ADD Part 3 - The Rubifen Road to Riches - Page 3

Update: Last night I couldnt really sleep, I was really tired because my sleep pattern was all off and i only had a few hours sleep before I went to see the psychologist. So i was tired, but I guess I had a lot on my mind and stuff still in my system. There was a point where I went completely numb like I had fallen asleep but was still conscious, was pretty wierd.

This morning I woke up about mid-day and took 2. Ate some food and made my Ali like return to the (NL 25 full) ring.

I ended up playing 4500 hands 12 tabling in just under 5 hours. The medication wore off some way through the session, not sure how much it actually helped me. Although I always used to want to stop grinding <500 hands in before, this time I didnt really feel like stopping, although I dropped 4 buyins before rallying back to +2.

Didnt tilt or anything and thought i played pretty well and consistent. Although i would contribute a lot of this to more mental preparation. The other night I spent like 2 hours shadowing Stealcity playing NL10 FR and it really helped get my mind ready.

So the jurys still out on whether this medication is good for poker or not. Its probably really good for live poker. Yesterday i breifly shadowed Stealcity again and watched really intently during an opponents decision during a hand lol, but then I had an unrelenting urge to play WC3 and listen to music, so I did that instead.

My WC3 seems to have improved as a result.

I took 1 pill a bit later, didnt seem to do much, I wont take another one because I think it will affect my sleep. Its annoying the instructions dont tell you when to take the pills (like "take one every X hours" it just says take 1 x 4 per day.

Its probably +ev to take less of them anyway.

Actually one thing that was different: today was the first time ever that ive played a proper session with a HUD.

Before HUDs used to really frustrate me because they would get in the way of something (like slightly block someones hole cards), or theyre kind of oddly positioned around the table and things like that would always annoy me. So today was the first time I actually played a whole session without tilting from the computer lag / stats everywhere and i didnt mind them, I made use of the stats and obv its super helpful.

I always had a problem with being thrown off by things when they didnt go as planned in my head. Ill have to ask if this is at all a result of medication or maybe its just something im more aware of now.

I seem to generally feel more peaceful on these things, like my brain has slowed down.

In the interest of science, I will have to rub one out on these things soon presumably ill watch the entire porno start to finish and read the entire legal/adult content statement at the start.

lolol

I am not sure if you've mentioned tools for organizing yourself and your time better.. Like keeping a calendar etc to stay on task for longer term things. You doing any outside medication type stuff?

now that i've read your past couple of blog posts i feel like i might have the ADD too :/

you are taking a pill that should get you off internet? Does it control the internet hormone in the body? Do they have anti-TV pill, would be way better for you :D.

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