Hey guys, gonna do a write up on my first 4 months in Canada so far (3 months 28 days or so)
Key points - No More Rent Payments, at 100% with backup backers if need be, 60-65 days left.
So I got up here and stayed with a good friend, we were drinking alot, going out a lot, was a fun month, he charged me $100 a week and was very hospitable. He does really well in most 2/5 games around the city and has been playin around 10 years. That was a lot of fun.
After a month, his lease was up, he moved into a new apartment, it was a 1 BR, so I found a place on a craigslist like site (moved in with a Tibetan man and his French Canadian Wife. They had 2 kids, one dressed like a pirate all the time and was cool as heck, the other was a lil 2 year old girl, she was cute but never said much. she would just smile up at me though that house was speaking french,english and Tibetan. Tibetan mostly, kinda cool since my Father and step-mom are Tibetan Buddhists. Had a great insight. There was some sweet bike trails, was a safe nice neighborhood, but living with a family after being on my own for 10 yrs was really starting to cramp my stlye. The kids would scream so loud for sooo long...it was sick.
I then went and found a 4 month lease downtown Ottawa, since its downtown its pretty steep (I just had a sick heater though so wasn't to worried about it) ~1200/month (paid 2400 move in - security deposit will be my Jan 14th - Feb 14th rent) - Paying rent again in ~3 days.
I was staked the Majority of the time I was up here which was cool, I made a solid 40k or so and things were great. I was very content and working hard non stop etc.
After moving into my new house...we hit quite the hick-up. I had an issue with getting my medication (Bi-Polar/OCD) - and had to go 2 weeks without playing. When I came back, my reads were off, my timing was off, everything was off.
After a few days, -5k or so...after a week....-15k or so...after 6 weeks...-28k or so in gameplay....
Nothing was going my way, AK vs AT on K77 boards, JQ turn riv, KK vs AK, A riv everytime etc, for thousands obviously.
I never took any time off, my heart knew I was in a semi manic state, I knew I needed time off, but also the ticking time frame of Canada (2 months 3 days before Jersey I imagine) (can stay 6mo/yr)
So I was off the stake, got a loan that I tilted into the ground, got another $500 loan and finally started playing decently. Thank god I paid off like 20k in debt prior, or there's no way in hell I would have had any credibility in the industry to stay afloat and I would have went home packing on the 14th most likely. Maybe a little silver lining of good karma there for working so hard for so long to rectify my past, always leaving myself with practically nothing..
SO ya, after I was off the stake, I was doing pretty bad, I lost for 3 weeks, then took 3 days off, that I knew I needed to take like a month ago.
Came back and fell into a good rhythm again, on a Very Low Bankroll ($500) I was playing mostly 45 man SNG's and NL10.
I managed to bink out a 3.5 180 and get 2nd in another one at the same time for a solid $800, and finish the night in some $4.40 1k max for 2nd for another $200 and something.
OK that was GOOD. Rent PAID.
No More Rent Payments in Canada for the following 2 months. Only expenses are food and a lil green.
Time to take this BR to the Roof.
So since I got off the stake, I've been thinking purely in terms of hourly.
I have been doing the grind in multiple ways, but ZooM is the most fitting.
I have been playing 90-120 minute zoom sessions, taking 30-90 minutes off, and doing the same. then going to SNG's at night (reg 10-20) and finish the night with a few mtts and look to bink out good.
So i have 2 months left, im low br'd - but i survived lol, i have ppl that want to back me if need be, but yeah, take my time and good br management and i shouldn't need to worry about much, although going back to work for John may happen in the future.
Lifes been nuts, 45k upswing, 30k downswing, kinda on like a lil swing up i guess now? uptickin a grand or more...2 months to get to 20-50k.
Workin hard...
Thx for everyones support via skype through the tough times, things are lookin up again, LI YOU WILL GET IT LOL! NO BULLSHIT! Sry didn't take care of you on that upswing sir! Get it to ya when I can
Respect guys,
I'm gonna Chronicle Everyday to Robusto or Busto with 60 days of blogging before I gotta bounce back to USA.
On my Own I make like 2-20k a month
Staked, I make like 15-50k a month...lets see if I can get to 5-20k by 30 days and 30-100k by 60 days. That'd be sweet.
>be me
>be looking for job
>be putting in resumes
>go to a smoke shop one day to buy incense
>not even looking for a yob
>see two friends working there
>qt 3.14's all day
>they say that two people are going to be leaving, i should put in muh resume and they'll gimme a good word
>do just that, but miss the boss lady the day I put in my resume by literally one minute
>go next monday, today, to introduce myself
>"Hello, I'm person and I put in a resume last week. Have you had the chance to look it over?"
>"fdsaf"
>"I didn't catch that?"
>"i donnn probbly what?"
>"Have you looked over my resume?"
>"...." continues looking at her phone
>not a single second I was in the store did she take her eyes off of it
>not even a glance at me
>I know this behavior
>she's fucking barred out
>nopethefuckouttathere.png
>find out the place was robbed a couple hours before I went up there after i left
>find out she's barred the fuck out, as assumed
I don't know if I should try again tomorrow or something? I wanted to rage so bad when I realized she was fucked up.
