I hate my life

sounds like its pretty obv what you should do. get a goal (eg. 1million in 5 years in the fastest way possible), get fired up about it, apply all your skills and research to this goal.
but your blocks are lazyness, ego and old habits. well there are books about them too, but eh, its gotta start with you to some extent...

the president heh? wow

nah you seriously look very depressed, I can't kick you while your down but your personallity is quite interesting. one day you feel like you were blessed with a gift (your mind) and have a huge ego and the other one you call yourself a loser and a worthless person. to me it just looks like you actually have no clue who you actually are and what you want in life. the latter part isn't all that important at our age, most of us have no idea anyway, the former one matters a lot though

While my ego is probably just as huge as yours, I also think I'm way smarter than your average kid.... I would still never make this kind of post after all the advices you've been given, it was your motherfucking choice to ignore them and to go out and party cuz It makes you so much cooler doesn't it?

I now go out since I have more free time, no need to play poker as much since I make decent money (I think), and guess what? I can pay a shitload of drinks to everyfuckingone without giving a shit about the money, I hope you'll take this advice seriously now, get to fucking work, start fucking working while you build yourself a fucking roll and don't fucking MAKE ANY CASH OUTS UNTIL YOU HAVE AT LEAST 5 000$.

If you don't follow any of these, all you will have mister smarties is your broke self along with your huge ego having to work for someone else's dreams.

that said, Good Luck.

You sound like me a few months ago. I left school at age 17 to go to university in 2006, and decided after completing a semester that it wasn't what I wanted to do. So I spent the better part of 1.5 years playing games in my parents house. Not really proud of that one, but I finally applied for a job and got an interview which I aced. My mentality is kinda like you in that I am smart and I know it, but I'm too lazy/halfassed to commit to anything and see it through. My whole life has been like that. I didn't even finish high school because I knew I could easily get into university. I finally have some goals though, and they define my life. Really, people say goals are important, but for me they are so important I would not have a reason to live without them. I've never known what I wanted to do after leaving school (even though I thought I did) so I spent a lot of time procrastinating.

Basically, just get a job that you can tolerate (enjoyment is too much to ask for) and continue playing poker. You probably make more money than I do. Establish a set of goals. I personally want to move to Australia with some friends after saving up some money. Your set of goals will define how you live your life.

listen, as much as i hate this advice, its very true. the things u have before u, and where u go from here are only what you make of it. something isnt going to drop on ur doorstep, u are going to get what u make of it. if poker is going to be a means of income for u, and u wanna excel @ poker, lose this im better than everyone else attitude cuz its bullshit. quit taking random stakes from people. deposit 300 dollars, and grind 6.50 SNGs, within a week of constant grinding u should be able to move to 16 and 27s with basic knowledge and sense of SNGs. then just do that for a few more months til u get ur feet under you and get ur shit straight then move to cash games and try to learn. post hands and ask for advice. u may be a v smart person, but obv the way u go about things now arent working for you. also only u are going to be able to work on ur tilting issues/ w/e reasons it is u lose. i saw u sit w neilly @ NL100 when u werent that rolled for a lag HU battle and dropped 2-3 BI. all anyone in this thread can do is give u advice, but until u make a conscious effort to change it rly doesnt matter what we say.

endless vacuum

find jesus

roll with the punches

you may be smarter than the average person in this world but this doesnt entitle you to win at poker. Every winning poker player (except some luckbox donkamentt winners) are smarter than your average person in this world.
It doesnt seem like you want to win at poker bad enough.
Gl man but i really think you have to give poker a break.
You have played poker for 3 years and still havent progressive much.
I know you said you dont want a real job but i suggest you get one.

go back to school and get a degree. any college degree> hs diploma

You obv dont realise it but getting a job is the best thing you can do and its the smart thing to do in this situation (and your previous situations, think about it). If you EVER want to win decent money from poker you need to get other income supporting you while its still in its hobby stage which you've never gotten out of properly imo. Imo you should focus on becoming great at something outside of poker and just keep poker on the sidelines to see what develops.

check out narcissistic personality disorder, you definitely have it, not joking, cause i have traits of it as well

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_personality_disorder

I'm definitely narcissistic but I'm one of the most empathetic people I know or, maybe i'm so narcissistic that im blinded and not really empathetic

rofl

god just looking at all of the disorders on wikipedia im convinced i have all of them

seriously, this is a pretty bad deal

you put your mind to poker, and yet you haven't "excelled"=beat?

You are not special, you are not talented, you are just another guy. I see you are just starting to figure that out. I think everyone does. Just be goddamn thankful you have friends, a warm place to stay, food in your belly and can click a fucking mouse for a living.

You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else... and we are all part of the same compost pile.

lol ggplz
but this is why when I have kids, no matter how rich I am I'm throwing their ass out when they hit 18
then take em back in after 5 years or so depending, and then help em with what they want then, not before

lol
I guess u just realized that ure a normal guy

And u cant deal with it yet.
Happens to everyone when we get older