I'm forcing myself to make this blogpost. I don't want to forget this lesson to hopefully in the future minimize it's chances of ever happening again.
Since my last entry I've primarily been playing live. That in itself is an adventure. Before I went and played live, I had cashed out to pay off all of my bills & debts. Immediately after doing so I started to have a case of the cashout blues so I decided to switch to live for a bit. Even though I'm not properly rolled for live atm, it is completely my money (yessss!!) and when you combine that with knowing 100% how juicy the live 1/2 games are plus the online cashout blues it becomes an easy risky-yet-profitable decision. As I am not up as much as I'd like to be (primarily for getting bored and being two+ steps ahead instead of one) I did have to make a few adjustments and remind myself that even online at best I don't usually win more than 60% of my sessions in the longterm. Live rocks though and I hope to eventually do that just as much if not more than online.
I'm procrastinating from the point of this blog tho. Live is not the reason for this entry
In decided to give a shot to online again, this is my first session back.
The point I'm wanting to make is this hand and after + Show Spoiler +
Submitted by : tloapc
PokerStars Game #50783908061: Holdem No Limit ($0.25/$0.50 USD) - 2010/10/08 7:54:19 MT [2010/10/08 9:54:19 ET]
Table Meissa IV 6-max Seat #6 is the button
Seat 1: runester ($54.55 in chips)
Seat 2: ~~N!CHOLAS~~ ($56.65 in chips)
Seat 3: Indra81 ($50.35 in chips)
Seat 4: Hero ($83.80 in chips)
Seat 5: istnurgeld ($104.30 in chips)
Seat 6: taroff ($59.15 in chips)
runester: posts small blind $0.25
~~N!CHOLAS~~: posts big blind $0.50
runester: bets $3
~~N!CHOLAS~~: raises $3.50 to $6.50
Hero: raises $13.50 to $20
taroff: folds
runester: folds
~~N!CHOLAS~~: raises $19.95 to $39.95
Hero: raises $42.35 to $82.30 and is all-in
~~N!CHOLAS~~: calls $15.20 and is all-in
Uncalled bet ($27.15) returned to Hero
River (Pot : $119.30)
Showdown ~~N!CHOLAS~~: shows (a straight, Five to Nine)
Hero: shows (a straight, Three to Seven)
~~N!CHOLAS~~ collected $116.30 from pot
Summary Total pot $119.30 | Rake $3
Board
Seat 1: runester (small blind) folded on the Turn
Seat 2: ~~N!CHOLAS~~ (big blind) showed and won ($116.30) with a straight, Five to Nine
Seat 3: Indra81 folded before Flop (didnt bet)
Seat 4: Hero showed and lost with a straight, Three to Seven
Seat 5: istnurgeld folded before Flop (didnt bet)
Seat 6: taroff (button) folded on the Turn
This is the dumbest hand I have played in . . . . hell it's been so long I can't even tell you the last time. At nowhere in the hand did I even think of 89 as a possibility. I thought an 8 was possible, but I was just thinking set set draw set draw and set. I felt so incredibly st00pid after this hand that my mentality completely deteriorated. I usually let things go rather easily but after this mishap I was laughing & berating myself so much that my game immediately turned stale then completely fell apart. I told myself multiple times (outloud even) that I should just stop but I didn't as I wanted to make up for such a silly dumbass mistake. You can see just by the graph my outcome.
This session reinforced my belief in how much of this game is mental more than anything else. It's quite ironic that just a few weeks ago I was showing someone a graph where I had started out devastatingly bad and then made a comeback to completely even before calling it a session and upon showing this I had mentioned how that type of session/graph was soooo much better than it's opposite because at the finish line you have a completely reversed feeling. Truer words have never been spoken.
The moral of this post for me is primarily that I need to listen to myself; especially when I talk outloud. I am usually very good in this department if not the best but today shows that no matter who or what you think you are, anyone can sometimes fail miserably at something that's so easy and obvious to them. Maybe I could be proud I finally did stop and at least it was in the green but even now I am berating myself and that is why I'm making this post; to learn my lesson and hopefully let go
I made my last blog for multiple reasons. After making it, I had alot of stuff going on and I wanted to start updating here to keep myself focused but I decided not to do this until I got situated better and so I turned that into a mini private goal. This ended up being a wise motivating move. My end of the month deadline was for quite a lot of things, both personal and business wise, and suffice to say with an awesome finish I passed with flying colors
I made some HUGE solid steps in that month. Looking back, I felt like this was me + Show Spoiler +
I feel totally accomplished! The first huge step? I am finally out of debt!~~~!!!~!~! C O M P L E T E L Y~!#~!@
This is an amazing feeling really. After what feels like an eternity, I have finally set it up so that I am totally in the positive now. In fact it makes me so happy I'm writing the rest of this blog in green.
