Lemon

So while all my money is blocked due to:+ Show Spoiler +

I am helping my GF with her Marketing Postgraduate Thesis.

And while thinking about it I found a genius marketing ploy of Cher Lloyd (UK X Factor best contestant last year), who was a polarizing figure where a lot of people hated her.

Basically her first video was this thing


I was just asking myself why release this narcissistic bullshit with kiddie anthem first when she has songs like this, that are actually good:

Bitch is delusional

And then it hit me! The managers actually released this bullshit to get publicity and restart the polarized talk and attention from news, it got tens of thousands dislikes on youtube and 7mil views, and Lloyd was talked about on trash internet magazines as never before.

The song made #1 in the UK anyway today and it will be a commercial success, a cheap powerful marketing tool to summon haters and trolls just to stir attention before releasing the album and Superhero (they also 'accidentally' leaked Superhero on the internet a couple days after release of Swagger Jagger) - a song that outclasses that Swagger Jagger bullshit. Genius.


EDIT: Speaking of demonic plots. GIRAH the fucker that will hopefully go to jail is one ruthless mofo. I spent whole day following the thousands of posts on 2p2 in the scam thread as it was a huge let down as he was my role model and I read everything he wrote or said in various videos, forums and pokercasts, I really ate up everything he ever said...

Unlike for Cher Lloyd though, his decision will hopefully not give way for more successful things to come but teach him a lesson he will never forget.

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Hey what's happening LP!

I just spent a week without playing poker. Why? Well many people said I should get a side income, which I did. It's called ghostwriting, and I won't get into many details - it's basically writing on behalf of somebody else for financial compensation.

The one I did forced me to review probability, which was pretty good for poker. Stuff like

GENERAL RULE: P(E or F) = P(E) + P(F) – P(E and F)
[quote[In a 52 card deck what is the probability of queen or a heart
4/52 (queen)+13/52 (heart) – 1/52 (queen of hearts) = 16/52

or
MULTIPLICATION RULE = P(E) • P(F) • P(G) • …

E = {at least one head}
Ec = {no heads} = {all tails}
Ec consists of 5 events … tails on the first flip, tails on the second flip, … tails on the fifth flip
These 5 events are independent
P(Ec) = 1/2 • 1/2 • 1/2 • 1/2 • 1/2 = 1/32
Thus P(E) = 1 – 1/32 = 31/32

This project I did was quite stressful as I had to study a lot of it and it involved a ton of excel fiddling and forecasting and analyzing dull company accounts. It just reminded me what I don't want to do in life and why I am playing this game.



LOL Donkaments
The only poker I played in the last week was a couple $8 180 man turbo donkaments (well 3 in the whole week) I played on the side, and what do you know
Submitted by : LemOn[5thF]

PokerStars Game #64564919547: Tournament #414678283, $7.34+$0.66 USD Holdem No Limit - Level XX (3500/7000) - 2011/07/14 16:40:49 ET
Table 414678283 13 9-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: DoC.LemOn (199552 in chips)
Seat 4: LilBigKahuna (70448 in chips)
DoC.LemOn: posts the ante 700
LilBigKahuna: posts the ante 700
LilBigKahuna: posts small blind 3500
DoC.LemOn: posts big blind 7000

Holecards(Odds)
Dealt to DoC.LemOn
LilBigKahuna: raises 62748 to 69748 and is all-in
DoC.LemOn: calls 62748

Flop(Odds) (Pot : $140,896.00)

   

Turn(Odds) (Pot : $140,896.00)

   

River (Pot : $140,896.00)

   

Showdown
DoC.LemOn: shows (a pair of Fours)
LilBigKahuna: shows (a pair of Fours - lower kicker)
DoC.LemOn collected 140896 from pot
LilBigKahuna finished the tournament in 2nd place and received $264.24.
DoC.LemOn wins the tournament and receives $396.42 - congratulations!

