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MARSHALL28   United States. Mar 02 2025 00:13. Posts 1904
I don’t know how many guys from 10-15 years ago still visit these forums. I sure haven’t posted here in a long time. About 10 years ago it seems. Since ChatGPT is now getting extremely good at researching topics, I was curious to ask it what it could find about “marshall28”.

As a result, it led me down some rabbit holes and as I was reading things I said in the past. Looking back at the ways I spoke to others, and just the many random cringe things I said, I’ve been forced to reflect on the type of person I was.

If I was honest enough with myself back then, my explanation for acting the way I did was that ‘I never felt like I got the respect I deserved.’
Looking at it now though, it’s quite a bit worse than that. Everything I said was some sort of attempt to manipulate others into respecting my abilities. I felt that I needed to be validated by other people, that what other people thought of me was as important as anything. Looking at the way I would just insult swaths of people (or anyone really)—which I’d basically never do today—I can just see how attention seeking I was in a way that I tried really hard not to look like I was attention seeking.

I was clearly very desperate and insecure.

The funny thing is, if anyone knew me in person, they knew that I didn’t act like I would on these forums or on 2p2, however, that fact doesn’t make it any less of a massive personality flaw that took years to work through and overcome.

Over the years, mostly in my personal life, I’ve had so many people take from me, or just use me, and I finally had to come to terms with the fact that we all are just doing what we think is best at the time. I realized that holding any grudges against any of these people, even ones who had done things others might deem unforgivable, was just harming me. As a result, I’ve learned to no longer hold anything against anyone.

So, I rubbed a lot of people on here the wrong way. It’s totally fair to think whatever you’d like of me. It’s not really my business what anyone thinks of me anyways, and if you are one of those I’m speaking to, I think you probably had a good reason for feeling that way. We’re all just learning as we go along.

I don’t hold anything against you, or anybody anymore really.

Hope everybody is doing well and wish you best of luck.


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lostaccount   Canada. Mar 03 2025 09:31. Posts 6306

hey Marshall I don't think anyone holds any grudges lol we are too old for that now, I never had a grudge with u. good times in Vegas even though u busted the main event was fun. GL in life bud

la belle vie the good life zui hao ming 

MARSHALL28   United States. Mar 04 2025 02:08. Posts 1904

Thx lostaccount. GL to you also.

A lot of time has passed. I wonder how many people still come to these forums compared to back in the day. Looking back, some of these blog posts I made, they had like 3k-6k views which seems like a ton in retrospect.


RiKD    United States. Mar 04 2025 06:07. Posts 9212

Not many people come to these forums anymore. It's mostly lostaccount, PuertoRican, myself, and there are still some lurkers or others who post occasionally. Also, occasionally someone will stop by out of the blue like yourself.


Baalim   Mexico. Mar 05 2025 01:45. Posts 34286

what did you ask chatpgpt?

Ex-PokerStars Team Pro Online 

MARSHALL28   United States. Mar 05 2025 04:06. Posts 1904

lol. Nice to see you baalim. Hope you're doing well...

I just asked "search the web and tell me everything you can find about the identity, personality, playing style and level of success of poker player 'marshall28'." and I used the deep search feature.

Of course, it confused me with CSURAM88.


RiKD    United States. Mar 05 2025 21:52. Posts 9212

How did you find out you had low testosterone? What did you do about it?


MARSHALL28   United States. Mar 05 2025 23:07. Posts 1904

I was watching some youtube video where they were listing off the symptoms of low T and I realized that each of my main issues were essentially read back to me verbatim. I did know back in 2017 my levels weren't optimal, but they weren't so bad that it stopped me from living my life. By 2022 or so, they were and I lived that way for like almost three years until I figured it out.

I mentioned in the thread on "do you still play poker" a few of the things I did. I also have like 20 or supplements I'm taking daily now, and before I started taking the supplements I had no motivation or energy to lift weights and I actually never lifted weights my entire life until literally 4 weeks ago or so I started doing it and I've been going 3-4x a week since then. So, always sleeping and waking at the same times. Facing the morning sunlight for 30 minutes. Tons of supplementation, And regular weight lifting. I'm still not even completely better, I'm maybe barely half way from where I started to where I am trying to go, but I notice a huge shift already just in my overall mood and motivation.


RiKD    United States. Mar 06 2025 01:12. Posts 9212

I don't know if you want any suggestions but my suggestion would be to talk to a doctor and get your testosterone level tested.