Not only are all my debts paid off but barring some big event, I have completed my move scenario for the time being and I think I have it setup so all my major bills should be paid off until the end of this year. You know what this means? This means the next 3 months are my best chance in a long time to actually get somewhere as far as a real poker bankroll. Time to get really motivated~
But before I go more indepth as to where I currently am and my future goals, I want to wrap up the gist of the past events. As I mentioned before, my computer died and so I've been on my laptop. This has actually been a pretty big learning event in itself as I've had to adapt and readjust in many little ways I didn't realize I was taking for granted. My laptop is far from gosu and so I've started a process of reformatting and wiping it every month or whenever it feels sluggish or slow in order to keep it rolling as efficiently as possible. I've already done it twice and I am saying this bit of info because I want to make the note here that I have not been saving any databases of handhistories and I doubt I will do so until I get a new desktop or a more powerful laptop.
Because of the last reformat, all I have of last month is the last week. I don't really want to spend much effort into explaining last month because if I start then it will take quite a bit of effort to make it come together so I will let pictures suffice instead
Sessions
Graphs
So where am I pokerwise?
I can not tell u how many times in my life I have had to start over in building a BR. I am aiming for this to really be my last time. I am actually starting off way better this time than most.
So where do I want to be pokerwise?
Well I am hoping to have til the end of the year to do this but I am going to break it down on a month per month basis. My goal for the month of October is to make a roll on both pokersites as well as make a live poker roll as well. Currently it goes as follows:
PokerStars goal = 1k
FTP goal = 1k
Live roll = 1k
This is totally doable imo tho the live roll may take a hit somewhat but I'll just have to see where the current takes me
I think that's a good enough starting update/blogpost for now
tc and gl all~
Selling a beautiful 4 month old Acer 24" 1920x1200 monitor to anyone here that wants it for $200 not including shipping costs. I will offer it here for 2 days or so before going to craigslist or Ebay and probably charging more. Will accept payments on Stars.
PM me w/ msn or w/e if interested. It's really a great lookin monitor, nothings wrong with it tho it does have a dead pixel but you don't notice it unless u hunt for it or have a pure black background.
and within one month amongst numerous other things he has...
*made a 30 thousand increase of troops in Afghanistan
*created almost 1 trillion dollars (u do realize that's 1 trillion more dollars out of thin air and more into the negative right)
*added an additional 17 thousand troops to Afghanistan to the first 30 thousand
oh yes good job
the future is being setup for a GREAT success
it's just to bad your name isn't on the invitation list to the party
enjoy your $400 and smile
I leave this blog with a similitude question to you.
Which would you choose, the red pill or the blue pill?
A good start for any actually wanting to get a clue or education about what is really going on financially... This was 21 years ago and you will hardly if ever see stuff like this on mainstream tv nowadays.
If you take the time to listen and learn what this man is saying...you could learn a lot and hopefully get on the right side of the tracks before the train comes and the middle class is completely gone
This is the ONLY politician I see or hear that I trust and and the only one being honest with himself while actually giving thought to THE PEOPLE besides himself/family/corporations.
That first video was his predictions in 1988, and since he was right, I've found you guys a more recent and much shorter video so you can know what to expect.
This was Feb 2009
The future is in your hands
I can't say it enough times, security and freedom is not the same thing
Actions speak louder than words
I really hope Obama isn't assassinated or we will never learn our lesson
I'll be honest and start him with a fresh clean slate as soon as he swears in
So let's see what happens shall we
Some food for thought ---------------------------------------------------------->
A really good read --------------------------------------------------------------->
What I’m really interested in is how to get from where I am to Liberty, and I will gladly join up with other Americans who are willing to submerge all their differences and create an organization that has one and only one aim: LIBERTY. That means Liberty for me, for you, and for everyone else. That includes people we disagree with on all sorts of issues. If we understand that Liberty means that you choose your own governance and I choose mine, exclusive of interfering with one another violently, then we can unite under this one banner: LIBERTY.