Summary
Total pot 140896 | Rake 0
Board  
Seat 1: DoC.LemOn (big blind) showed and won (140896) with a pair of Fours
Seat 4: LilBigKahuna (button) (small blind) showed and lost with a pair of Fours

What I have been aiming for is when my play is intuitive it should always be on the tighter ABC side with lots of rules, and whenever I do something crazy and creative it must come from my rational thought process. I love FPSing and I do think I adjust better than vast majority of regs at my limits (Credit goes to Tom here, we talked just once but I keep reading the notes every pretty much week :O), but when FPS becomes part of your intuition it's the worst thing that can happen.

Going Forward
I am actually rolled to start taking shots at fish at NL100 with my 25BI, but of course NL50 will be my core limit, I got a day off today and will start slow after the break.
I will keep working on my fundamentals and solid intuitive game, I just can't wait until I finally get my intuitive solid game good enough to beat NL100+ and, and once that happens I will know I can start focusing on what I love - creative adjusting poker again.

As Longple Said when he rejected NL50-100 players for his coaching, guys like him add value only when they can make already good players better, and I have super strong motivation to get fundamentally 'good' beat micros and NL100 and get the confidence to start harassing you high stakes guys I love so much again


Peace LP

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No doubt in part because of one thing I lack very often-moderation (see my last blog post) my routine was just completely blown away.

From the maximum of the couple weeks of doing everything right I went to the standard low from a couple months ago. How?

Well, first I got ill had a nasty cold and a headache, and subsequent mucus on lungs eww, it would be gone in a couple days, but as god wanted, it perfectly overlapped with my graduation and my 86year old great aunt visiting for 4 days. Now she always supported me and she sends me letters every month giving me updates about our family and what's up in my country of origin and she travelled 1,000 kilometres alone just to see my grdatuation, we had a great time, she met my girlfriend and we travelled through Edinburgh (what a great city by the way). It also meant I didn't get much sleep because she arrived late at night and her plane left 8 am in the morning and I had to explore the city and get some graduation drinks when at the climax of the illness. On top of that my wisdom teeth started calling again, and I spent about 6 days on painkillers.


Well what can I say, my regime? Gone, and right now I got back to my old ways. It sucks when you can't go to the gym, when you can't do things to the max and worse of all if you are me, if you have any sort of excuse to get back to your old self.


last few days I even stopped writing my food diary and yesterday and today the worst symptom of being 'me' turned up. I stopped doing easy things like 'I will play now' 'I won't play until I watch 2 videos' I will go to sleep at 12:30' 'I will write my poker diary after this session' and I started to spend again some 4 hours per day, frantically pressing F5 and posting for the sake of it. Well although I learned some nice concepts, it's not what I want to do, and I don't feel in control.


Well it's time to get back on track...again


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EDIT: I wrote this in the gym while waiting for my girlfriend (She always takes 20-30 minutes to shower and do whatever mysterious female thingies females do)

I actually did a good intensity workout, breathing heavily and from there we went right to the supermarket and bought up like 4kg of fruit and veg. Tomorrow is my day without poker so I will get my head clear and I will own the Food diary again, my number one commitment that I omitted for some 3-4 days.

It's funny but very often too much poker can be harmful for me, I start obsessing and when I skip my regime, exercise and socializing i lose the protective barrier that gets built up with the increase of the important neurotransmitters, and for example today I had a NL50 session where I got hammered second time in a row, just in some 400 hands and I lost just 1.4BI but my heart started pounding heavily and fight or flight and obsessive behavior was induced along with a rapid drop in mood after losing a miniscule amount of both money and BIs. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind dwelling on some hands or concepts for very long, but I need to be able to tell myself when to stop, and when you stop doing stuff like socializing, breakfast, morning routine and generally doing things that make you feel good, your serotonin levels get low and obsessive behavior takes very little to be triggered, and I also lose motivation to get out if it and actually do the good things that are very simple to do when you think about them rationally.

Taking the first proper step out of the rut is the most important, but also the hardest thing to do, and hopefully I just made it. It took me 3 days of 'for sure I will do it' confirmation before I actually kicked my fat ass and force it to go to the gym and pool.

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So I apparently managed to find the perfect workout that doesn't leave me tired but energized, found my body needs and anti-needs and how to manipulate energy and mood with influencing neurotransmitters.