>be me
>play $1 for $11 coupon MTT
>first place out of 130
>wait until a couple weeks for 10k gtd $11 tourny
>be today
>be play tourny
>2k for first place pays up to like 50
>be doing semi bad, but making monster folds I wouldn't make in cash
>...
>...
>...
>why the fuck isn't the hand oveR?
>can't open up lobby
>start getting mad
>try closing the client to restart it
>it's not closing
>go to task manager
>it's not even fucking there
>have to restart my computer
>ten minutes later
>open up client
>logging in...
>...
>...
>keep restarting client
>30 minutes later
>see that I'm down a fifth of my stack
I knew this shit was going to happen today. I don't even think it's my wireless internet since I was able to get on bovada and look on the internet.
You oughta Look Out? No my precious, this blog is about the proper douchey meaning.. There's a lot of people that are waiting for something. They are the far seer causality scientists of this world and speak in the "when" "then" terms. When the perfectly right moment arises, then I'll speak to that hot chick in my class. When i retire, then I'll start working on my dreamy model airplanes. When I get promoted or fired and change my job, then I'll be happy. What they don't realize is that they can be run over an ice cream truck tomorrow, and also how the human brain works.
The brain is constantly overwhelmed by an endless stream of information, ant it's constantly to process it and make sense of it all whilst projecting everything assimilated into the future in order to help you make decisions. In the process it simplifies, anchors to arbitrary things, and tries to see patterns even where there absolutely are none. It fabricates the projection of the future, but also manipulates the understanding of the present.
So fuck the when and then, either act and take the steps to shag that girl or build the model airplane RIGHT NOW. Or simply ask your brain often, loud and clear to perceive the present; not the fabricated projection of the future; as the time and place to be happy, as the time of opportunities, not problems. Because even when you are absolutely sure you know the "when" and "then" you are still probably wrong.
/end random bored on subway ramble.
Personal shit:
Went to Paris for 4 days, spent one watching 4 Star Wars movies in a row with my pal drinking their largest, 250ml beers. Yolo.
I'm sort of tilted after downswing breakevening for the past 10k hands. I'm doing a lot of experimenting with my basic strategy and static ranges and maybe getting better maybe not, but there has been some growing pains and while Holdem is alot simpler than something like Omaha there are still quite a bit of situations to standardize and its been alot of mindpower trying to get that under control. Im insanely behind whatever curve there is in the poker world and its kind of depressing thinking about how good probably some of the regs are on this site (Song,Longple,Marshall, etc). I had a shitty session yesterday and today so I'm blogging to be a little less annoyed. I guess this is a late november results post. Made around 2.2k live and a bit online as you can see by the graph. Some hands got lost from the 23rd I guess from Bovada's customer service getting raided. I think I was at around 3.7k in October and with bonuses a bit over 4k for November. December is starting out pretty shitty so far. Anyway I wanted to make a winning month blog post just in case December keeps going like this and I never win at poker ever.
So I just finished a proud blog last week about how I'm playing zone poker and taking advantage of all the dead money I see going around, with the biggest element that I buy in for 50BB's to limit my losses when I get coolered. I figured if everyone is anonymous then there's no incentive to play big deep pots because you dont know if your opponent is the type to pay off with a 3rd nut flush draw. So I post all these stats and stuff as evidence of my playstyle when I realized I missed the most important stat of all, showdown value hands. A quick glimpse at what REALLY makes me money, and surprise surprise, flushes and sets top the list. Well obviously these are the kinds of hands you want to be playing big pots for, ergo implied odds really do exist even in a completely anonymous structure.
While the button still proves to be the most profitable position for me, I need to start buying back in full and playing all those drawing hands, BUT ONLY those drawing hands. I knew there was a reason I stopped buying in full, and it wasnt because my draws never get there. It's because I keep hemorrhaging money with 2nd pair or worse. This sounds pretty asinine but I dont see how I didnt notice this on my own. I do relatively well with top pair, but apparently I'm down like $500 at NL25 and NL50 playing less than top pair, with no draw! Upon looking over the hands I can tell what I was doing, and that was just lots of bluffcatching in retarded spots where villain 3 barrel donkbets Q8o on a QJ57T board. I mean my "read" is often right in these situations, villain was turning his hand into a bluff, the problem is *he didnt know that*. I've also lost quite a bit on bluff attempts that probably arent necessary. I dont know how to quantify it but I'd be surprised if I'm even breakeven on my bluffs, so I'm just gonna stop. By bluff, I mean like a 3 street allin type bluff.
Anyway the kinds of hands paying off my flushes have actually been surprisingly bad, so I've decided that any 2 suited will do, so I'm either raising or calling any standard open with literally any 2 suited. People still fold to cbets a lot in zone poker.
I signed a deal to make 18 videos at runitonce over the next 12 months. Thought some of you might like to know.