The idea that we should be free to choose our own governance is a radical idea, the most radical idea in political history. It is an idea that the Founding Fathers shrank from. They still thought in terms of a single national government. Their main compromises with Liberty were to suppose that Liberty could be attained via a single limited government and, in fact, that this government was necessary to secure that Liberty. Both assumptions were wrong, dead wrong. They also compromised our Liberty in a Constitution that had a great many loopholes that allowed for a truly enormous government power. We simply must surpass them and go the next step in order to bring into being the freedom to choose our own governance, and this means that there cannot be a single government over all who live in America.
This means breaking old and deeply ingrained habits of thought. Francis Bacon wrote: "The human understanding when it has once adopted an opinion (either as being the received opinion or as being agreeable to itself) draws all things else to support and agree with it." The opinion that the State is a necessary evil is unbelievably entrenched in the minds of people the world round. They cannot imagine any other alternative. Having adopted that opinion, they rationalize it with all manner of false argument.
It will take a large educational effort by many of us to smash this wall of mis-belief and replace it with a new vision.
Liberty is whole and undivided. It cannot be sustained by a dose of limited poison (the State) in its midst that is anti-Liberty and yet is supposed to protect Liberty. The poison grows and grows and eventually paralyzes the body politic. There is simply no way of ever attaining Liberty without ending government as we know it. There can be no monopoly government that is limited. There can be no Liberty with people shifting the responsibility for solving their personal problems to this government, for then it becomes unlimited in scope and power. There can be no Liberty without self-governance. This most assuredly does not mean every person becomes an isolated atom. It means the very opposite. Liberty implies the Liberty to associate with others to choose the social governance that one desires. This is the polar opposite of being made to associate in one huge group in one delimited territory under rules formulated by distant and unaccountable officials and bureaucrats.
We who support Liberty could benefit if there were a group of 10–20 million Americans who shared this common goal. We could then move toward this goal. Winning political office within the existing system is not consistent with the ultimate objective, for there should ultimately be no single State in America or else there can be no Liberty in America. But winning political office serves two intermediate objectives. The main one is educational: elect people who spread the message of Liberty, what it means, how to get it, and why we want it. The second objective is to reduce the more egregious violent acts of the State that infringe the liberties of large numbers of Americans.
I'm really not into winning elections and ruling others. Far from it. But things are looking more and more desperate in America. Police in Washington are starting to search people before they can use the subway. If a coalition of 10–20 million voters could be put together, it would shift the balance of power tremendously. Winning elections to foster the non-rule of the winners over the losers is a sensible objective.
Ron Paul, had he been nominated, would have been the Republicans' strongest candidate – easily. He could have amassed far more votes than their ticket will get. He could have given Obama a real run for his money, indeed Ron Paul might even have won. Americans have been bullied and pushed around long enough. They may be confused but they know something is wrong and needs to be put right. It would have been very easy to take Mr. Obama apart and reveal his deceits and lies, to reveal who owns him, to reveal his pet prejudices and favorites, and to show just how badly he will end up ruling with his panoply of programs. Dr. Paul had the issues squarely on his side.
So instead of that picture, we have the Republican Party choosing a far, far weaker candidate. Why didn’t Ron Paul win the nomination of his Party?
While there are many things that one can point to, I will emphasize three deep reasons. (1) Ron Paul goes against the basic ideas of the Republican Party that go back to Lincoln in 1860. He may be a Jeffersonian Republican but the Republican Party is Lincolnian. Perhaps Dr. Paul is an Old Right Republican, but they were eclipsed in the Party long ago. Republicans stand for the Union above all, which is the national State. They don’t believe in a limited State. They have stood for high tariffs, subsidies to business, and subsidies to build infrastructure. They are very weak on civil liberties. I could go on at length to underscore my point, which is virtually self-evident. Republicans routinely vote in large numbers against Ron Paul’s proposals. They don’t believe in his principles.
(2) If Ron Paul had secured the nomination, he would have vastly altered the distribution of power within the Party. It would have meant a shift from those who support the internationalist-banking-big business-militarist-fascist orientation to a completely opposite orientation. Obviously, parties are all about power and position and getting the election goodies. The Republican bigwigs could not tolerate a Ron Paul.
(3) The Republicans preferred running a weak candidate and having a Democrat win than running Ron Paul who might start a peaceful revolution. This is because they wish to maintain their duopoly of power and privilege. The Democrats and Republicans have a duopoly when it comes to political power. The fiction that the two parties differ (when they do not differ in any significant way) keeps Americans divided and constantly focused on trivial differences, personalities, trivial expenses, trivial personal matters, etc. Meanwhile the two parties have such a hammerlock on election rules, campaigns, debates, candidates, contributions, and the media, that no upstart party stands a chance. They have rigged the system entirely in their favor. For a Ron Paul to have run and exposed this system nationally for months on end would have been unthinkable. And if he had won the presidency, the members of his own Party would have been attacking him in all sorts of ways to discredit him and his views.
