I've just been grinding tons of CG's @Bovada and livin life, relaxing w/ family and friends @ home atm. Just load 4 and crush all day, its kinda fun, feel so much happier everyday, greeds not runnin this train anymore, just desire to win.
I have quit tournaments until at least June, then maybe re-evaluate *lost passion for them and pretty much just hate them now*
(although i do use points random MTT's, makes for good rakeback),
I'm feeling healthier than I have in a very long time, thank god, I wasn't taking care of myself for a while there...
Was nice to enjoy the sun in like our first nice spring day today in PA. Been back from Canada for like a month, not sure if I'm going to be going to LV or NJ but most likely LV, unless NJ gets the international bill going asap.
In the General discussion forum I saw a lot of outrage at what news we have been given about the state of online poker in the US etc, I wrote this there, but figured blogging would just be better since its been a while.
The US Lottery system that is making $800 billion a year (i could be way off) has joined our coalition. This is HUGE. They want to keep this wagering going 110%, they have our backs, and they make Sheldons bankroll look like peanuts. This was the best thing to happen to USA poker last week, along with New Jersey pushing through a bill for International Poker, to play with the rest of the world, the first in the states to do it, and it passed through the first senate vote.
Online Gaming isn't going anywhere, legal or offshore, its going to be played.
California is also doing everything possible to get the Native tribes to agree to ALLOW PokerstarS in California, because "that is what the players want" - we'd go there NP.
was all over pokernews.com last week.
things are battling back and forth, its like a soap opera, just keeps going on.
a huge plus this week is that New Jersey has pushed through a bill for INTERNATIONAL gaming for a larger playerbase which will move most of us from the USA to Jersey overnight.
This is what you should be looking forward to.
Also, Sheldon Addelson *sp? has kind of made an ass out of himself in the past week or two, he has hurt his case some. I do believe he will have some sort of short term impact here, but nothing sustainable.
The #'s have been coming in (hands/profits for sites) and its in the millions, and continuously growing and the casino's have tied in tens to hundreds of millions of dollars for upstart costs, this is locked in for at least 10 years (there is a 10 year clause somewhere in the Bills) without a complete VETO from the house, things will continue to progress.
The Wire act will stay as is, its been through the courts.
Even if it gets changed back, nothing changes here, and we have plenty of good sites + casino's to play in, with random grind trips out of country, its a blessing, if you view it that way.
but yeah, take it from someone with OCd who reads every article for the last 2 years 11 months and 2 weeks. Things are only going forward, one man with billions has a problem with it, the online gambling lottery of the USA has a problem with Sheldon, they side with us 100%, because if the wire act is repealed, then ppl can't buy tickets online, which would crush there industry etc.
In the near future - vegas and deleware will be playing together compacted legally, with legal cashouts in either state borders. You will have to be in those states (altho you won't have to live there)
New Jersey (AC) will most likely join up....hopefully.
I'm sure bwin.partypoker/borgata will be wanting it.
This bill PASSED within 24 hours.
This is kinda sweet, I've been back a week and I've been telling ppl not to expect legal online poker for like 10 years (at least outside LV and NJ)
cmon baby lets hope this starts a good roll, theres been a lot of "news" lately, maybe this will push other states.
California also has 2 bills on the desk, they are looking to deal there first hand 1/1/2015. With 38 million people, they have not shown any interest in sharing player pools.
some info for those who want to know.
theres 3 main legal sites that will be open in LV and Delaware
Happy for you guys that were tied up on FTP too, hope all goes well.
Hey guys, remember when I went to buffalo and did that 1k and got 3rd for 16.5k (4th 3rd ok 3rd )
well they are running a series again - if you are in the area or are going let me know!
----- (if u live close post this to facebook plz) -----
Do you enjoy playing a poker tournament? This is the first good tournament series....in a while.....for everyone in our area! Buy-ins are affordable, big first places, everyone sign up, i want 1st to be huge in everything!
Got back a couple days ago to the states after 6 months up in Canada, happy to be home. Was the biggest rollercoaster I've ever been on.
the trip was going really well, I was making like 1.2k a day for 45 days, then i got way to egotistical...
i forgot how to play from my heart for a long time. =[
Pretty much debt free though, did a good job on that while I was up there which is a great feeling, just a few to john and artanis left
Around January it was my last rent payment (2400 move in and 1200 a month - security covered 4th month on the 4 month lease) - I was struggling a lot, had very little confidence at the table, and had very little food.