I am not a doctor but:

always sleeping and waking at the same time = good

facing the morning sunlight for 30 min. sets circadian rythm = good

tons of supplementation = probably not doing much besides vit d, vit b, and maybe magnesium

regular weight lifting = good but probably does not effect testosterone that much (will raise with intense workouts and naturally drop back to baseline). Overtraining can actually lower testosterone. Being between 10% - 20% body fat % is good for testoserone levels. Obese is terrible. Being super lean is also bad.

It's easy to get it checked. 300 ng/dL - 1,000 ng/dL is a normal range for someone who is 40. If you are less than that you can probably get testosterone replacement therapy which will get testosterone levels into a normal high range. I have not personally done this but would not be against it if my testsosterone levels were below 300 ng/dL. I would also not suggest steroids because they have crazy side effects.


RiKD    United States. Mar 06 2025 01:24. Posts 9212

This was a gamechanger for me too. The other aspect of motivation, drive, and satisfaction is dopamine. Dr. Andrew Huberman is I believe a nueroscientist at Stanford. His workout stuff is questionable but this one is right down his alley.


MARSHALL28   United States. Mar 09 2025 03:14. Posts 1904

Thanks. I was 12-15% BFP from 2013-2022. I'm 22% BFP now, and I've actually been eating keto for like 4 months straight yet still couldn't lose the weight which was shocking. It's seeming like potentially it could be a hypothyroidism issue contributing to the inability to lose weight. My testosterone is definitely rising though with everything I've been doing, I guess when you have unhealthy lifestyle habits for 2 decades, you can't just turn a new leaf and have everything go back to perfectly optimal within two months time! Here's to things turning around by May. Thanks for the information.


RiKD    United States. Mar 09 2025 23:10. Posts 9212

Seeing a doctor would remedy a lot of your problems. ChatGPT can't solve everything (yet).

Keto is really a shit diet. I lost 40 lbs. on it but it wrecked a lot of health markers. Only thing that really worked for me was avoiding highly palatable foods. It's really no fun but fried chicken, ice cream, McDonalds has to go. Whole food plant based is the way. I can't really say vegan anymore because there is so much vegan junk food that is shit. If you are bodybuilding study macros and just make sure you are inline with that. At 22% bfp you could go for a recomp that gets you in the 10%-20% bfp range and gets you some nice muscle. This in line with your sleep / circadian rythm gains and you would be looking really good in May.


RiKD    United States. Mar 10 2025 04:00. Posts 9212

Jeff Nippard has good content. He is a natural bodybuilder who takes a science based approach.



I don't know what your goals are at 22% bfp but you could easily do a body recompisition versus going on a diet to cut fat.


MARSHALL28   United States. Mar 11 2025 22:21. Posts 1904

It's funny you keep recommending seeing a doctor. Listening to doctors was a significant reason contributing to why I became as sick as I was. I went through such an ordeal with stupid doctors and their BS that I ended up writing a whole book that I called "What Your Doctor Doesn't Understand About Health." Personally, I think it's pretty groundbreaking, but the truth about how our bodies work is just very hard for a lot of people to believe. One guy did figure it out about 20 years ago and he came up with a whole new medical field that he called "The Germanic New Medicine".

In any case, most things doctors think are true turn out to be false and they are essentially glorified drug dealers who don't intend to cure any illnesses in reality, but instead intend to get people hooked on expensive prescription medication intended to mask your symptoms forever and keep you as a repeat customer for the pharmaceutical industries (which all control the AMA as well as most medical schools and textbooks, etc.)

I don't see any problem with keto, I ate it for nearly 10 years and kept a very lean physique as a result. I basically never eat fast food, sugar, or anything breaded. My ex-girlfriend ate vegan for like 5 years or something and developed eczema as a result. I also find big issues with any of these 'impossible meats' plant based type foods.

The reality is that our beliefs influence our bodies and our reality, so it's more important what we believe about our diets than what our diet actually is. And this place being a loosh farm, it definitely makes sense that meat should be a staple of our diet since everything in this place feeds off of something else to live.

Thanks again, will definitely check out this video of the guy going from chubby to shredded in 12 weeks, that seems interesting. At any rate, if there is a hypothyroid issue, it doesn't matter what I do, that has to be resolved first before my body will even be willing to make those kind of changes. Have a good one!


PuertoRican   United States. Mar 12 2025 06:43. Posts 13174

Good luck in the future

Rekrul is a newb 

Stroggoz   New Zealand. Mar 29 2025 08:43. Posts 5360

I remember saying some things that weren't nice either.

Water under the bridge at this point.

Good luck to you.

One of 3 non decent human beings on a site of 5 people with between 2-3 decent human beings 

 



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