Thats right, I'm gay provided poker is not a chick.
I have an A2 poster on my wall which has about 50 $100 bills and a bunch of high stakes chips and writing 'We all measure change differently'. I play NL10. My old love, I am back <3
About a month ago I got a serious doomswitch.. some 40BI below EV in a span of 7 days. No big deal, thats poker and I just grinded through it while focusing on my A game.
The only problem is I didn't.
Instead I tried Dota 'for a couple hours' and played some 150 hours of it since then.
A combination of frustration from poker and my deeply rooted Dota addiction basically meant that I got out of touch and played like crazy on Iccup, it just seems like so much more fun than poker when money is not my motivator, its simply easier to unwind playing Dota than poker after a long day at work.
So I haven't touched poker, LP or anything poker related in over a month now. I lost my SN on Stars. And I still deep down have a stigma from losing since I quit after a doomswitch.
Luckily, I will have 2 weeks of holidays starting Friday, first in a very long time. I need to get rid of the stress, recharge my energy and just gently cuddle with poker on a site that doesn't force me to play a million hands per month and restore the fun I always had playing poker.
P.S. Sorry to all for being out of touch, dota is such a time and attention guzzler
Swimmin' in online riches makes me tilt
I live in Scotland but I don't even own a kilt...
So I decided to cash out,
And to celebrate...engage in a shopping bash out.
Less cash online should make me cautious -
from recent tilt and spewing I started to feel nauseous.
My bankroll now is a mere two thousand pounds,
Hopefully this will make my win rate upwardly bounce.
Now its time to leave to do my daily chore,
hopefully you will enjoy picture of this sexy Asian whore!
Where the fuck are my creative writing skills?
Why the hell are all my blogs boring as fuck?
Why do I prefer the ROFL thread and level 1 humor before the complex joke essays I always loved?
Why can't I focus on an article longer than 2 pages in the Economist unless its REALLY super interesting?
I can't even bloody focus on a movie unless its something super epic like Lord of the Rings without checking LP, news or other BS on the net.
The only book I read from start to finish during the last year was Ace on the River...with like 200 pages half of them pictures.
I suffer from huge multitasking overload. It was ok when I was playing Starcraft because I was...well playing Starcraft and that was what I focused on. And I was always taking long hours to write reports and complex hoax forum posts with my clan.
But now? My job IS multitasking. I am an admin support to 3 different teams, and I hardly ever see medium term project from start to finish. I manage 3 busy shared mailboxes and have 6+ things on my agenda daily.
And when I come home? lol...
Yesterday I asked my GF if she can see that rash on my back...Well those were just spots from my PC chair where I was sitting for 16 hours on Sunday.
Conclusion
What the hell do you expect? There is none. I am an Internet kid - you tell me. Even now, I am watching the documentary, writing a blog, checking sports news and thinking about what movie I will watch (while not really focusing on it and doing 4 more things)
FU 6Max
It sucks, I will play much more HU from now on - this stuff is so much fun.And I feel like I am in control. HU
First match I played I got run over. I lost some 7 BI to one dude - he ran like Thor on Steroids.
I did however adjust to HU play, and went on crush a couple regs and a fish or two.
Today's HU:
Progress after my Purge and NL50 challenge started (NL50 crushaments, NL100 shot and HU) + Show Spoiler +
The only downside is one tilting thing - table selection.
There are like 50 tables open, and I have to open like 30, sit down 20 times before I get action for 10 minutes
-Should I open 50 billion tables myself and wait for joiners?
Gym
I am starting to get into fitness again.
During a brisk visit of a local supplements shop, which I have entered in order to acquire a mere plastic bottle, I have been persuaded by a very strong, but very, very dumb salesman (I got a sweet spot for Hulk -and the resemblance was truly there)to acquire not only the bottle, but also Protein shake and Amino Acids, totaling $50.
On Friday I woke up all motivated at 6:30 in the morning (Where I have never ever been up before 8 past 2years), and attended a spinning class.
Spitting blood and almost passing out 6 times I went through it (I can't give up in front of a sexy female instructor now can I, despite my arse hurting so badly from the small, female-suited saddles they got on the spinning bikes), and also went on being half asleep the entire day at work after that.
On Saturday I don't know why, but I went to the gym. Luckily I was the only one there, so nobody heard my crying when I was benching 50KG (I used to bench 70kg when my weight was 72. Now I weight 100kg and 50kg on bench press knocks me out for a week).
This madness will continue next week, where I have football on Monday, Accumulator (weightlifting with an instructor or sth) on Wednesday, and spinning on Friday morning before work AGAIN.
This probably still won't be enough - The Hulk suggested that working out twice per two weeks is not enough, and I should workout (like weightlifting stuff) 4 days per week AND have cardio on top of that lol.
Well, maybe some day, lets start with small steps.
Marvel Animation
I got hooked to it so much
After seeing real-life Hulk I became the biggest fan
I saw Ultimate Avengers I&II, Hulk VS Thor and Wolverine and Planet Hulk.
Back to NL50, and most likely until my holiday in may. I have completely lost composure and focus on the tables, and the whole shot was my B-C game with some 10% A game - back to usual.
I kinda didn't have a goal or a plan, and the successful pokering in 50 days before the shot took its toll on my stress levels and real life too much. I was late to work quite a bit because of reading articles, watching vids and reading LP, my healthy eating goals disappeared and I became too attached to my winnings.
The result was a typical burnout, which is simply impossible to avoid with stressful full-time job when I become too attached to poker. And it came right about the time I moved to NL100.
Maybe there are people who can be winners longterm and work hard, but certainly not me, a simple fat lazy person with limited capabilities.
I dunno what the fuck happened to the important goals - Building health and Fitness to be able to grind heroic sessions when poker will be actually my income, I became obsessed with the game once more neglecting everything, which led to - oh what a surprise: much worse performance at the thing I am obsessed about.
My only April poker goal is to make 7,500 VPP, care much less about poker and get myself together
I signed for a Spinning class on 7:30 AM before work on Friday, and that should be a decent start to get me back on track.
I have been tilted for some 10 days now.
The higher amount of money makes me feel 'committed' and I close my eyes and 3barrel no matter what the board brings way too much.
I also hd a period where I called all hands instead of 3betting them in blinds ...eww
The tables make me also play very aggressive preflop with some 28/25 my average VPIP and 34 +on some tables (not due to tilt, simply because of the player composition), and it took me a lot of $$$ to get used to the endless trapping and light call downs from regs.
NL50 regs aren't capable of calling down a midpair, or raising TP decent kicker for value, and are ridiculously polarised all the time, but NL100 regs can do that indeed. The result of this is that I felt tilted during all my sessions and am doing ridiculous stuff and spew all over the place.
The counter is obvious - play as aggro preflop as the table permits, and turn into a passive nit postflop due to the 'level1' adjustment based on PF stats as I believe that only a handful of regs watch all tables and make notes like I do, and they don't adjust preflop well.
That shit ain't easy though after my total ownage at NL50. I simply got used to win 60% off my sessions and rarely have a losing day way too much.
Hopefully I will soon stop tilting, use my image to my advantage and get the fuck out of the break even realm.
Graph for you Graph Monkeys (the -EV was balanced by setups, so I don't run good nor bad). The result are actually good, but I feel real bad about my game right now and if it was -15BI I wouldn't be surprised at all.
it
P.S. also, some 1800 VPP to go this month, hopefully I will make
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