Hyusmans. It's French. I have no idea how to pronounce that. "Usma"? It's my first Hyusmans. I did some research to find the best translation. The main character from Submission by Hoellbecq was a Hyusmans scholar. I could be spelling both of these names incorrectly. My French is like lvl 2 DuoLingo French. I also got Brief Interviews with Hideous Men by David Foster Wallace. I've also never read an Oscar Wilde so that is on deck.

My basis is reading and walking. Always has been. At least when I'm unemployed. Then there are other things I get excited about and then lose interest. Right now my obsession is Rick Owens. Fashion shows put me in a trance. I'm also finally reading a book on Brutalist architecture I got a while ago and a book on Le Corbusier that I finished earlier today. I'm out of the running for being an architect at this point but I am fascinated by it. That is one of the occupations that I thought about doing as a child. I took drafting classes and AutoCAD classes in high school. I was ok at drafting and better at AutoCAD but it didn't quite resonate with me. It doesn't seem like anything resonates with me on a long timeline. Except for reading and walking.

On November 17 2024 03:02 RiKD wrote: There is no action on here. Let's create some. Let's say Finland sterilized 100,000 of the undesirables how much of an effect would that have? Poverty clearly has an effect. If you can't afford beauty products and are stressed all of the time you're likely sunk. For women especially it is important to be in a range of body fat % (15-30%) in order to be attractive.

Weight all depends on height and bone density.

I'm 5'11 or so and weigh 155 pounds, which is the most I've ever weighed. I have a thin frame.

My ex girlfriend is 5'7 and weighed 125 pounds, which was perfect for her frame because she had great tit's and a nice ass, but wasn't fat. She had the ideal body for most American women, but it was average and maybe a little thick compared to the other women in her hometown of Minsk.

Time to find a new woman PuertoRican.

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I hit the gym pretty hard today. Back day.

I think I'm gonna do a split like this:

- Chest / calves
- Back
- Day off
- Shoulders / triceps / biceps / calves
- Legs
- Day off

Black metal or hard techno in the gym.

I've got a world of problems. Life isn't fair. I'm trying to do the right things. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. Like I just want to sleep or cry. I haven't cried yet. Not sure why not. It feels better to blast off in the gym.

On November 17 2024 03:02 RiKD wrote: There is no action on here. Let's create some. Let's say Finland sterilized 100,000 of the undesirables how much of an effect would that have? Poverty clearly has an effect. If you can't afford beauty products and are stressed all of the time you're likely sunk. For women especially it is important to be in a range of body fat % (15-30%) in order to be attractive.

the sterilization law for the mentally ill was repealed 1970 i think. schizophrenics couldn't get married till 88, which was the year i was born. even deaf people couldn't get married for whatever reason lol.

Where am I?

Where was I?

I may only be able to talk about books. I could talk about my training session today. I was scheduled to do legs but there were people everywhere. I ended up just rowing on the rowing machine for 10 min. and leaving...

Did I mention I finished Death's End? Not sure. Brilliant book and trilogy. I definitely suggest it.

After that I went with an Huysmans which I found out is pronounced like "Ouis-mauns." The book I went with was Against Nature. I got a lot of joy out of reading this book even though it is about nothing basically. If you don't want to read about a guy who isolates himself from society and makes like perfume to keep him going and re-arranges his book collection and then tells you about all the books, etc. There were parts of the book that really made me quite happy but I didn't need a laundry list of French author critiques that I don't know. I don't think I would just blanketly suggest this to LP but some might be interested and hell, give it a go.

Huysmans has me intrigued so I am picking up The Damned (La Bas) and it will be here tomorrow. My secret library did not have a decent translation so I went with the best which is paperback only and will cost me a bit of money.

I also read Oscar Wilde Salome which was a short play but good.

I am currently reading Brief Interviews with Hideous Men by David Foster Wallace. I like a lot of the stories. Some are kind of meh. I would expect the quality to be high as he wrote these and published it 3 years after Infinite Jest.