Man I felt great, so great that on Sunday after gym I felt so powered up I was jumping around the flat like a superhero at 11pm without a shirt and heating, cleaning stuff and punching air for the hell of it and who knows what else, and the same the next morning. Superheroes don't need heat and shirts right?

'Surprisingly' I snap got a cold and headache, and now I am sitting here, writing a pathetic blog on my PC, on the evening of the day of my official graduation, where not only superheroes, but even the most average Joe is getting hammered.

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Hello LP!

It's after my session, I did what I had to today so I decided to write a small update on what's new.

Monitoring
I am not good at it, and I need a more structured and categorized system, but I do it daily, and at least in the evening/next day morning when I have one of my weak times I got this form for each day and put in food, time eaten and then what I did like poker/gym/exercise. You can see the bank form here:
https://docs.google.com/leaf?id=0BwrEcqGbtyFKMDBlYjMzYjMtNGE4Yi00ODBhLTgwOGEtYTRkYmJkMzU5YmY3&sort=name&layout=list&num=50][/url]
There is also a planning sheet, where I have the week divided into days and slots, but I find it hard to use it right now, it's just too much fun doing what I like during the day to spoil it with rigid planning, but I will definitely have to start using it.


I write everything each day, and then do review once per week to look for patterns, what's good and what's not, when I was tired, energized, and I write down things that are good and that are not, you can see the list after a mere 1 week here:
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Food
In the first week it was my standard - I had about 4 hours when I actually felt good in the whole week. I binged several times, once even on vegetables - I ate so much until I felt ill, but the next morning didn't feel as bad as usual and I actually could do stuff

A great help was GGPLZ here on LP, he knows his stuff. I actually drafted two big ass PMs and they got deleted, sorry for that David.
He pointed out and I have confirmed something weird - I seem to have adverse reaction to dietary fat. Every single time I wrote down the 'brain fog' state that I often have (fatigue, fog like feeling where my eyes de-focus and it feels like I am not in my body, and I feel generally low) I have eaten more than a drizzle of dietary fat, and it happened even after eating fish and avocado and olives, or the healthy fats.

It works without fail The same reaction doesn't happen when I eat carbs, including sugar when it has low amount of fat. I did some research and there were no studies really showing a correlation between consumption of healthy fat and bad mood, but fat is what I am avoiding apart from minimal amount on stir fries and omega oil supplement in the morning, and I feel so much better on days when I manage to avoid eating fat.

I also found out I need to snap bomb myself with simple carbs in the morning to get started along with a vitamin supplement and omega oil. My GF bought some soy coconut milk with quite bit of sugar in it, and it works great to give me the kick in the morning I need.


I also eat regularly, and I have to since my monitoring sheet has columns for food and it just sucks writing down 'SKIPPED' since this is my no.1 commitment. So far it happened just once, today when I was enjoying my poker session and hand review too much (and I finished all bananas last night). After doing the review and finding about the fat as a trigger this Monday I went out of control just once when I went with my girlfriend to the city and there was this new American bistro open. One hot dog with cheese ensured that my whole afternoon was fucked up, and I followed it up with a large mocha at Starbucks, 2 double cheeseburgers and 2 fried chicken stuff and coke at McD. But the regularity is working great, and it sure does feel great to not truly binge for 4 whole days.

I also went on to follow GGPLZ's advice and loaded on fruit veg munching. Two things that I really love are mango and bananas. Local supermarket sells bananas at some £0.68 or $1/KG so they are dead cheap and a large mango costs just £.87p. I actually allow myself to eat bananas in between regular meals, as keeping blood glucose levels steady is very important for balanced mood, and bananas are also good for serotonin (see lower section).

