Oddeye's Chronicles

God I run so fucking bad, I am tilted too and not playing good, but I keep playing and will keep playing. I Get sucked out all the time, or I have the worst hand and never suck out, IT SUCKS A LOT. I also get called ton when I have good hands and miss. All my draw miss, all their draw it. It's basically standard for me by now, big dif is I tilted a lot of money and I am pretty much cancellign all my activity until I can get rewin what I lost, so I'm gonna have to regrind in a bad mood for like two weeks. Arrrrrk

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Wow I mean, just wow, haven't counted but thats over 10 2-3 outter I took, full stack bad beat of course. It really make me feel sick to see it happening again, and then again, and then again AND THEN AGAIN. I know I complain a shitload, but I do carry on every time I had those sick ds I mean I've just been sucked out on basically every hand I took to showdown. Everyday I realize how much you have to be lucky to win at poker, even if you have any edge. Today was so sick in term of bad beat, people have it more sets than me going allin vs my overpair than I have just in any pot. I really just wish it was closing this year to make a fresh new start where everything I took in bad beat will come back to me, in super deep stack pot everytime.

I have a lot of envy for people who can take 10 really horrible bad beat and keep a smile on their face, cause I really can't, it makes me feel like shit. I've been winning pretty constantly when I started poker and then I felt like I was totally doomswitched, right now I really am, I've been spewing occasionally but much much much less lately and I'm taking for granted I should be winning, however it doesn't work that way. There is a random number generator that more than rarely give good result to my seat. I think my mind really got conditioned to care about result because obv they don't go too often my way.

So now I ask to the poker god, I made some freaking dumbass fish and bunch of illogical bad regs happy, give me their luck for the new year. Frankly I think it'll turn around (it sorta started to go better during december until past 2 days lol)

I'm really starting to think about coaching, not because I am losing money or anything. Simply because I want to improve my game and move up in stakes and have a better edge and logic in marginal situation, which would obviously improve winrate. So if you are a coach, I'm gonna look for information on deals and I also swear I will work on my tilt issue throught I barely tilt anymore in term of gameplay. (I'm sure I still do a bit, which I will work on actually). It's quite obvious I know the basic of the game, but I really am willing to put more time to learn the game deeper. So hope I hear about you guys soon and good luck.

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Seriously I hate variance in every possible way it. It prevent me from being happy a large portion of the time. I put in a lot of hours with focus and it keeps coming back to losing flips every god damn time. It's a good thing I made like 14k in december before today cause now theres 4k thats to some fucking horrible idiotic bad crappy and stupid fish who pulled 10/90 or worst more than once. I thought id finally post a fucking happy blog but I guess thats just me not being able to not care. Today I believe variance is pretty much the whole factor in my downswing. I particularly hate flips but it's quite obvious you have to do them all the time vs people and they always run better than me. I was thinking about getting coached to move up in stakes but everything is just once again destroyed by the stupid fucking dumbass luckboxes I hate so much that keep running good but never give back just because they luckbox anyway if they are about to give back.

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Not much to say here just that I rebuilt the 7k I lost even tho I played NL400 with 10bis lol, now I'm pretty well rolled so it's all good. I ran pretty good overall only one or two FS bad beat and sucked out at least two times. It is great hopefully will continue (not for me to suckout that cuz that would mean I played bad ;P), GL.

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Yesterday night I had managed to regrind good part of what I had lost. I am so pissed because yes I indeed lost everything again and more. I am especially pissed at running so freaking god damn bad all the god damn motherfucking time. On a side note I am aware I didn't drop limit and everyone told me to. Guess I should have expected to get sucked out every time I get it in or to have almost nut vs stone cold nut. I have at least learned not matter how good you play you'll always run bad and people will check fold every flop unless they have the nut. Should have never joined that shitty network called ipoker, it's fucking god damn rigged (probably not...). I don't fucking believe it's possible to have an hold. What a fucking crash I just went throught, it's fucking impossible to run that bad always wtf. I've not won a single AA vs KK in really really long and I've had at least 5 KK vs AA. I hate all the fucking luckbox on this site it pisses me off how much effort I can put and still lose (if you call dropping NL200 an effort... maybe I didn't do it), but fuck my patience is getting to it's limit. I've played pretty solidly for the last month and fucking getting crushed all the god damn time, just soooo many suckouts (wouldN't say perfect... but at least good).

Hope you guys win for me -_-

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I think you can clearly see by my HH I'm not doing great....

result : -4.5k today...

so I have like 5.5k left of my roll... its pretty fucking depressing I just got so much destroyed. I don't quite see how I'm gonna be able to rebuild this lol, as every fucking attempt turned out into more destruction.

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I can't say for sure how I'll run, but I only see room for improvement by now, not tilt. I know I didn't drop limit but whatever it seems I'm a bit more confident after this and almost made everything back. Still down like 1.6k but I've got 700 in RB so it's nothing huge.


This graph is yesterday + today.

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A lot of you guys are still winning pretty hard even tho the game got tougher, much respect, very far from being my case. Dropped 5k today at NL400, very hard to take, it's (un)funny I remember I was going to sit out when I had KK vs AA and decided just to try regrind it up, lost a couple of pot and down it went and very fast. Right at that point I had some tilt in me and maybe lost one or two BIs because of tilt in marginal spots. It has been I think 6 or 7 times I tried to stand up to this downswing and play good, watched some DC and CR videos to get back in the mood. Going to another site on ipoker network just went as poorly as the last one. I hope you have an idea I would really really love to able to brag about a good month or day, but there just hasn't been any. My winning days have been 1 or 2 bis, while my losing have been 4-5bis +. It's been some really hard month for me especially since poker has a direct effect on my life. I do feel incredibly pathetic to write over and over the same things in my blog but tonight was a really bad day and I just felt like writing a word about it.

It's really so unreal, like I always had huge downswing I probably don't have a sick edge or anything but god it's not changing direction at all. I would really like suggestion or help or anything but as far as everything went I've not been able to apply them.


I really just fucking can't put myself together after so many burned dollars. When I was losing at poker before I did put myself back on the track and started winning at some point. Now even if I can forget the absolutely horrifying feeling I have all the time in my mind and go play good poker, I run/play bad(whatever makes me lose) and eventually all the same pattern goes down without ever having any result to break the stupid circle.

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I wasn't going anywhere on ipoker, I dunno if I had a permanent tilt in my mind or I was just not up to the competition and blindly thought I was. Whatever it was I certainly didn't make money there. It was really hard for me to do, but I was losing too much every day and never really had good winning streak to make it back. I really don't know what's next for me, I feel pretty retarded since I had like 25k on ipoker two months ago and I only withdrew the 5k left, but I will have around 4.5-5k RB too. Really weird as I'm feeling twice as unmotivated as doing anything else than poker, I guess I will find a new hobby overtime. I would be really happy to keep playing this game would I be running good obv but it has gotten to the point where losing has taken a lot of the will and fun away.

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50% won at showdown w AA, 42% w QQ, only 60% w KK, rivered all the fucking time, just constant bs

I'm break even forever its just so fucking stupid I can see a fish sitting down and gambling and leave with more winning than I ever have and I put like 60hrs this month. WTF.

I hate this game.

I've been fed up for basically 2 month with this game and kept going on but this is getting borderline I am going fucking crazy. So much effort went to waste.

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