I was questioning everything in my life. I sat there and played way above where I've ever played for about 45 days, after that I was playing like a fckin n00b and just lost direction.
Things were shit.
I had like $400 online and rent due in a week.
I managed to get to $1400 and get rent paid, and kept $100 on an rebuilt, knowing there was no reason for me to even be there, other than 60 days rent paid in downtown Ottawa when I was just about broke.
Everytime I won - I was sending my debts out - I kept nothing, John (jlost88) was my backer, he was astonished that i kept 0-10% of what was coming in, but a man on a mission, is just that.
So ya, I flowndered around with very little confidence, didn't have my medication, was having trust issues with the group of poker players I moved up there with, it was shit.
so long story short.
win 45k (got like 20ish of it) paid off mostly (only positive)
brag about it and started playing from ego.
Struggle for 2-3 months.......was making $50-$150 a day and cashing out food money etc.
I got really fed up - it was like day 105 of the downswing, and I stopped playin for a while, the game was making me sick, there was no passion or joy.
After taking a lot of time off, I came back and had a lot of fun again, was playing well, and playing 6max, MTTs and lowstakes PLO - to keep the game fresh and fun.
I then took 3 days and binked out a few tournaments (hadn't even paid for my ticket home yet on the 8th or so when I cashed out) - first day I invested 133 with helviti from LP, we won 1400, 2nd day we invested like 200 and got back like 100 each profit, 3rd day we both got a few hundo too. we tried the SM and a few other highstakes good ones but they didn't pan out. lost a flip for like 80k, just knew he was weak, river ace, w/e.
Got home and been a lot more relaxed, have made some big adjustments, i play cashgames mostly now (but i do 1-2 tournaments a day that are soft and pay well on ACR) and just work for $20 or so an hour at cashgames til I become one of the best. I played like 90k hands of CG's on stars, 50k hands of 1/2 zoom and did really well, I feel very confident in the games, although I'm just rebuilding at NL25 now. Always 4 tabling cash or 1-2 tabling MTT.
In life I haven't met any single cute girls recently, but have cleaned my act up a ton. Quit the clubs for about 4 months, quit any hard drugs, same timing about 4 months now, feel way better everyday.
I started working on my nutrition, feeling I have some deficiencies in some areas, i think this is going to help my life a lot, luckily my brother is a nutrition guru, that really helps.
This is a class stoned neilly ramble
#neverpreview
Ottawa was a really nice city.
I learned that 60-200bi is never close to enough for MTT's...FMl...lol.
I became a cash grinder and changed my mindset 100%, had tons of coaching which I am super thankful for (John, Marshall, Forhelviti, CasinoCasino and my local buddies up there)
I really love the new Iveypoker site, the videos are extremely stellar. feel more confident everytime I watch a video.
I binked a $6 1k (1.4) today - kids can eat. (oh wait, no kids)
I went through more emotional stress, maybe even semi trauma during that last trip. Thats my last trip ever out of the usa for more than a month or two for poker. I just go to hard, I feel like im in a time constraint and have to be grinding 24/7 or something. idk, im slightly degen if im losing too. if im winning, im always in very good control and most people don't understand this. i think its a chemical imbalance or something in my head. not like i can go to my doc and say i ate tons of lsd and mdma over the last 10 years, then he wouldn't give me xanax lol
things got pretty scary up in canada a few times.
i was ballin pretty fckin hard and playing sooo amazing - i was playing on like level 10 about a month in (or whatever just a high ass level) - i had to take a few weeks off waiting on my meds, came back and was at like lvl 4 - expecting to come back at lvl 10. that was fckin terrible. was stressing over the 1st places too much.
i hate tournies.
i spent 4 years on mtts.
ive played poker like 10 years.
im just like a 1/2 - 2/4 6max grinder at roughly 1bb/100....
I have a great tournament skill.
Nowaday I'm gonna grind online mostly, Casino Fri and Sat night and MTT sundays, and ya, like a 6r and one of the "bigs" at ACR each day
About moving to play poker, I just wanna get an apartment here, do what i say above (get a 6 month lease) - hopefully do atleast a 30k wsop schedule - if I have a good summer, move to Humbolt County - Grow green legally and play at night.
When my br gets back to 2500 - I'm starting a 1 year timer. If I don't have 30k saved after all lfie and bills paid in 12 months, then i would go back to school and play on weekends.