I also try to always keep water next to my desk and drink a ton during the day. I read some literature and I am actually supposed to drink some 3L of water every day (Including that from food)

Exercise
I found a great routine that is both fun and challenging:


5 Min dressing room: think about what I want to achieve, specific exercises and imagine performing them

7 min warmup: 4 min some cardio machine, 3 min movements and stretches that mimic what I'll do in the session

20-30 Minutes: Circuits, 45s perform one, 15s break, 45s perform another one, 8-10 in total. 2 min break and go again.
The only rule is that the exercises should work large muscle groups, and include need for balance if possible. I got about 30 different things I can do from various magazines and experience, my improvisation or this workout:

This is great for weight loss, overall fitness and it's a brutal cardio. I always finish with shadow boxing with weights to show that bastard in the mirror who's boss

10 Minutes: Isolation moves into failure. This I do for fun and for that confidence boost, I usually do biceps and bench press, but I plan to add more exercises once I get bored of these two (hardly ;P). Basically you use as much weight that forces you to be unable to do 10 reps and you fail somewhere, this creates microtears in your muscles and speeds up growth.

5 minutes: ABS
5 minutes: stretching. This is well important but so easy to skip when you are exhausted. I do this in the pool sometimes, and it's always nice to go for a swim and Jacuzzi. When I don't go to the pool after session I at least use hot and cold water several times in the shower as that relaxes your muscles.


This routine doesn't fuck me up completely and gives me a good balance. I used to do 1min and 15s in the circuits but it was too much for me, so now I am hoping to just do more circuits (I can do 2 now). Doing the isolation moves and ABS after I catch my breath from the circuits also ensures that my muscles are properly warmed up and ready to pump to exhaustion.

On non-workout days I just go for a run or swim when I feel like it. On Monday I had so much energy that I couldn't stop myself but to go for a run


I also always try to do something in the morning, just 5-10 minutes to get me started. Variety is very important for me so it can be jumping jacks, sex, a brisk walk, shadow boxing, swimming etc. just something that gets wakes me up and starts my metabolism. I'd usually wake up, do the dump, put on contacts, wash my face, get some quick carb boost like the coconut soy milk or a banana and supplements and then I am onto the the small excercise before the rest of my breakfast.

Serotonin and dopamine
I did a lot of research into this, as I think lack of serotonin is one of the triggers for my overeating and compulsive behavior
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Basically you need to do the things listed and find things that make you feel good/generate serotonin and schedule time for them throughout the day. Not doing this is why you see so many poker players burnout, and it can be very hard at times. Besides eating, this is my main non-poker focus.


Poker
I had one of the aha moments in last days, when thinking about this:
http://www.liquidpoker.net/poker-forum/973442/Your_scripts_.html and observing my play and train of thought. Basically through the few years I played the game for fun and because I just love observing people and finding patterns I became completely detached from my own range and my own play and especially hand strength, and hand strenght is often very low in my thinking scripts and many times not even there at all.

I saw what I did and e.g. I called Q8s to a 3bet against an unknown, and got stacked with a retarded line. Or I spewed against a check minraise and showed river with total air. My immediate standard reaction is not ask myself what my play was, but thinking completely about villain, his motivation, how can I exploit him and adjust etc. My intuitive thought process starts with metagame, villain's range, his likely thought process, often my mood and only then there is space for constructing my own range and playing my hand relative strength. When this happens the whole feedback loop simply disappears, as I don't scrutinize my game, I have no standard and I only focus on villains.

I turned for help to a video a series I just glanced over previously, but that is so amazing for a guy like me. It's Amateur to Pro, and the student is Lee Davy. He was playing on the side of his job, was watching all videos out there and was a fan of Giggy.. and he was also breakeven FPS monkey. He quit his $100k+ job to play poker and write about poker, and the series is about teaching overall solid ABC game to a guy like him.

It builds on the following principles:
• Select cards pre-flop that have great postflop barrel possibilities (they have a lot of equity).
• Dominate others, and avoid being dominated (very important).
• Avoid marginal situations that make no money.
• Look in database, and if a hand is not profitable and you don’t know why, just remove it from your range until you find out why.

