Hi. I'm wilswils.

let me win a 70/30

just once

thanks, ftp

-4 BI in another 400 hands today

/suicide

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BR was at 2.2k when i came home from vacation, showered and sat down to play a sesh and proceeded to get shat on in every conceivable way. Ran fairly below expectation in AI pots, and found myself getting into sick coolerish hands. But i wasn't going to let losing 5-6 BI's in 2k hands get me down, and grinded out another 4k hands of break even.


Took a day off, and started playing again today. Put in another 4.5k hands, and the first 10 hands started off with an awesome simulatenous double 2 outter on 3 tables, fastest -3 BI ever. But i've gotten to the point where i have to think, im good enough to get through this annoying downswing - just gotta keep grinding it out and my luck will turn around. Today's session i feel i played pretty well, again wasn't able to hold as a 60-87% favorite in 4-5 big 100bb AI hands, but whatever, i win in the long run if i can mentally survive it.

BR knocked down to 1750 or so. 100nl will have to wait till i dig myself out of this which shouldnt be a problem as long as my head is on right


gl all

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About to get on a flight to head to Toronto for a week of play; my flight leaves in 2.5 hrs and i'm just now starting a sesh. LOLOLOLOLOLOL

went to cas last night, broken even after 3 hrs of yo-yoing, couldnt really get any hands going.

played online, 2.5k hands, ran / played well etc etc

BR: 2050~
RB should be coming in soon, should be like 150-200~ish.

gonna play a little NL50 when i get back next week, then move on up to nl100.

whee

gl

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Learned a tonne about poker and looking back at my old whiney blog posts i cry inside.

Long story short back to grinding online..taken 500$ BR to > 1800$ in a little less than a month grinding 11$ turbos (about 250ish or so i think) and 50NL FR (9-12 tabling).

short term: 2k (not incl rb) by end of april

mid term: comfortably back in 100nl by mid may

long term: need to somehow scrape enough RB monies to finance some live poker degeneration. need about 1200$ CDN.


run goot one time prz


dont come after my blinds and cbets if u play on ftp plz D:

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Seriously, what in the fuck is going on here? I'm really trying to keep it all together but this is absolutely insane. The last 30k hands have been the most frustrating i've ever played. I cant recall all the time i've gotten run over in these past 15 days of retardedness. Seems like everything i do is going fucking wrong


I bet hard to protect my hands and end up betting my 2nd nuts into the nuts, overpairs into sets, and people just doing unbelivable fucking moves like flatting 3bets oop with garbage and check shoving with draws and getting there....

pot control lines end up getting run over on dry boards, hand protection lines get destroyed on draw heavy boards, i just cannot fuckin beat this game anymore. I'll admit it takes ALOT to make me get frustrated in poker, i have a pretty strong constitution and a firm grasp on variance in this game, but this is getting super unbelivable. I've beaten these stakes over 90k hands before, I've been sweated by a few midstakes buddies who just say "standard, youre just running bad, etc" and i've gone over my hands over and over, in medium and large wins / losses. I've cut down from 12 tables to 10, to 8.

It just seems like i keep getting myself into ridiculous situations. Today was the first "breaking point" i've had in 1.5 months since i returned to grinding poker. Session started off innocently enough with a set over set - that's fine and completely standard and it happens. I proceed to get set over set'd 2 more times within a 500 hand sample before i step back and go, uhhh...

Went for a walk to calm down, then proceeded to get into a bunch of brutal situations that dropped me another 3 BI within 500 hands.

i alt f4'd at this point

Anyway, i havent even looked at my HEM or stats for today's session, i just wish that this would be over. September has been insanely frustrating as far as internet poker has gone. i really should quit for the rest of this month, blegh


god ranting feels good. ignore this post its just whining.

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After a super sick last 15k hands @ 50nl FR , finally booked a couple small wins in two seperate sessions today. It isn't much, but mentally i feel i played very well, and despite a couple wrong reads in a couple huge pots where i made some mediocrely -ev plays, namely:

Flatting a 3bet from a very liberal blind defender with 79cc when we only had 100 bb's deep, a huge huge huge huge mistake. Obv i flopped an open ender and for 79cc that's like the nuts and youre not getting away in a 3bet pot. He fires 2/3 and i flat (not too bad with >200bb stacks, but with 100bb it was a terrible move by me again), turn is a 9 and obv i get it in with my remaining stack. AA obv. I should have folded but for some reason my brain went on autopilot and i shipped him a BI when i 100% did not need to.

Another badly played hand by me was raising AJcc EP, cbetting KQ9cc, and then check shoving turn. I feel it's better to either open shove turn or bet / call turn : - he showed up with KQ and i whiffed on the river...questionable play by me -> if i shove the turn im only getting called by 2p+ ..wasn't really sure how to play, on reflection i guess i was going broke if i was betting the turn anyway.
Maybe c/c flop, c/c turn? :/ such a weak line tho



Past those two brutal spews, i'm very happy with how i played tonight's session, i had to do several out of line plays simply because of the opponents i was playing against - only one or two players really gave me trouble but i think if i spend a bit more time playing i'll be able to figure it out. i want to get back to 100nl so badly T_T




Regardless, getting over my -12BI downswing at FR was such a great confidence booster; after 9 days straight of brutal coolers and insane rollercoaster variance i finally booked a win >>

Sept graph so far:

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Played a short 1k hand session today, down a couple BI's. I dropped down the usual 10-12 tables to 6-8 and really focused on just playing with good decisions. I think i lost the minimum because i had to make a couple huge folds ; I've also started to almost stop 3betting AKss OOP and just playing it totally check fold style. I'm still 3betting JJ-AA and sometimes 1010 in pos vs some nits who will fold JJ-QQ ez.

