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On September 16 2024 02:12 RiKD wrote: Show nested quote + On September 15 2024 17:01 lostaccount wrote: sell the car, take transit, get a job n profit? Transit is not an option where I live.

It’s not an option cause u don’t think it’s an option, 15m isn’t even that far but gl rikd. If driving isn’t an option then Get a motor bike?

There are always solutions to problems u just have to look deep to find them cuz suicide isn’t one of them

Suicide is a solution it's just terribly final. Death is scary. Life is full of possibilities both good and bad.

Eating a little bit of plum cake and drinking some hot tea listening to Erykah Badu the Earth almost feels right right now.

RIP

<3 Samurai Champloo

On September 16 2024 17:12 RiKD wrote: Suicide is a solution it's just terribly final. Death is scary. Life is full of possibilities both good and bad.

its not a solution, you are gonna reincarnate again until you figure out how to love life. pray rikd trust me it helps

On September 17 2024 10:00 lostaccount wrote: Show nested quote + On September 16 2024 17:12 RiKD wrote: Suicide is a solution it's just terribly final. Death is scary. Life is full of possibilities both good and bad. its not a solution, you are gonna reincarnate again until you figure out how to love life. pray rikd trust me it helps

Kk life sucks being broke so gl rikd

lol not really but broke living sucks

No hard feelings. You just came out strong with the reincarnation and praying stuff and I am a bit allergic to it. Tried to add some levity to the situation with one of my favorite movies.

Broke living is definitely not fun. At least I have gotten some important stuff done this week. It seems to never end though and I'm still jobless.

Yea none taking I am just enjoying life with what I have . I will start grinding again soon when I’m bored of life. Nice weather and all today, good day for golf but I’m just listening to music n meditating haha

I have to write because I have to get these thoughts out of my head but I'm obviously not sharing everything. It would likely be mundane either way.

I settled a prescription drug issue (for now). I think a health insurance issue is settled (for now). Of course, I am still jobless and broke. This is all reallly annoying and banal shit to go through and it's probably no different to read about it.

So, I am just sitting here drinking some tea and listening to Burial hoping things get better. When I read things get better (for now). When I write things get better (for now). I'm really just trying to get to a state where I can get some sleep (escape) with out being tormented by nightmares.

Where is the joy? I don't think it can be forced. There is probably nothing I can write that will be entertaining. A short story perhaps that no one will read. I am thinking about writing another novel. The first one was fun but I'm stuck and it's probably going to stay unfinished. I don't want to end it with everything dying to nuclear annihilation. But, if I write another novel with no gameplan I have a feeling it will end up like the first.

Just had a breakthrough in my novel. I wonder what I could do if I just cut out LP completely?

On September 19 2024 01:16 RiKD wrote: Just had a breakthrough in my novel. I wonder what I could do if I just cut out LP completely?

You would have nowhere else to share your thoughts.