My notes on first two are here:

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UTG+MP Opening ranges
Core ATs+, KQs, AJo+22+)
• Do open 22-55 in most games
• If you are struggling, cut hands to core rangeThen add baby aces, 67s-98s.
• ! LOWISH SOOTED BROADWAYS – NOT WITH REGS! Otherwise you are being dominated too much oop

CO Opening Range
Core : (ATo+,KQo+,AXs, Suited broadways, 22+)
+ Normal guys behind - Add: Broadways, 76s+=>K8s, J9s Q9s=>75s+
+ Tight guys behind – Add: AXo, 2 gappers, KXs. Suited connected=Good.
Fish behind – Broadways, high KXo. High card –good

BU Opening Range
Core: AXs+ AXo+, 65s+ K8s, Q8s, T8s, all broadways.
Combined f to st: 140+ wide, 160+100%

SB Opening Range
70% and lower overall fold to steal: 77+ AXs+, A9o+, Broadways !22-66 SHOULDN’T BE A PART OF A TIGHT RANGE!
Cold calling range
! Cut it out, 5% no higher (VPIP minus PFR)

CORE MP: Against regs, call QQ+AK v UTG, UTG+1 (and KQs, AQs, 22+) On tables with a lot of squeezing, fold 22-77
CORE CO: 22+, AJs, AQs, AQo, KQs. Avoid calling lower broadways like JTs KTs to avoid domination

If they bet fold >50% on flop, ADD: hands that connect well and have equity often: 65s-98s, AXs.

BU vs CO: against 20%+raise;
CORE: All suited broadways, ATo+, A9s+22+, if they fold add AXs, midsc
• When a guy opens AXs, add ATo, AJo
• Against people that fold to a flop raise and cbet a lot, call a lot of 78s AXs+ raise flops, then add sc and then gappers
• Look at who is in the blinds, 22-66 can be 3bet IP when people squeeze in blinds A LOT

Blinds OOP:
• V EP: Very tight range
• V LP: Sooted broadways, ATo, AJo, 22+, C/R a decent amount, add small AXs first.

V people who fold a lot : You can add AQ, AJ
• Mid SCs are not that good
• C/R OVERS+BACKDOOR. GIVE UP ON TURN UNIMPROVED.


Sizing:
UTG, UTG: 1 – 3.5
CO: 3
BU 2.5
Isolating Limpers
Size: 4-4.5 BB
IP:
Core on MP, OOP: AXs, A8o+, 77+, all broadways, T8s+, T9o+ - top pair potential and barrel potential
ADD: If they fold a 65%+ to cbet, a lot of suited hands, AXo
OOP: Tighten up
MULTIPLE LIMPERS: Slightly stronger
!22-55 AND LOW SC SHOULD BE OVERLIMPED (Unless you know they fold a lot on flop)
-You don’t have much flop potential

Fundamentals
• Select cards pre-flop that have great postflop barrel possibilities (they have a lot of equity).
• Dominate others, and avoid being dominated (very important).
• Avoid marginal situations that make no money.
• Look in database, and if a hand is not profitable and you don’t know why, just remove it from your range.

!EXCERCISE: Open villain’s range from e.g. CO, and construct a cold calling range that is good against that

!PREPARE FOR A COACHING SESSION:
• List of hands with reads
• Stats
• Feelings
• Make a journal every day/week

It's amazing that I take a ton of notes, can feel what players think, but without thinking about my own range composition and hand strength first it's like trying to build a skyscraper on muddy soil.

I disregard the advice of many, and I play 6 tables and add more when I have energy, and what I am focusing now is not new amazing concepts, not taking more notes, not high stakes videos, not how to exploit villains with creative lines, but how to play fundamental poker with the above principles, and with focusing on my thought process always starting with 'what hand do I actually have' and then the rest . I balance the potential lack of focus by off the table work, and I do a lot of it, after every session.

I also put in a small journal just for poker, where I write down mistakes, hands, advice, successes etc. and I have it always open. It's just 2 days so far but it's nice to have this and I will include it in my weekly review (Each Monday I can't touch poker, and I just to chores, go explore Edinburgh and do review of my sheets)

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Blog
Apparently people make some small amount of money blogging? Also a couple guys on DC said that besides some future potential income a blog is like a business card. I got loads of data and let's face it LP blog is hard to categorize and for frequent updates, so I will try to find some free time to set up a professional looking blog in the future, one that's +ev to write in my free time, and I will also use it to publish my psychology research related to poker when I have time for it, and spend a couple hours per week working updating it at least with my weekly reviews. LP blog would be too crammed and nobody would read that stuff anyway

Job
As planned I applied for some part-time jobs. I want to work 2 days per week to cover my rent and avoid compulsive grinding where I don't focus on fundamentals. I am going for nothing demanding, a couple festival jobs that include meet&greet, and some customers service, and I am trying to find a manual job outside, but I am not sure where to look for those. It would be free Serotonin, Dopamine AND money
I want to do this until at least I beat NL50 for a good winrate with a solid bankroll again, and when I do and poker hourly will be near normal job I will just do a day of volunteering every week to maintain my social skills, and to also feel good and feel like I am contributing. I am far from being there yet though.