I'm going to push it harder this year than I ever have. Hopefully I don't fuck up. About 500 pros tell me everyday I deserve huge wins (exaggeration but god its said a lot to me) - I've been cleaning my life up and working really hard and studying life a beast to just be the best beast ever.
thats a true ramble.
been a long time since I posted.
I got back a few days ago, I hope to ski 1-2 times and keep grinding a lot, I just want to get an apartment here I think..........but my friend offered me a great room in las vegas for $350 a month which has legal sites plus bodog and acr...and i'd be close to the big good live mtt's which will give me more opportunities at winning them. - gonna try to relax til 5k or so and make a decision then...
Fira - I've had some weird poker dreams man. One night I was walking from las vegas to my house, then barack obama and i were in the air parachuting to the earth, as i landed, i walked the land, and went over a hill, and Greg Raymer was there. His wife was super nice, they took me in, we had a great meal, and I stayed the night at there house lol.
Also, had a dream I was at the table with my dad and JohnnyCosmo and Elky (i think) - I had like AA - it was a FT and like everyone went all-in and I had AA and held, then JohnnyCosmo ran infront of the Trophy and stole the picture! I think they gave him the $ in the dream too!
I hope you guys have been well, I had to take a lil time off from LP, my ego gets goin sometimes, its a love/hate.
So I'm kinda sittin here and just sux lookin at the games I am BR'd for, I talked to some of my backers and they all wanna do stuff over longterm, stuff that I really don't want to get involved in again. I figured I'd put something up here on the LP, I've had a couple good stakes through here with Jlost and Marshall etc, had 1 go bad (i paid it back in full w/ barbieman)
Btw - I ONLY Know ppl that wanna stake LONG TERM which is why I am/haven't been taking a stake.
There is 1 Form of a stake I WOULD/WANT to TAKE, a stake that Can/Should Yield a 2-8k profit over 2 weeks with very little Risk. I'll post it here. (3.5 180s 99% - $500 a pop, i can win manyyyyy, many chips in play, so many fish, this is all this is about)
I 12-15 table during day, 4 table end of sessions in these.
I'm looking for a 1k investment. If i lose it, i'll payback 50% (i once messed up a stake on here with barbieman for 4k, and paid back the full 4k to him, he can vouch for me here as well as tons of other ppl, I am 110% good for any amt, esp $500 quick payback if shitwinds were to swirl -LaHEY!)
I will only do a stake under those conditions, these are insanely high ROI games. My Roi is VERY BIG in these games. I can send you shark scope stuff if you need.
Can't afford to take longer than a 2 week stake and to spend more than 2 weeks in these games.
My graph is SNGs is a Nano graph.
My graph is MTT's is almost a Nano graph.
I play ~10 hr days.
LMK
I'll keep grinding 6max and $3.50 45 mans ti I hear if anyone wants to do a shortterm stake. I asked like 5 ppl on skype. Nobody wanted to do anything short term...only long term...
These games are a cakewalk. I'll be in them 50/50 on you or in a day or week or two on my own.
Send me a Private Message if you are interested. This is ONLY for Pokerstars.com
WBN tho - HonestyBloGSux@LP
We can do something higher btw, but this is as much of a "sure shot" as I can give someone to make the lowest risk few grand on there money in a couple weeks. If you want we can talk about anything higher if you'd like. Most likely first come first serve, wouldn't mind starting in the next day or two in just pure 3.50 180s with atleast 100bi (9.50 a bi w/ rebuy and addon)
So ya, If you want you can stake this, Private message me, 14 days.
Postin bout day 2 tomorrow, been very busy all night, had to run errands w/ a friend, go to bank etc, woke up at like 7pm lol..might need to just stay up til 9pm tonight to get back on normal sleep schedule.
ok so ya if u want u can stake 1k its 100bi for a sick high roi game (1.5k is a more steady br for the games but i can/will make 1k work about just as often so w/e -- just makin it more open to the public since less ppl will do shorter term staking deals)
This is the only time I believe I will/would ask for a stake for 3.50 180s or anything, I hate being staked in general, Its just a rush to make as much as possible and its very profitable.
i'd snapcall this if I could
I'll give you my previous backers skype info so you can talk with them to know the integrity and volume that i work with
i also coach any backers that are looking for mtt coaching for free, if that is something someone wants.
not beggin - puttin it out there cuz im low right now - but imma battle either way. be on my side or not, imma battle to the top. This will make it much easier, nicer, calmer and faster to the top, since the games I'm currently in will take me about a week to get to 1k in...
PS - My math has me at $800 a day which is $12k after 14 days.
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