These are the three fundamental reasons why Ron Paul failed to secure the nomination of his Party, despite the very high probability that he would have done much better than McCain and Palin, and may even have beaten Obama.
Obama will win. I expect that he will put the economy even more into the tank than it already is. He could even make it bad enough that his re-election is doubtful, but he will blame his predecessors and argue that he has not had enough time to fix 8 years of Republican rule. He will also try very hard to solidify his coalition by giving them favors.
Despite all that, Ron Paul will become even more of a viable opposition candidate. But the Republicans will never go for him because of the factors above. Besides there will be the Palins and others who will want to have the power.
Paul’s only alternative is a third party run. He can't establish a new party because of the difficulties of getting on the ballot. That leaves the Libertarian Party. Its commitment to Liberty is very strong, but it is vague on the key thing, which is to act in such a way as to free people to choose their own governance.
If such a group were to target certain vulnerable Congressional districts and focus on getting Ron Paul candidates elected there, his voice in Congress would be given immensely more support and prominence. Moreover, a voting bloc of 25 Congressmen would hold the balance of power on many issues. Paul might run for President, but the real effort would be to get a voting bloc in Congress. Alternatively, maybe there are some vulnerable state legislatures. Instead of random shots spread out everywhere, the libertarians could focus their resources on getting 25 people elected to Congress, or maybe getting 25 legislators in key states where their vote would make them the key bloc to win over.
The main objective, from my perspective, is to attract that core of 10–20 million people who set aside all their differences and become single-issue voters, that issue being Liberty. But, as I outlined it at the outset, Liberty means that each of us has the freedom to choose out own governance. This poses a problem. Suppose the Libertarian Party wins a national election. It now runs the monopoly State. Does it then have a right to impose its visions upon all Americans? It certainly does not. If there are Americans who wish to live in drug-free communities and impose these or other restrictions on themselves, should they not have the Liberty to do so?
A Libertarian government can only act consistently with its principles by doing everything it can to free Americans. This can be accomplished by recognizing the right of any person of group of persons to separate themselves from the reach of the national government while still living wherever they choose to live. In this way, Americans can achieve self-governance without monopoly and in freedom. They can choose their own preferred methods of governance. The right to separate from a government while not necessarily separating physically and territorially (while retaining that option) is key. In this way, we can bring to fruition principles articulated by our Founding Fathers but as yet unrealized in modern America.
The only one actually saying anything true is right here. vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
ps
I put a buncha arrows for all you Obama ninjas that don't see to well on your own
I filtered the graph cuz I did something I've never done before that would totally screw up any real info...
I tried to get the bad runs out of my system
It didn't work..
so I tried a different site, that didn't work either
I <3 this game and it's totally mine in time
stayed tuned folks, the game is always far from over
tc and gl at the tables~
Today (or yesterday) was my first day back playing poker since my prop bet ended. It's funny how things work..
After the bet ended, I had no idea I was about to take a month off of poker. Wish I coulda at least called it a vacation lol - but it wasn't
I'm not making this blog to get all into that tho, so suffice it to say that life changing stuff happened; and rarely does anything ever go as planned
so pokerrr!~
I played quite a few different levels and lots of different amounts of tables today
When I first brought Stars up, I thought I could just start right out with 10+ tables and quickly realized that wasn't a good idea. So I varied it, playing anywhere from 2 to 9 tables, just to get my feel back
Even tho it's only been one day so far, it doesn't feel like the game at stars has changed at all. I dunno why but for some reason I thought it might of.
Maybe it's just cuz I ran good.
I played NL .25 up to 1/2
I planned on getting more into it but I just got a phone call and have to meet someone in 10 minutes, so I'm just gonna post the biggest winning and losing hand BB/100 wise
funny they are both at nl25 biggest bb /100 hand lost biggest bb/100 won
It's the last session for me in the prop bet
I'm 20 buyins away and I have 8 hours to make it
graph
time has flown and I learned an immense amount from this either way
the practically break even stretch that you see has me running at a total of 4 bb/100 (3.95)
I still think I can actually make it, I would just need the 65%+ hands to hold up at least half the time
so back at it I go