Well that's about it for the update. Next week I got my Graduation Ceremony where I will get my diploma and say byebye to University (thankfully my GF studies for Masters until October so I can keep abusing the library. I read about 5 books on nutrition and binge eating in the last 2 weeks, and there is a lot of interesting stuff there that relates to helping with poker/balanced life and mood ). I must say I am absolutely loving this, and I got loads and loads off work ahead of me, but it feels like I am on the right track and getting my life back.


P.S. One thing I have to say is that you guys shouldn't write down LP as a strategy forum just yet. If you put in the work you will get the answers, and I have to thank all you great people like GGPLZ, Tom, Gororok, Evilsky, Oly, Patti, ROb, Sunny, Sroggoz and everyone else who spend their valuable time replying to hands and giving away free advice and more. DC is good for theory and some great discussions, Pokerstrategy is paid to give professional advice, and there is a lot of stuff on 2p2 but there is nothing like LP when it comes to closeness of the community. Plus the ROFL Thread makes you feel good and it is very healthy if you spend a few minutes each day(not hours as it's a free serotonin boost. Remember, scheduling time for what makes you tick and feel good is very important

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Fuck yeah baby!
This morning they published results, and I fucking did it!
I will most likely have a 2:1 (the 'good' degree that most employers want) with like a 10% chance for a 1st, my average is like 67.7%, 1st is 70%+ and sometimes they award it when you are just under - run good one time?.

The thing I am most proud of is 78% From my dissertation, as I never put so much effort into anything before in academia, and like half of the stuff was things I never studied before, especially the psychology and intuitive and rational thought process. It was also first time I did live experiments where I had to organize everything. Also, I used MS paint for all my diagrams :D
You can read my struggle here: http://vddissertation.wordpress.com/

What can I say, it feels good man, finishing a degree with work experience in a foreign country...now I can recklessly jump into the poker thingy knowing I have this to fall back on and that I am able to see something through to the end



EDIT:I also wrote a lil' update on my planning thing and progress in one of my hands, read below if you missed it:
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I went to library to get some resources as I ran out of ideas for my brainstorming wall and apart from a great book on Sport Psychology and coaching I was looking for psychology stuff on burnout and motivation and neurotransmitters and some nutrition info and I have strolled across a book and identified one thing which is huge but I never did anything about it - Binge eating.

It's a proper eating disorder and am well inside the definition of it:
1) Reccurent episodes of in a period of time under 2 hours and amount of food that is definitely larger that most people would eat during a smilar period of time in similar circumstances.-I eat everything that's in the house, and more no matter how much there is, several times per week.
2) Sense of lack of control over eating during the episode. This includes going to the shop buying shit I don't want to buy, it's like watching myself from the distance asking wtf.

I can never keep any ready to eat food in my house because when I have one of these episodes several times per week it just evaporates.

I was doing this since my very young childhood(I was very fat as a kid) and it always had massive impacts on my self-esteem and energy levels. My mum does the same btw. I countered the fitness thing when I was 11-20 as I was playing high level sports, and when I was working and stopped working out more than 2x per week and my stress levels were high my BMI soared again to some 33 and I got stretch marks and mood swings eww, although I am not depressed or anything as I worked hard on my mental stability and very much follow Tommy Angelo's principles, it is a very serious thing and still has huge impacts on my life, especially when it comes to energy levels.

I don't have the cash for psychotherapy which would be te fastest/easiest way so I will just use books and hopefully working on high Serotonin levels that was my goal anyway for mood enhancement will help (Pokerstrategy has a sick series of articles on Neuropsychology of Poker, I can share my notes if you pm).