Been running kind of bad in poker the last few weeks. Funny that whenever I post about big wins I seem to hit a downswing almost right after maybe 4 times out of 5. Very weird. Looks like only going to profit 15k for last month. Also I busted my ACR roll trying to play 25/50 and have run like 10k under expectation @ PLO so probably need to find a way to get some more funds on there.
I signed a deal to make 18 videos at runitonce over the next 12 months. Thought some of you might like to know.
Been running kind of bad in poker the last few weeks. Funny that whenever I post about big wins I seem to hit a downswing almost right after maybe 4 times out of 5. Very weird. Looks like only going to profit 15k for last month. Also I busted my ACR roll trying to play 25/50 and have run like 10k under expectation @ PLO so probably need to find a way to get some more funds on there.
As usual, my dedication to updating this blog is pretty well synced up with my desire for cleaning the house. Both are useful and similar, as I can organize my things and thoughts; but the motivation to do either is often out of my grasp. Ah, procrastination, you made up word that makes me feel less guilty about my laziness...
On to the content. Since my last update, I have dabbled in sports betting a bit with no success at first. Then with stricter guidelines on bet-sizing and more research I've upswung and wiped out all of my losses. I've made 235 bets so for a total profit of 3 units. Nothing to be proud of really, but considering I was down about 50 units and recovered I'm pretty happy with how things have progressed.
In poker, I've recovered from the downswing I blogged about in August, and have been taking occasional shots at 10/20 in good games. Sunday was such a day.
I played 13 hours at 10/20 in a great game. Unfortunately, being in a great game never guarantees victory, and I was taking the worst of it. I was in for 10k after a few 3k buyins and had worked my stack up to 7500 and was grinding away. I took a short break and was chatting up a friend when I returned to the table and posted in the cutoff. The whale at the table limps in under the gun, and it folds to me. I look down at two red kings and raise it up to 120. A button-clicking regular makes it 380 in the big blind and the whale cold calls. Both players have me covered, and I can't afford to take a flop 3 handed. Also, with the whale calling, my hand will look much weaker if I put in a raise, potentially attempting to get HU with the whale or just take down the dead money.
"1300" I announce as I slide 12 more black chips into the pot. Button clicker sizes up my stack and nonchalantly tosses two yellow chips and a purple chip into the pot.
"$2,880" the dealer says as the whale pretends to go all-in; his three of hearts flashes as he throws his cards toward the muck. I announce all-in despite that fear in the back of my mind that he has me dead to rights. But....
We agree to run it twice. The first board comes down Qd 3c Qh Js As. I can't imagine winning on that board unless he has the other two kings...The next board comes down Qs 8h Ac Ad 4d and I reluctantly flip my hand over as my mind races to think of some combination of a hand he could have that involves me getting at least half the pot. I hear a quiet chuckle from my opponent as he flips over the Ks, and what seemed like five minutes later, the Ah.
Steam.
And with that, I left, and sent myself back to the coal mines to grind out that 10k loss at 5/10 the rest of this month.
Results:
Year to Date
Net
$80,710.54
Days Played
227
Hours played-Cash
1714:44:00
Hourly (total)
$47.07
Hourly (cash only)
$77.02
MTTs played
43
% win rate for cash 54.19%
ITM rate for MTTs 16.28%
Cash Net Winnings 124,393
MTT Net Winnings (64,547.70) (this is the total, including money given to me for selling pieces)
Looking forward to finishing this year off strong with a lot of hours before the baby comes. I'll try to post an end-of-year update in early January.
Optimism,Realisim,Cynisismby GoldRush, December 03
I say lets all be optimistic, stop being cynical about everything because things that have attached to our ego's over time, let it all go, be real, keep workin our asses off 24/7, never forget you are a student of the game, you choose this game cuz you love it (at least deep down, you did at one time!) and keep ur fckin nose to the grindstone!
btw im doing tons of SNG's now - cg sometimes but rarely, MTT's make me a lil sick recently, 5, 2 hour, 6 tabling 6max SNG sessions, or a stackmixture of 45mans and 180 mans.
Been working on finding the best hourly for my game with the lowest variance and obviously highest net worth per month
idk if i'll make more hourly doing the 6max sngs (can do about 88 every 4 hours, so yeah over 100 a day in some soft fields maybe vv gud hourly)
I'll be doing this til mid month (rent) - spend most the time doing 6max sng's (turbos) - and sometimes stacking all the sng's etc
oh, ya, i lost alot, i won some back thankfully cuz im a fish and fish get lucky, but i got a long way to go. hobbit road!
ne ways, time to remember why we play,
have fun with the game again!
Stop Stressin shit you can't control
Have fun
#rant
Ryan
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that house was speaking french,english and Tibetan. Tibetan mostly, kinda cool since my Father and step-mom are Tibetan Buddhists. Had a great insight. There was some sweet bike trails, was a safe nice neighborhood, but living with a family after being on my own for 10 yrs was really starting to cramp my stlye. The kids would scream so loud for sooo long...it was sick.
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