This session just consisted of alot of me double barreling with either an OP / TPTK and getting minraised on turn or some other funky raise, which at this limit screams strength - i generally puke dump the hand at this point(LOL BALUGA THEOREM). It's getting to be pretty taxing on me mentally but I know i can beat this limit because i have beaten this limit for 6-9 bb /100 over 90k hands in the past. Just need to grind through it; but i'm not up to it mentally today. Stopping at this small loss.


off to warhammer; gl at the tables

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Long time no post. Basically decided to start blogging again just because it gives me some sort of motivation to keep going on with what i've been doing in poker. Basically i took a long break from online poker and just stuck with live for a bit, did alright netting maybe +1.8k or so @ 1/2 over 5-6 sessions (i dont play for longer than 3-4 hours a time) before i got run over in a huge session when random drunkie gamblers sat down with the max 500$ buy in and were raising blind preflop to 200$ and such. I was sitting with a pretty 800$ castle in 5$ chips (so it looked like i had alot D; ) while these azns were tossing around 25$ green chips like it was nothing (they were 5/10 regs from a big casino out of town). OBV i was a fucking idiot and decided to stick around and "NIT IT UP" , which as we all know in the cas when you're seeing 15-20 hands an hour max wasn't all that great an idea. Anyway, i ended up nitting it up for an hour before snap shoving over some guy's blind 200$ raise with 1010, he calls with 68o and flops a straight and the stack i worked for the entire night was vaporized. A 500$ profit night gone in the blink of an eye because i decided to get cute and not rely on skill or experience, but on complete and total luck. I was pretty upset with myself and went home angry that I should have just got up and left when i had the chance, and should not have stayed and gamble with the degens :<


So anyway i got home and deposited 300$ online just to mess around. I started off at 10-12 Tabling 25nl FR and realized that i had some brutal leaks from trying to outplay everyone. The first 20k hands were a breakeven mess, me just spewing stupid double barrels and semi bluffing draws out of position, and continuing once more even when i missed my draws. Totally forgetting that at these stakes, multi-barreling really isn't all that necessary with a bluff. After grabbing HEM3 and sitting down ad reviewing the 20k hands i played, i found that major leaks i had and fixed it. It was ALOT less fun being able to do "fun" moves and stuff at the tables, but hte fact that i was lowering my variance with this new playstyle meant the monies was flowing, and it did

I ended up moving up to 50nl in the next 18k hands or so (no i didnt do all of this in one day) and my first 12k hands were easy peasy. Was cruising at +10 BI's and generally feeling no stress - i had played tonnes at 50nl and just didn't feel bad or intimidated by anyone at all.

Last night i played my first big losing session in a long long time, alot of bad luck, a little bit of fatigue, and i dropped 5 BI's or so in 1500 hands. (Standard FR suckouts of course, i don't need to post bad beats here because they really dont help anything). Was kind of painful having to lose the BI's in the way i did, i wouldnt have minded if they were AAvKK situations, but they were mostly all postflop stacks; which led me to review my hands for a long time before i came to the conclusion that there was nothing i could do, opponents caught the right cards on the right streets - standard


anyway, that's basically how online has been atm, i'm sitting around 1200$ from my initial 300$ deposit a few weeks ago. No big deal, chump change but I really want to see how far i can take this before school starts and my poker time is drastically shortened. 3 weeks to get to 100nl reg status doable? Maybe, I figure i'll need around 2.3-2.5k~ or so before i start taking 1-2 BI shots at 100nl.

20 BI's in 2-3 weeks is totally doable , goggogogogogogo

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Basically decided to blog it up again because thats what has helped kept me going when i grinded hard a couple months ago, taking a 600$ BR to about 4.5k at it's high point. Swung down about 1200$ playing 100nl FR and then cashed everything out after i got bored with poker. Kept 2kish for myself and moved 1k to stars. Went insane with stars software for some reason (doesnt click with me) and xferred 1k back over to FTP. Somehow was unable to beat 50nl FR (lol) even tho i was a 4-5bbish winner for a decent sample size and got knocked down to 600 bucks.


Time to regrind through SNG's and 25nl until 1k to hit up 50nl again. This time no cashing out simply because i lost my great summer job and school is soon -.- .......need ez monies

gl fellow MS grinders!

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nope, not downswinging or anything, just feel like changing sites since i play ALOT more casual now.......was wondering how people have xferred larger sums like 3k+ to PS from FTP and such; would really really really hope i can do an $$ xfer with someone reputable. I'll transfer the first increment.


Drop a pm, and thanks!


(I'm canadian if that helps other methods >>)

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