But yeah, there it is. At a base level it is still about reading and walking and now lifting. I think I am probably getting enough protein. .5g of protein for lb. of bodyweight is a little more realistic than 210 g of protein. That is 40 grams of protein over 5 meals which is a fuck ton. That's not reasonable for me. I need a day off tomorrow so I can really get after it next week. I need to actually schedule a workout instead of just walking around the gym deciding what to do. It becomes impossible to get a training session in when there are other people there doing things.

I've been listening to the hard techno for my volume workouts. I like it a lot. Keeps me going.



I think I honestly wouldn't mind looking like this guy but he might not even lift weights. Just super good genetics Brad Pitt in Fight Club look. The muscle insertions are crazy. He probably just rolled out of bed this way one day. Cigarettes and low food diet. I shouldn't get too hung up on it. It would be impossible for me to recreate that look I think. I'm just built different. Back when I was like 28 I was close to that but not that low body fat%. He still has aesthetic shoulders, chest, and abs are ridiculous.





I like that aesthetic. It would still likely take years to reach an aesthetic like last 2.



Again, we are talking years of training here and I'm over 40 and I'm in the worst shape of my life besides when I was 260 lbs. earlier this year but what I am finding is I am not in shape just because I lost 50 lbs. walking and starving myself.

I used to compare myself to this:





I guess I still compare but I can only do the best that I can do.

he has a nice body, but dude looks like a dork. i dont understand fashion shows and stuff like that. i understand that some things are going to be fashionable for the average folk, but whats the point of these faggots wearing something that nobody would ever wear?

It's just art / avante garde shit aka nerd couture shit. They love to fuck with form and silhouette and make that segment of people jizz their pants. Whether the designer intends it or not it is a form of marketing the product.

I always say this when I am lifting but I have to do something to remember that I always feel better when I am lifting versus not. A part of me thought that once I hit over 40 that I would just give up on that but I think it's more important to lift at over 40 then any other age except if someone is gunning to be a professional athlete. I am not lifting heavy yet by any means but I still get all the benfits of lifting.

Obviously no one is wearing this out of the house.



Again, I love the proportion. We get it. Wide shouldered jacket and chunky pant bottoms or boots.



This would be what someone would actually wear:

guy looks like he does a lot of coke lol

Coke and gay sex. That's the secret.

Pass, but I like some black liquid lol

what is black liquid?

Just chillin' in the crib listening to some Eprom:

On November 28 2024 00:21 RiKD wrote: what is black liquid?

coca cola lol

I don't know where I'm at to be honest. From far away it looks grim but the day to day is ok. I'm thinking about having a goth season. In high school I always kind of liked the goths. I was wearing Polo Ralph Lauren and Ambercrombie & Fitch to try to fit in but I was just a nerd. Not too nerdy. I got good enough grades without putting too much work in which worked in my favor. I was also good at sports. I used to talk to the goths about music and professional wrestling. I was lucky my parents had money.



If only I had money to paint. A good enough studio and some supplies.

I guess I still have literature. I finished The Damned by Huysmans. That's a damn good novel. I started on American Psycho by Bret Eaton Ellis which has started off great. It's not the same escape that creating art holds but I'll take it.

Let's get back to the goth season:

New Rock Boots



Fuck. I don't even know what else goths wear. BLACK. That is pretty obvious. Any former / current goths on LP?

I think JNCO jeans were in at some point in my childhood. Band t-shirts. Uncut hair. Sometimes eye makeup.

The big thing is I want to get dressed up and go to raves and parachute molly. What do the kids do now a days? Ketamine? I think I'd rather do molly. I'm hoping I could pull off a vibe like techno viking than weird over 40 dude.



How many mid-life crises can someone have?



I want to be an old, strong fucker



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I have to figure out what I am doing with my life...