I am halfway through a book on this and it pretty much confirmed that I have this disorder, although I am in a very good position in comparison to others despite being heavily overweight as I am used to exercising and I can push myself easily in the gym(although I have to indtroduce more walks and active lifestyle), and I have overcome the embarrassment of my body in last couple years (I used to avoid people seeing me topless and I was embarrassed with my body even though I was in a sick good shape compared to today. The whole poker mentality made me be in peace with variance but also all other factors including my body, I feel like I have no shame almost these days, mostly because the work I have done for the mental side of poker. Maybe now you will understand why I love this game so much )

When I was sitting in a sauna yesterday and thinking about my goals, imagining myself not bombing my body with 4-6 portions in one sitting uncontrollably most days per week put a big smile on my face, and this would be the single most beneficial thing for me if I managed to eradicate it for life in general including poker, and working on this will be at the core of the plan I am working on. There is some pretty specific advice in the couple books I got (one practical and one scientific)

I know it's weird for a dude to have this problem, so you can laugh all you want, as I already told you, I have no shame anymore and I am proud of it

It would be nice to know if any of you have or had this problem and if you have dealt with it. You don't have to be overweight to have this disorder, especially if you have the imo way worse version, bulimia nervosa.

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Oh my god I miss making whineblogs so much, let's make one:
11BI in 1k hands assassination
I don't know what to write in a whine blog anymore, I guess damn you poker or something like that? it's been so long since I made one.


Anyway while I'm at it I might as well make a small update
Poka
I still feel kind of fucked from the terrible habits picked up in the first 4 months in this year where I was killing myself over finishing uni and I am all over the place really with schedule, eating, sleeping etc etc. which must be fixed if I want to get back on track. I am currently grinding NL25 and doing okay results and volume wise, I could go ahead and play NL50 with my 25BI but I need to get set with my schedule and learning first. I will try to work on my regime and schedule this week.

Personal
I am grinding poker hardcore, and I got a series of free workshops run by my university on what to do after uni, how to make myself attractive in the job market (cv, networking, interview skills, choice of career...) in the next 14 days. And I fucking need to know the results of my exams, they postponed them until 23rd and it's really painful not to know since I need closure to have a peace of mind.

Once I know I passed and get graduation over with and I will pimp up my job prospects I will be pokering , do 4-6 hours of volunteering per week, work on the psychology stuff, party and apply for jobs and attend interviews and maybe take a job eventually, but I must be 100% sure that's what I want to do and I definitely want to avoid jumping on the first thing that arises.

Neuropsychology of poker
There is a really great article and video series at Pokerstrategy on neuropsychology of poker, which deals with neurotransmitters and their impact on mood and energy and in general what to do to make yourself feel good and energized from science perspective. Goro told me to stop wasting my time with cool blogs so I make notes just for myself but I can share them if there will be interest, leave a comment under the blog


Thanks for reading LP, expect more random shit and small updates from me as I am starting once again to take this thing seriously.

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Hello LP,

Sorry for lack of updates and for going inactive on Skype and MSN in the last few months. I have summoned so much power to finish uni and had several 24hr study session and had to recoved in the past 2 weeks.

Luckily this was easy with the awesome weather in Edinburgh in the past couple weeks (Yay global Warming?) so me and my GF behaved like proper tourists in our own city and went to discover the city a bit and relax at the same time.

A cathedral down the street from us


Modern arts museum


Some arts thingy


When in a downswing, don't you worry my friend, as everything is going to be alright. If the old building says so it must be true right?


Ducks!


Everything will be alright indeed


Enchanted river


AWW!
Does it look like heart at least a bit?


Notice the alien saucer in top right!


The Meadows


Kickass cherry blossoms


Sup


Ice cream


Nomnomnom


Valentine's day - pretty cool flower bought from local flower shop.


I kind of look like a serial killer here. Beware trolls!


Sushi Jing made. And yes it tasted as good as it looks


The most awesomest, bestest looking shoes I have ever seen. Sadly I was not allowed to buy them because apparently some people can't see the awesomeness in them?
I will mourn the day I left them in the store forever.

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So long academia
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